Because they always have something to say

I'm a child who has always been compared to my third sister. Generally, people apt to prefer my sister than me,which is something that is understandable, since she is better in my opinion.

But things become hurtful when you are being compared for every part of your life,from your skin complexion all the way to intelligence, especially to a sibling who matters so much to you. They like to be a critic to me instead of being an angelic compliment giver to my sister.I bet they either like to thrill me or they really dislike me so much that it's a joy to upset me.

They love to say:

A: Your sister is smarter than you.
B: Your sister's skin is smoother, fairer than you.
C: Your sister's hair is silkier, moisturized than you.
D: Your sister is slim, you're fat.
E: Your sister looks younger than you.
F: Your sister is prettier than you.
G:Your sister............., .........., THAN YOU.

It wasn't a concern to me initially, until recently when I hear it so often, so often that they all upset me by a little. I don't want to be mad at anybody, neither do I want to throw a tanthrum at someone else just by an opinion like this. I opt to not feel myself being a worthless piece of junk, whenever I'm being compared to my sister. Because I am me, I don't need authorization to prove myself, I'm authentic. So I accepted these criticsms all and reminded myself not to take their words for it. I smile, keep silent, and walk away after a while.

I want to become a happy soul, but not to dehydrate my life by the others. Also,I love my sister, and I've always thought that she's an amazing individual that ever exists in my life. She has taught me priceless lessons, problems that I could never breakthrough without her words.Because she's loved, I'll never let someone else's words to destroy our relationship after all.I can't control what other people comment, but I can manipulate mine by closing my mouth and staying hands off on those comments. I well understand that comparison among siblings is a killer, so don't stress yourself to listen if you really don't want to see yourself turning into a no confident, stressful maniac.


I believe most of us here will have issues like this among siblings, but I believe more in God's creation. We were born to be unique,so just accept yourself for who you are but not what others think you are, they assume, they think and they don't fully know you. Because they always have something to come up with, you can't be easily upset by simple words like these. Really, it is okay to not be praised by anyone, as long as you appreciate yourself and achieve something through your own hands. Pave my own route and keep going on with it is my goal.


Because I'm still loved by parents and sisters, I'm still being appreciated by myself,so what about all these? So what? Of course, they can also do a favor by skipping 'than you' for every sentence, and turn it into a nice compliment to my sister, since I now feel, receiving no harsh words is an achievement.

Langkawi Trip Part 1

My langkawi trip was a blast. Seriously, how can it not be wonderful when you go around with a bunch of people who have known you for 9 years. And this was our second trip after the graduation trip when we were 12 years old.

I'm sure it doesn't need me to explain much about this island, most of us have been to it for at least once ( hmmm, as for Malaysians I mean), and usually with family.

SO,7 flight tickets,2 rooms, 2 cars and there we go.

We chosed Langkasuka resort, one of the nearest hotels to the airport ( about 5 minutes).After taking a peek at our rooms, I daresay it was a good deal that we made. Considering the fact that Langkawi is quite small, it's not far to travel from west to the east, from south to the north, all can be done within 25 minutes. Therefore to me, the hotel location is not the main concern but the price is. Each person paid appoximately RM 80 per night for this big and clean room , with breakfast and car provided.




The small balcony outside the room.

We headed to Chenang beach as our first spot.





Py's and Cl's OS: Langkawi, we're here!!

We spent our day 1 at Chenang beach and those streets along the beach for shopping. Also, we went to the Duty free zone which is just next to the Langkawi Underwaterworld Aquarium.




Nothing much happened on the first day since we kept it flexible and relaxing, and cramped all the activities on the second day. Therefore, please stay tuned for the exciting Part 2.

My source of happiness

So my hectic life is still going on even a few weeks before I'm off to Vancouver.

Aside from being at the last stage of packing for my new house, I've also started shopping for necessities to be brought over to Vancouver.

I thought I'm the only one rustling in and out of the house everyday, but a picture slaps me in the face and makes me feel guilty.

Here it is.



My 3-year-old niece was helping out my mother to vacuum her bedroom. Oh wow, what an amazing talent she has at her age.(She was actually having fun)

As you can see it, my life's a maze with lovely people around me to cheer me up when I'm tired, which I obviously lack when I'm doing housework individually. Seriously, I will start cursing myself for making the floor so dirty when in Vancouver, and feel extremely lazy to do it consistently.

