Happy bee flying past October and soon November

Did some photo shooting of the falling maple leaves last Sunday. Music is my main source of inspiration, photography is another. Seeing things through the small lens simply bring the world to the next level. Many things look much simpler, clean, and full of emotions through the tiny hole.

Moved into a new studio last month.  My previous landlady decided to sell her unit so I had to look for a new place to stay, hence the opportunity to consider renting a studio. Living in a studio is a first-time experience for me, so I was very excited about it despite the rent, that’s the price I’m willing to pay for a complete personal space.

J Now I don’t have to tolerate with dirty and sensitive room mates, and have the whole kitchen and living room entirely by myself. I can also invite good friends for afternoon baking or dinner. These plans cheer me up so much and motivate me to earn more money so that my savings plan is not delayed by the higher rent.

Celebrated my 24^th birthday last month and held home parties with all my good friends. That was the most comfortable birthday celebration I had in these past few years. Not only I wanted myself to fully immerse in a relaxing environment on my big day, I hope my friends would feel comfortable as well by not having to cramp with other people in restaurant, wait for long line ups or suffer from a long walk in this cold weather.

J  Since I'm living by myself now,  I think it’s just perfect timing to have a home party without any interruption.

Celebrated with Kareshi on the exact day and I was too lazy to dress up for fine dining after work, so I decided to make things simple and buy take-out foods. I managed to get some onion rings after work, that must be birthday luck because these puppies are usually sold out when I go there after work. Movie with take-out foods with Kareshi by my side, not too bad of a celebration eh J

Tried out a new cafe, Fanbourg, at Downtown with Xin. I love their macarons! The crust is baked to the right texture and filling is not too sweet, just nice for my liking. I’m really embracing tea time with my girls and chat about anything together while enjoying good desserts. That simply makes my weekends more lovely and fruitful.

Attended good friend’s convocation in SFU. I began to go to SFU more frequently since I started dating with Kareshi, feels like I’ll discover something beautiful about this place upon every visit. Haha I found a nice fish pond this time!

Also like how they hold convocation ceremony in an open space, the blue theme effortlessly makes the ambience look more peaceful. Friends joked to me, saying I should have gone to SFU since I love blue so much *pointing fingers*

Woke up to a beautiful sunrise one morning and that gave me the energy boost to start work.  I guess that’s one of the reasons I love living in high rise building, the view up here can be breathtaking at times.

It’s almost the end of the year again and I’d say 2013 is definitely a year to remember, it’s more of a year of mental changes in preparing myself to become fully responsible of my life regardless the people around me.

常常觉得，无论身边有没有人照顾，也不能停止对自己未来的生活铺路，也不要一直无止尽地等待别人跟我一起准备以后的生活。时机到了，自然会有一起生活，一起承担责任的时候，所以在那之前，先想好自己的未来就好。

5 things that make me a happy bee.

1. Boy totally understands my Pooh crave and he got me Pooh earphones 2 weeks ago. It's madly cute that I decided to leave it unopened to avoid any pollution and damage to it. I know, I know that I totally defeat the purpose of him buying this cutie to me, but I really treasure it so much that I don't want it to get dirty, not even a bit. ~_~ Help me with my dilemma please!

2. Round-trip ticket to Hawaii at the end of August. Hola, after so much of waiting, I'm finally going to step foot on my dream paradise, and it all happens within a few magical clicks. I'm so glad that I still keep up with the 'die die also want to go travel' spirit and I still value traveling as an important passion of mine and make it happen every year.

3. I'm a small eater but a little bit of snacks always lift up my day. I was grocery shopping for some Japanese snacks at a konbiniya today and I saw something sparkling ( well to me it was sparkling) at the shelf. I just couldn't stop screaming ( lol in heart of course) when I saw Tohato matcha flavour sitting nicely, waiting to come home with me tee hee~~~ Ah I will always love you, Tohato!

4. Had a lovely walk with Kareshi on a Sunday and it was nothing more than feeling blissful. We never really had a walk in a while because we are either busy or lazy to go out. But I feel that staying outdoor, enjoying relaxing talk are one of the best ways to gain the intimacy between couple. Yes, otaku needs to go out and breathe in fresh air once in a while too, I'm glad that he recognizes the importance of doing this. 

5. Went to my co-worker's son's birthday bash at New Westminster and I bumped into this super artistic tree which is growing upside down. It looks like a girl doing yoga pose-headstand to me, but some said it looks like a hula dancer waving her dress. Funny how a tree appearance can be interpreted in so many ways, but that again proves to me that humans can be very creative creatures at times. 

Anyway, I've reached the age of attending birthday parties of my friends' children, that is such a GAH moment. I can sniff the arrival of my aging process already -_-.