Because of you all, I'm a happy soul again.^_^

Thanks to Jia Huey too, because she makes my break a wonder just by playing and answering her questions.



Opps,she's still busy!

Good stuff to listen to.

I've 3 real good songs to share.

Broken -Lifehouse


The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

Miss You Like Crazy-The Moffatts



I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even More than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down when your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy
You are all that I want
You are all that I need
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

3.Falling Slowly-Kris Allen



I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You'll make it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along



It has been 2 years and 2 months.

I'm not feeling good, not really fine, and I just want to listen to the songs all night.

2 Good news to share.

1. My taiwanese pen-pal might be coming to Vancouver next year.
2. My Ausmat friend,Esther will consider about studying in UBC.

Seriously, nothing beats the happiness of knowing. Speaking about the former news, I haven seen my pal for 3 years, since my last visit to Taiwan in 07.I'm utterly surprised when he has such a plan, because his initial plan is to visit his friend in San Francisco next Spring.But anyhow, I'll be glad to see him again, hopefully this time it'll prove me wrong that long-distance friendship can last.


Another day, Esther texted me to ask about Canadian uni's application procedure, and I shared my experience with her as an Ausmatian, because I understand it doubles the complication to apply for Canadian universities without enrolling into Canadian pre-u programme as the foundation. That is why I have to take at least 6 courses a term, and even up to 37 credits for second-year,when someone else can take up to 41 credits unnecesarily,and telling me that 37 is just a peanut case.Perhaps that's the reason why I need some old friends to share my thoughts, remind me to be forgiveable and hang out with me regularly.

So,all the best to my Ausmatian friend here, I hope she can make her way to UBC.




Enough of sharing,it's time to do a little countdown here. 27 days before I'm off, =) let's have our last round of gatherings and parties this year.

Tell me how not to be busy

Everybody is asking me: Why are you so busy nowadays? It's difficult to ask you out.

And all I can tell is that there are never-ending tasks for me to complete, and each of them takes time. I feel extremely bad to turn down people especially my closest peeps, but there is always a reason for my absence.

So I'm revealing my regular routine to update all my friends here.

1.Household chores
2.Babysit
3.Pack for my new house
4.Pack for my second home in Vancouver
5.Freelance jobs
6.Short outings with friends
7.Family gathering
8.A round of farewell sessions,birthday celebrations for friends
9.Summer vacation

A bit + a bit + a bit + a bit + a bit= All of my time

No jokes. I'm only getting busier and busier as time goes by, instead of finishing them one by one. And if you asked me why, I seriously don't know why, because they seem to be unstoppable and neverending.

My family thought that we can free ourselves from housework once the maid comes, and it did happen, and we enjoyed our honeymoon week.

YES, JUST FOR A WEEK. Because the maid ran away after working for a week, in a morning after my dad had breakfast in the kitchen and went to bath upstairs. She was gone since then.

I thought I don't have much stuff left at home since I brought quite a lot of things to Vancouver. But again reality proves me wrong when I try so hard to clear up the mess and spend days and days to clean up every part, little corner of my house.The lesson tells me that I was such a rubbish keeper in the past, I even kept my exam papers during PRIMARY and SECONDARY school times.

Of course, they were gone now.

And then, there come my part-time jobs which I started last week. Sometimes I work from 10-10 which is really dreadful, sometimes I work for 8 hours a day, but under the extremely hot weather. But after all, it's the pay that makes my time worthy, so I've no complaints about the way I've to work, and how much sleep I will lack when work starts. In order to squeeze out the time for work, my Jap class is forgone, so I'm only self-learning during the break.

After the ramblings, there are also people and activities that delight me a lot. I've finally met my dear brother, Atlee, a few weeks ago.



We dined in a super nice restaurant, which served super big Mango dessert.



Quite special Pumpkin+Papaya dessert


DainTi Hill ,Pavillion was the place.





But...but...

The only time I can be as busy as my current life, is when I'm in K.L, right? That's why I'm enjoying the snippets of life I have here, after all the sweat and laughter.

Of course, if you don't mind, we can have a gathering in my house, in which doing household chores together is the activity ;p. Very suitable for people who intend to go on a diet,what's better is that you can help your busy friend here, who will gratefully appreciate your smart help.

I can.. I can....

Provide your lunch and dinner + a can of coke hor, anyone interested??