Unbaked greetea cheesecake

It was my friend's birthday 2 days ago and I had no idea on what to get him for his birthday. So I accepted his friend's idea of getting him food since I believe food satisfies guys' stomach after girlfriend .

But.. there was another problem I had to overcome with: I have no oven at home!

Ottoke Ottoke?????? Don't worry, there's always a thing called unbaked cake, which involves pure mixing and refrigerating the product. And I... went for that idea undoubtedly!

I snapped a few shots of the cake-making process this time, just to give you guys a heads up. As you can see, the process was really simple, so simple that I guess the only complicating part was to wash all the bowls and utensils =_= Seriously, I hate dish washing!

I thought the cake appearance looked decent given the preparation time I had ( only refrigerated it for 4 hours), even scooped out a tiny bit to ensure the taste was fine before packing.

When arriving at the restaurant, I handed over my cake to the staff and asked her to put it in the fridge. THAT WAS WHERE THE MISTAKE BEGAN! She asked me if I wanted to put the cake in fridge or freezer,and I silly head agreed on the fridge. I thought that wouldn't make a difference since I had refrigerated the cake for 4 hours beforehand. But noo... I was too naive to believe in that! To my shock, the cake was melted when it was served and looked nothing like the picture * MEGA UPSET* It just looked like a green-coloured yogurt T_T

That wasn't the saddest thing of all, what saddens me the most was the remark made by the waitress in the restaurant : ' Did you make the cake? I haven't seen a cake like that in the shops, it looks so 'special'. * glass shattering sound* Also, the cake looked flatter than I expected it to be, not sure what went wrong in the process but it was definitely an area of improvement.

I felt sad and embarassed and that fires up my determination to MAKE A GOOD GREENTEA CHEESECAKE NEXT TIME, IN AND OUT! I just can't stand the remorse feeling of not being able to give my best for my friend due to packed academic schedule.

Here's the recipe if you are interested to try it out! PLEASE PUT THE CAKE IN FREEZER, I REPEAT, FREEZER NOT FRIDGE.

http://foodsventures.wordpress.com/2012/03/28/green-tea-cheesecake-no-bake

最后的21岁-自我认识篇

21岁，很多人都把它当成是从少年变成大人的转捩点，但有多少人真的领悟它的真谛，慢慢从思想中找到自我，找到那份属于自己的成熟呢？

我不晓得，我只知道，年纪的确让我有了身为大人的觉悟，一年比一年看透更多事情，一年比一年更收敛，这也许就是属于我的成熟吧！成熟，对现阶段的我来说，是懂得帮助与体谅别人的心情之余，也不忽略自己；是善用自己的智慧在值得投资的事情上，不让诱惑埋没了自己的能力；是充分地了解‘小不忍则乱大某’的重要性，再加以应用在日常生活中；是当全世界都质疑你的时候，你只需用行动来证明自己，让它代替语言上的反驳。

成熟，是在考虑任何事情前都加入100分的自己，还有100分我爱的人才能达到的品行。

这一年里，我让自己尝试了很多新的事物，并从中吸取宝贵的知识与教训。我觉得世界之大，我们的知识还真的显得很微不足道，所以更要不断地从各种管道来学习。无论是小知识或大智慧，都能让我对这世界的新奇度有所惊叹。

21岁，我第一次用自己的能力去买了一些自己喜欢的东西。从mp3，手机一直到电子琴，我真的觉得自己成就感满满，因为那都是靠自己一点一滴的努力与耐心去赚取的梦想。当中以买电子琴最让我高兴，因为那是我在这4年内超想做的事情，只是一直忍耐到今时今日才说服自己去买一部属于自己的梦想，就像可欣说的：‘Yay，你终于把梦想给买回家了！’。对啊，我离兴趣又靠近了一步！用自己的能力买东西真的很有成就感，也多了一份肯定自己的自信，就像程又青的熟女条规一样：‘我要用我自己的钱，买我自己的包包，装我自己的故事’。我也要用我自己的钱，创造属于我自己的故事。

21岁的我，在个性上也出现了一些变化。去年患上厌食症让我深有感触，也因为知道是自己情绪管理不佳进而导致精神与压力不佳，所以开始觉得很多事情还不如自己的健康重要。对于大部分的事情，我都选择了以最能舒缓自己压力的方式来解决它。我也非常注意自己的情绪管理，尽可能不引起过度的悲伤或愤怒，情绪尽量不受别人操控就好。至于对在乎的人，我选择了更直接与中肯的相处方式，把自己真实的想法都传达给他们，让他们明白我对他们的用心。对不在乎的人，我也毫不犹豫地选择了删除的方式还对方自由。这也许听起来很狠，但那绝对是我最后的温柔，至少在足够理由发飙的情况下保持冷静让我觉得我很有风度。因为无奈，也不想再让自己有所伤害，所以选择了放开，希望他们能够找到更懂得与他们相处的人。强人所难本来就不是我的个性，而我也不想再亏待自己过不值得我过的生活。

开心，本来就是一种选择，是一种接受，所以我打开那扇大门，正式欢迎它进入我的生活。

21岁，我觉得我活得够精彩，够自在，也够愉快。

最后的21岁-感情篇

感觉上每一次在生日后写一篇日记已经变成了一种习惯，也许是喜欢总结自己在过去一年的成长，也许是为自己眼神所绽放的坚定而感到自豪，更多的是一种‘我还健健康康地活着’的感恩。 我发现我往往都把自己的感情世界放在文章的最后，也许是一种在乎？还是一种习惯？所以今年我决定打破自己的框框，从自己的感情生活开始写起。

21岁，感情风浪澎湃，遇到4位好好先生，也被好好地对待过，好得让我却步，好得让我相信，原来真的有人会珍惜我的好。只是很可惜我没能让任何一位好好先生搬进自己的心里，也没能好好地回报每一位对我的喜欢。虽然常被很多人问起：‘怎么还没有男朋友呢？以你的条件应该不难找啊’， 又或是更进一步地跳到婚姻的话题，直接催婚了起来。对于这样的问题，其实我已经见怪不怪了，甚至可说是百毒不侵，因为的确是我自己的心不在焉，才会搞成现在的局面。或许是，我已经很明确地确定，感情与条件是非常distinct的两件事，无法相提并论。感情是情绪，条件是理性，一般感觉满满的人很难会做出理性的条件评估；一样地，条件至上的人也无法光靠感觉就能够一直走下去。只要两者都在‘可以接受‘，’还不错‘的范围里面，很多人就会选择一头栽进去了。

我也听过很多人的劝告，尝试跟其他男生约会过再做决定，尽量让自己在感情里放松起来。可是面对感情这么千变万化的事情，我还是不得不投降，因为我真的没办法为自己的喜欢找到一个出口。但是这些都是在努力试过了之后才下的定论，所以我也不觉得有任何值得遗憾的地方。

但我想说，拒绝别人的好，还真的是一件非常难的事情。但，拒绝，总比得过且过来的好，也没那么自私，所以我还是当了那么的一个坏人。

庆幸的是，他们都在离开我之后踏上了各自的路途，也找到了他们自己的公主。看见他们的幸福，让我心里的愧疚感减少了许多，因为他们活得比以前更快乐。毕竟我自己衰就好，总不希望看到别人跟我一样衰，我也希望能够感染他们的快乐呢！所以这一年里，我对感情的看法从悲伤，空洞，再蜕变成为一种喜悦与释怀吧！我常为这种心情上的转变感到自豪，因为对我来说，那是放了自己的真实感，放了自己才能够专心地走接下来的路，接受接下来的美好。

这一年里，我也把自己之前的感情做了一个了结，彻彻底底地把它封到自己的回忆箱子里。这是我第一次正视问题的根源吧，但面对问题教我学会了勇敢，而这份勇敢也为我找到了一个答案，让我更确定我自己所做的选择。因为喜欢过，开心过，努力过，心碎过，流泪过，崩溃过，才再重新来过，这一步步的成长都让我多了一个微笑的理由，所以我始终觉得这些过程对自我成长是好的。虽然这些阶段很令人难受，但它们都让我认识真正的自己与认清事实的真相。毕竟我最难过的并不是两个人没在一起，而是真心从一开始就没被相信过，也因为这样，我坚决地相信摆在我眼前的这个事实。我的死心很倔强，能让我死的了心的决定就代表它已经没有挽回的余地了，所以这一次我可是下了天大的决心要越过这一个坎。他始终不是那个在平行时空里的柯景腾，所以沈佳宜也决定要离开过去，就像书里面说的一样，‘我與他之間的愛情 總算有個不圓滿 卻很踏實的句點’，我们，正是现实生活中的结局。曾经喜欢的两个人，也不一定就适合在一起呐，我算是明白了这种道理。不过我也听说过另一种说法，就是两个人的分开可能会造就四个人的幸福，我很喜欢这种说法，因为它让我觉得黑暗的结束也许是光明的开始。再说事情都已经隔一段落啦，所以我觉得答案也显得不重要了，重要的是，我又微笑着活过来了。

现在的我，最大的挑战就是一个好的时机吧。最近在机缘下遇到了一位好的对象，也隔了很久才再拥有想好好努力的想法。虽然对彼此了解没很深，但总觉得我们有很深的共鸣，拥有很多相同的习惯，是天秤座的关系，还是纯碎的想太多呢？我也不知道，所以我需要的，真的只是一个好的时机去化解这些难题。只是基于这次问题的复杂性，现在并不是发展的最好时机，所以就让时间先让我确定自己的心意吧。

=） 今年生日的其中一个愿望，希望我们都能得到一次努力的机会，只要一次就好。我还真的是第一次许下这么的一个愿望呢，所以希望会成真啦！

April’s fool? Naww, April’s Oreo!!

My first mission in April was to bake a birthday cake for Eu. I’m not really a handicapped when it comes to baking, but making a whole cake entirely by myself was definitely my first experience. However, we wanted to make this birthday a memorable one since it would be the last birthday we celebrate together for Eu in Vancouver before she graduates.Being the experience’less’ twosome, Blackangel and I decided to challenge ourselves with our first cake-baking experience, exclusively for our beloved ex-2614 housemate.

We made it a late-night project since it was the assignments’ peak at this time of the month, so we as the ‘good’ students did our best to balance between friends and studies *chuckles*. It was however a busy day for me because I only started hunting for ingredients on the same day, while doing my grocery shopping simultaneously. Hahah, I couldn’t believe myself switching from Daiso to an asian supermarket, followed by a western supermarket as my ultimate stop in 4 hours,just to make sure that I get everything that I needed! Gah, Vancouver can be quite a troublesome place in doing food shopping sometimes, when everything is so far apart, and when I don’t have a CAR! *sigh*

I chose to bake oreo cheesecake since it’s the easiest cheesecake to make for a new baker like me, moreover it only requires refrigeration to solidify the cake, so I don’t even have to give a head on the possibility of baking a burnt product, although the cheesecake itself is already black enough! I would be way too embarrassed to give something which looks and tastes so unpleasant to my friend.

Tada, so here was the final product which didn’t look quite bad after all *grins*. Although blackangel considered it as a shit-look-alike NICE cake, I still take it as a compliment out of her ‘harshness’. Don’t be too proud with your ‘lipidized’ apple cake and look down on the cake which is made from your best buddy- Mr.oreo okay! =P

Blackangel's apple cake

We had a simple birthday celebration with the birthday girl by chilling out at blackangel’s place on a Sunday afternoon, which pretty much matched with Eu’s homely birthday celebration style. I really like it when the three of us have heart-to-heart talk and let every conversation ends in the same room we have it. It’s not easy to find trustworthy people to talk to nowadays, there are often times when I lose faith in people whom I’ve trusted so so much, and picking up my broken belief is what I usually get in the end. It’s not that I’m blaming them for what they have done to me, but I’ve learned a vital lesson about trust in the end, that you have to select your friends carefully and create your own circle to keep up with the trust.It all comes down to simple math again, where addition and deduction of things are the two rules to derive an ultimate answer for your life choices, so you really have to evaluate your standpoint from time to time to get the true call for your desired life. Faith is the call I possess for the people I choose to include in my life, and I’m lucky enough to have found lovely people who are willing to accept my premium trait wholeheartedly.This is my destiny, and I’m accepting it as it is, undoubtedly.

Seems like the birthday girl really liked our surprise, as I got rewarded red bean soup at night!

Happy Belated once again, Eu猪猪！

p/s: For those of you who are interested in the cheesecake recipe, you can refer to this website:

http://www.malaysianbabes.net/forum/topic/14690-unbaked-oreo-cheesecake/

Happy 21st!

看着蛋糕上插上的21蜡烛，才真正感受到自己已是21岁大人的那份真实感。仔细回想起2010的点点滴滴，不难发现2010对我来说，是很艰辛的一年。今年走遍了每个人生中的低潮，每一波的难关都好像再重复地告诉着我，这，也许就是生活的意义。

在人际关系上，我开始变得更宽容，我选择把有杀伤力的事情都通通忘掉，只求别人给我一些歇息的空间。遇到不想见到的人，我学会了已微笑带过一切，也已微笑结束一切。人若要变得更圆滑，就必须不断地挑战自己的忍耐力才能够把无关紧要的话都不放在心上，只有真正的不在乎，才会刀枪不入。人若要变得更坚强，就必须经历更多才能够锻炼出那粒坚固无比的内丹。



在亲情与友情的经营上，我学会了付出与行动。一直以来，我都很珍惜与家人与BFF的点点滴滴，因为他们就是我内心真正的归属。今年暑假的所有时间都几乎跟他们一起过的，无论是与小侄女侄子的卡通时间，一家人的聚餐，帮狗狗洗澡抓狗骚，BFF的饮茶聚会与旅行，我都很珍惜，因为知道美好的光阴虽美好但也很短暂，所以一直都很珍惜。

幸福是属于懂得包容与付出的人，所以拥有了就必须要双倍地付出，才能够得到持之以恒的幸福。每个人都需要别人的关心，哪怕只是简单的一句谢谢，对不起，好好照顾自己，这些细小的关怀都会无形间拉近彼此的关系，所以绝对不要因为事小而不为。我重新评价了与一些朋友之间的友情，开始把他们归类在生命中不同的区域里，也开始把时间都花在不同的朋友身上，希望能借此扩展自己的视野。对于真挚的友情，我多了一份熟悉，学会更踏实地对自己在乎的人付出更多，并珍惜每一次的美好。对于那些说不上很珍贵的友情，我少了一份期待，就让它们静静地摆放在原地就好。



在学业上，我花了很多时间去尽最大的努力，只希望我的付出能得到好的回报。我开始了解，任何事情都会随着时间而改变，但学业却是能以努力换取的保障，能以努力增加知识的版图，所以我开始为将来做好准备，好好地充实自己。今年，我也花了很多时间用心地经营自己，并努力地达到自己心目中的要求。我相信自我经营才是最聪明的投资，因为只有真正了解自己的需要与兴趣才能更明确地去追求自己的目标。

至于感情，一直都是我内心最弱的一块。今年狠狠地在感情世界里摔了一跤，勉强自己去接受那些难以置信的事实。我不知道该怎么去定义自己的爱情观，也不知该怎么诉说自己的经历，我只是觉得，感情一直都不是单凭付出与等待就能够开花结果的事情。曾经有一段日子，我每天都望着大海，看着日落，对于可以不可以，该与不该做的事情挣扎了很久。默默承受了很久，到最后才发现自己还真的是傻的彻底，因为自己一直都只是他的第二顺位，所以就连生气的资格也没有。我只是让自己有所期待，让自己觉得暧昧是希望，错觉是机会。当时真的觉得自己很卑微，卑微地忽略了可以令自己更开心的生活，卑微地委屈就全，却又无法捍卫自己的感情。我不再勉强自己继续待在他世界的边缘，所以我选择祝福，也选择离开，因为这是我唯一能给的宽容。感情，对我来说，永远都会是一个难题，也许有一天，我会鼓起勇气再去解开这难题。



自己的难题,自己解决,
自己的心情,自己整理,
自己的疼痛,自己埋葬

我能做的，就是咬着牙自己对自己说,坚持下去。

今年是我第一次在温哥华真正庆祝生日，真心感受到了身边每一位朋友的祝福。有时候，我觉得每一次的机会都得来不易，有些人会是过客，有些人会是普通朋友，有些人会永远留在你身边，只是无论结果是如何，我依然觉得，我是幸福的孩子。

今年最大的收获，就是我把一个全新的自己送给了自己。希望这一个不断蜕变的自己能够一直坚持下去，享受每一份美好，熬过每一个难关。

今年生日唯一的愿望是为爸而许的，希望他能赶快好起来。

其他的，都显得不重要了。

When I look back into 2009 Part III

I went to a few field trips last year (a field trip to a semi-virgin forest to collect data, UBC farm trip, and a dairy farm trip). The most special one would be the field trip to a dairy farm, which fell on my birthday. I was really excited about it, because never in my life had I seen a dairy farm before, what more about the entire breeding and milking process. The whole farm is operated by a family called Kitzel, and each of them explained the different sectors in cow's
milk production.

So with the other classmates, I walked through the whole farm-from the milking machine, cow’s barn, dike, till the cow’s pit(last picture) where cow’s poo is neatly placed. Let’s start from the milking machine, notice that the cows do not have tails because that’s for hygiene purpose during the milking process. Last time, when milk was collected manually, cows tend to fling their tail and splash the milk on the milk collector. Therefore, the tails are gone now. The way they milk the cow is by putting the milkers on the teats. The milk collected will then go to a bottle-like bowl and be kept cold till it’s collected by the milk truck.

Speaking about the cow’s pit, it is as big as a basketball court, no joke on that, and Kitzel family is currently working on using the cow’s poo as an energy source to run the farm. Good thing was, I did not suffocate when I walked near it because it did not have the unpleasant smell at all. Then, we went to visit the cow’s barn. There are 3 barns altogether, 1 for the cows&bulls, 1 for the calves, and another one for the pregnant cows. Lastly, we were taught on the cow’s feed-silages stored in the silo.

There were too much to learn in this trip, and I was really glad to have field trips as such to trigger my interest in agricultural field since it’s directly related to my course as well. ^_^ There you go, a good learning trip and also an unforgettable birthday I had.



In 2009,I received a lot of cards, presents, notes and warm wishes from my friends. Mostly consist of encouraging words to wish me all the best in a foreign world. The most touching part was that, they sent me cards on special occasions like Friendship week, Chinese New Year, and Valentine’s day. You name it, I have it.I like D.I.Y things, especially handwritten cards because I love seeing people’s handwriting, it somewhat tells you a bit about that person.

Others sent me secret notes, poems, e-cards and other methods of greetings.And yea,I have a really good news to tell you all:I have a special space reserved for all these cards, so that I can see them whenever I need some nights for memories.
Sometimes I really wish that you guys were here with me, breathing the same air, seeing the same scenery, and living under the same sky, but this seems like asking too much from you guys. Vancouver is like an isolated place, distant 12,781 K.M from Kuala Lumpur, so far that it hurts my butt everytime I fly back home.

But then, I found another good way to express my love for you guys.I began taking scenery pictures to show you guys the place that I’m currently living, the view that I’m looking, to make you feel what I feel, hopefully. I’ve also started my money-saving plan so that I can visit you guys one by one.

For those in Hong Kong (=P Atlee GG will be there soon), NZ (Valerie), Paris(Susie), Aus (My territory, too many people on the list), England (HW,and soon for Lawrence). I’m not sure if I could visit them all, but I guess 1 or 2 will be possible if I worked hard enough.

Just wait for me.

At the same time, please TRY to save some money for an air-ticket to Vancouver, I beg you. At least give it a try!

09年的最后一份生日礼物

最近都在下雨，连自己的心情也随着天气冷了一块。

庆幸的是在远方的朋友都很爱我，会嘘寒问暖，会关心我的境况。

庆幸的是每一次的心灰都会换来一份温暖，给予我最大的关怀与鼓励。

有时候真的不能忽略休息的重要，因为只要稍微停一停，歇一歇，真正看清身边的风景才会惊觉自己所拥有的幸福。

也许你们现在看不见我脸上洋溢着幸福的表情，那是你们时常为我制造无可取代的微笑。

就连回忆也变得有温度了起来，为我抵挡住了外面狂风的侵袭。




今天，25日，收到了今年最后一份的生日礼物，是来自于一位很重要的朋友。

感谢你参与了我今年的生日，毕竟记得才是最重要的过程，真的很感激你的那份心意。

你害怕我会太思念钢琴的触感，所以特意缝制了一座布钢琴给我。

你甚至会顾虑到我的财政状况，‘雪中送炭’来救济我噢！

这叫我怎么能不感动呢？^_^

此刻的心情，除了温暖之外，也还真的无法用言语来形容。

Lian Lian 公主，除了感谢，还是感谢。感谢你的一切，感谢能够在2007年认识到你。

Good times, friends time

Besides busy grasping the lecture notes, I celebrated quite a lot of friends’ birthdays this year. Perhaps September to November is like the peak of birthday parties since there is a lot of September, October, and November babies around me. So I actually celebrate a birthday almost every week.

First, it was Afsan’s birthday!


2 weeks later, we had a birthday party for Isis!


They’re close friends of mine in Vancouver and coincidentally we’re all in the same faculty. Hanging out with them is like putting thousands and thousands of laughing pills into your mouth because they never fail to make my day with their stories. I see them on every school day and we-the threesome are always together when we have the same class.

Richa, on the other hand, is another good buddy of mine as I’ve known her for the longest period among three of them. It’s only until this term that we get to know each other better and go into much more personal conversations.

So much good foods, laughs, and good times when I’m with them.This,is one good contributor to the fun and happiness in my second year so far, and I bet the good times we share will continue to blast off. ^_^

A gift that makes my day.

Last Sunday, when my brain was so dry and deep fried by Chem notes, I took some time out of the book and tried to fix this:



It was one of my birthday presents this year, all the way from Singapore by Atlee Young.

Basically it is a keychain, but what makes it interesting is that it’s a 3D puzzle. It comes in 14 skeleton pieces, so I’ve to patch it up one by one before it can actually turn out to be a Star or Apple.

Initially, I didn’t think it was difficult to put together the 14 pieces by looking at the size of the puzzle.

But ….but……but…..

It turned out that I was very WRONG!

It actually took me a while to figure out things without using a guidebook, because there wasn’t even a piece of paper telling me how to do it. So, after a few trials and errors, mix and match, I finally came up with the end product.

TADA!!



Anyway, it was really a nice gift from you. Although I knew how would the puzzle look like, I still find the process of putting them together enjoyable, and trivial thing like this simply made my day!

Besides that, it was my first time putting in effort to work out something for my birthday gift,when the common scenario is that the birthday gift is wrapped nicely and waiting for me to open it.

That's why, I really need to thank this person,Atlee GG,that was another sweet gift from you.Thank you so much!

Now it’s my turn to surprise you on the coming 27.11.09. Watch out ^_^

Lights on me, it's Bee day.

So I just celebrated my 20th last month. Being a 20 year old “kidult’’, I don’t see myself as a unique individual and how I should be different from the past, because these cumulative experiences and personalities have built up my character for 20 years.

Also, I’m trying to think it in an optimistic way, being a 20 year old is just like living 365.25 days more than a 19 year old. True enough, I feel like 20 is just a beginning of a new chapter in life.

It feels weird to not have husbands and besties to celebrate my birthday for 2 consecutive years. But thanks to the postman, you guys never fail to warm my heart through letters and presents.

It feels weird to not have a birthday hangout, but there was a field trip to compensate it.

It feels weird to not eat cake on the exact day, but I ate a few birthday cakes from other friends’ birthdays to compensate it.

Maybe Alexander is right, when one door closes, another opens.

My new friends in Vancouver hugged me and gave me presents.

Old friends called me one by one to just sing me a birthday song.

Besties and Atlee gg sent me presents through airmail.

A friend wrote me a poem and it was really funny, it made my day.

Housemates had dinner with me and bought me bubbletea.

=) How great is that, for an ordinary person like me to be granted by all these wishes and blessings. I’m not sure since when I pulled down my self-esteem, it is so low that I don’t see myself as a special person anymore, because I’m like you, him, her, and everyone out there, we’re similar in a way that we share most of the fundamental needs in life. But every year, you, him, and her remind me of the significance of my birthday, and how I can be protected and loved.

To me, Bee day is not only about eating cakes or singing birthday songs anymore, but it’s the way we treat a person all these while that counts, that is the cumulative gift we can offer to a person with our heart. When life sucks, a present may keep you warm but good memories cheer you up.

No matter what position I fit in your life, never forget the fact that your michelle, pM, bzz, sis, mm, darmun, wife, munx2, neighbor will always thank you for being part of her life, because you guys allow her to stay bubbly and lame.

So there goes 15.10.09,

A day which was not just about me, but all of you were in as well.



I hope I did bring you good times for the past 15th October of the year.

Still surviving in the midst of assignments and midterms flood

1. I had a peaceful birthday this year, which I will blog about it in details. But I’m really grateful for all the texts, facebook wallposts, e-mails, presents, calls, poem, and everything you guys did to make me feel special on 15th October. I rceived an overwhelming 50 wishes this year, and I was really surprised by that. 50 may not be a significant for some of you, but 50 wishes from friends who are all over the world now make me feel that I’m remembered and missed at that very moment, and it’s good enough to know that.

Thank you very much for that. I’m officially 20 now!!


2. The elder brother of the two little Kenn Kenn (my twin nephews) knows how to address people now. My mom says he’s very cheeky nowadays, knows how to call “ popo”, “yiyi”, “mama” and even knows how to reject something by saying “ ng moi”. How I wished I could be just be there to hear that and kiss them on their face.
* dreaming*



3. I went to a dairy farm on my birthday, and it really was a special experience despite of the unpleasant smell all around the farm, I discovered something interesting about the milk production. More updates about this later.


4. I got to know a very cute Japanese who's very shy,till I don't know if it's my problem or his problem. And he's in my faculty too, hopefully we'll become better friends.

Till then, I'll be back really soon, when I tick-off everything from the assignment list for this week. Stay tuned.

3月4日-候文君日

我也忘了上一次用中文写网志是多久以前的事了。不过这一次，是为候文君写的。

第一次没在文君身边为她庆祝生日，感觉很奇怪。

第一次觉得3月4日有点空闲，感觉很奇怪。

第一次没跟文君讲话那么久，感觉很奇怪。

第一次跟大家分开6个月，感觉很奇怪。

最近你都习惯在sms中加个爱心，我想那是你默默关心我的方式。

有时候，我会觉得我的生活跟你们息息相关，有种在跟你们拍拖的感觉。因为就算到那么远的地方，
你们的声音好像从来都不缺少，你们送我的那只鸡还代表你们一直在我身边支持着我。来了6个月的新地方，说长不长，说短不短，但好像常会在某个角落找得到你们的影子。不是我见鬼，而是我跟你们之间的回忆很容易被勾起。请放心，我并不寂寞，反而学会自己寻找快乐，因为快乐不会老，会一直等到我发觉它的存在。

好朋友不需要很多，因为我相信，该来的会来，该走的也不会留，所以一直的都很感谢你们8年来的陪伴。踏进第9年，真的觉得自己长大了，开始变得豁达，总觉得人进化的速度加倍地在进行，甚至超越自己的成熟度。还好有你们包容我的傻气，还会感激我的耐心，让我很喜欢这样的自己，因为可以为家人，为了你们，甚至为自己而一直努力。这一路来的8年，我们几乎也没吵架，虽然当中会有一些误会，一些人受委屈，我觉得大家最后还是一二三，一步步走到今天，大家共同见证彼此的成长。这8年里有很多小时候的精华在渗透当中，很多傻傻的小细节在为它增加有趣的味道。没想到8年前吵吵闹闹的我们，8年后还能保持联络，在废话连篇中，这是一种平凡又难能可贵的幸福。

第9年，我会跟大家一同前进。

累积了半年的话，好想亲身一一告诉你们。不过，机会也快到了，我保持期待。

3月4日，只能用这个方式祝你：

候文君，生日快乐！

×3月4日，我想起周杰伦的‘最长的电影’，都是你在redang的效应，下次旅行时一定要换歌！=P×

The leaves are turning red

Hey everyone, I just got a new laptop because my previous one couldn't work properly anymore. I suppose this laptop should be sufficient throughout my 4 years of studies.=) I'm satisfied with what I got--> Toshiba U400-061.

Mid-term has started a couple of weeks ago, and I'll be having tests continuosly till the end of Term 1, I'm just a little numb to tests. It has come to one point where I don't grumble for any tests coming in anymore, but just grab the textbook and lecture notes and start revising. That's most probably because I'm used to my schedule and my submission date for every assignment. It's repetitive though,so I'm doing it robotically once the due date is up.

To those who've sent me birthday wish in advance , I sincerely thank all of you for the time and money you all are willing to spend on me.=) I know, I'm still alive here and I'm not alone. I don't think I'll have anything big this year, since I'll be sitting for Biology mid-term on Wednesday night.=) Wish me luck please!

Winter is near, Autumn is here. The leaves begin to turn red now, I shall include a picture of it in the next post.

A Busy April!

I've been living busily since the beginning of March, this keeps my friend wondering what kind of lifestyle I'm up to, those who don't catch up with me often will always ask:

"PM, why don't I see your pictures on your blog?"

I decided to do a little bit of revealing to clear off your doubts, to let you all know that I'm fine though daily routine still continues, but I begin to immune myself to it, and explore the excitement of the day.

Keeping myself busy is a way to lose weight naturally, this works on me I feel.





I made myself to the Samadian Idol's Final, knowing that Winney made it to the final round, I was there specially to support her and inject her with some confidence by seeing some familiar faces down stage. I hope you enjoyed the entire competition, every bit of it from friendship to the supportive crowd, criticism is a way to let you stand out from failures, you'll never get to satisfy everyone, =) but one thing here is, you never fail to satisfy your supportive audiences here, us!

"Winney, bravo and you won for your courage and effort, for always being the singing enthusiast!"

It was another pleasant day being reunited with old friends,they are always the best people to spend a day with.



Everyone of us gathered together before Karen left for her tertiary education to Inti Nilai. The usual lunch, chit-chatting and movie outing to all of us, but it feels greater seeing my close friends who I've not been up together for months.
Thank you Chew Lian,Karen,Catherine,Lester.

How I wished Susie was there to complete the bunch of us.
My sincere confidant, I miss our Sarawak trip!!







There were 2 birthday celebrations in April, with the presence of the 2 birthday girls-Pui Yan and Suk Teng, both are my primary buddies. To make it special, MK and I went to buy cupcakes for Pui Yan, and specially made a CD with some meaningful tracks in it. Then it reminds me of every birthday celebration we spent together since standard 6.

Looks like all of us have grown up a lot! From innocent kids to big big girls!
From parents driving us around, until we drive our friends around ! I'm glad, to have you girls accompanying me during my adolescent time.



My first event job was to be a skincare promoter for Cellnique. Fanny, the one beside me on the picture,is my partner of the 5 working days. As expected, it was a tiring promoting job, attracting customers to catch up with the current promotion Cellnique offers.

I suppose the unexpected thing out of it is making a few nice friends and keep in touch with them. Suprisingly, I'm the only K.L born student among them. Come to think of it, it might be a good thing as I can foresee more local trips to be held in future.

Next job------ Beverage promoter

And lastly....

Them...

Them....

and her..


All 3 of them are making my day busy, since it's almost a 24/7 babysitting job,
I feel that I'm getting older and older in terms of age and physical condition.
Being called " yi-yi" by my niece everyday reminds me of "aunt minnie" often called by my friends- Ah lian and Ah bong , I think I'm really ahead of you all in that case.

Remember what did I say in one of the entries
"Perhaps I babble too much with my niece and nephews nowadays, that I lose my adult side!"

This is what happened when

" Open eyes I see them , Close eyes also I see them!"

Perhaps you got me by now!

With all these activities, I can conclude that my current life is good, confronting new challenges weekly and adapting myself as a babysitter, enjoying the happiness with just one of their smile!

What a busy but exciting April!