Few months ago, I met someone who treats me really good, accepts my peculiar hobby and supports me behind, watches J-drama when I introduce it to him, brings me out just when I’m craving for food at night,thinks of places I have not been to and tries his best to bring me there, and someone who’ll knock my door just to bring over some desserts Instead of saying that he truly understands me, I’d say he’s willing to follow my pace and keep up with it.
By right, I should feel happy for someone like this, and I did try to cope with all the new things. However the more he does for me, the more I feel bad for him. He reminds me of him, all the things we once did together and those words that he used to tell me. He’s like a reflection of the previous him, just that the previous him is not there anymore.Just when I’m trying so hard to wrap up my previous incident so tightly, he comes and unwinds all the memories again. It seems like my effort has been put into waste as I thought I've overcome the obstacle, but it turns out that I'm just avoiding it temporarily, until someone turns up and reminds me of his existence again.
I gave myself a chance, but it didn't work out and the feeling wasn't right. The fear tells me something,that I’m just not ready to start a new chapter together with him, when I've just closed a chapter of the book. I can’t get rid of the fear and zero confidence in me, when I still have someone to let go. I thought it was the previous him whom I could rely and trust on, but it was the latter him who came by and compromised.
Sigh, I wonder what else can happen to me after all these complicated things.
Confession done.
March 31, 2010
March 28, 2010
U.S trip part 1
I know it’s kind of late to blog about my NY &Washington trip now, but I was too lazy to pick out all the photos earlier and blog about the trip chronologically. Also, too many events took place after that until I forgot to blog about this trip.
However,it's about time to go back to this trip again since I'm all settled now.
Rewind rewind...
I first went to Washington to visit my cousin, Jovial. It was our first time meeting up with each other after 6-7 years at minimum. I think I was ‘lucky’ enough because the days that I was in Washington were the time Washington had one of the worst snow storms in history. So I slept through half of my trip and played Wii in my cousin’s house to spend some time because we couldn’t even get out of the house due to the thick snow which almost covered the car. Sigh, I was crowned as the rain god’s friend during my Sarawak trip 3 years back, and now my good friend has turned into a snow god.
However, I should also be grateful with the huge snowfall for making the pictures taken to be super nice.
Next, I went to visit husband W’s hometown-New York.
“Winney Liew , how can you leave your wife travelling your hometown on her own.”
However, she wanted me to have a good look at the city, and so I tried to pay attention to this busy city. There’s no doubt that NY is a big city with enormous busy streets and crowds everywhere, but that’s just the outer shell of it. To me, the crust within the city consists of all the lonely and exhaustive bodies who slave their lives for a living.
Prior to the trip, what I saw was solely the deceiving images of the success of the upper class in the society, the skyscrapers and not forgetting the shopping district. After the trip, I couldn’t help but to feel sad for the fragile bunch of people who are stepped on by the others and consistently being oppressed by the society pressure.
Sometimes, we’re just being deceived by all the good things, and we neglect the majority of things which are forgone for all the minor good things. But I know, this world is never going to be fair and that’s why we need to adopt the right attitude and find the right way of living to get rid of the discomfort.
Basically, my NY trip= Times Square trip because I went to Times Square almost everyday for my trip. Believe it or not, almost everything is located in the same place, from shop lots to cozy restaurants to broadway shows.I went there so frequent until I felt bored of going to that place at the end of the trip.
The good thing is, TS is super bright 24/7, so the pictures taken at night would still be bright without flash mode on.
Small M VS Big M.
However,it's about time to go back to this trip again since I'm all settled now.
Rewind rewind...
I first went to Washington to visit my cousin, Jovial. It was our first time meeting up with each other after 6-7 years at minimum. I think I was ‘lucky’ enough because the days that I was in Washington were the time Washington had one of the worst snow storms in history. So I slept through half of my trip and played Wii in my cousin’s house to spend some time because we couldn’t even get out of the house due to the thick snow which almost covered the car. Sigh, I was crowned as the rain god’s friend during my Sarawak trip 3 years back, and now my good friend has turned into a snow god.
However, I should also be grateful with the huge snowfall for making the pictures taken to be super nice.
Next, I went to visit husband W’s hometown-New York.
“Winney Liew , how can you leave your wife travelling your hometown on her own.”
However, she wanted me to have a good look at the city, and so I tried to pay attention to this busy city. There’s no doubt that NY is a big city with enormous busy streets and crowds everywhere, but that’s just the outer shell of it. To me, the crust within the city consists of all the lonely and exhaustive bodies who slave their lives for a living.
Prior to the trip, what I saw was solely the deceiving images of the success of the upper class in the society, the skyscrapers and not forgetting the shopping district. After the trip, I couldn’t help but to feel sad for the fragile bunch of people who are stepped on by the others and consistently being oppressed by the society pressure.
Sometimes, we’re just being deceived by all the good things, and we neglect the majority of things which are forgone for all the minor good things. But I know, this world is never going to be fair and that’s why we need to adopt the right attitude and find the right way of living to get rid of the discomfort.
Basically, my NY trip= Times Square trip because I went to Times Square almost everyday for my trip. Believe it or not, almost everything is located in the same place, from shop lots to cozy restaurants to broadway shows.I went there so frequent until I felt bored of going to that place at the end of the trip.
The good thing is, TS is super bright 24/7, so the pictures taken at night would still be bright without flash mode on.
Small M VS Big M.
March 23, 2010
In a good shape
I've promised myself to study hard this term.Luckily, everything has been going on smoothly and my performance is definitely the best out of the 4 terms so far. Thank God, 80s and 90s midterm results are coming back to me again.
Last term, housemate WX told me that sometimes it’s not that you’re not capable of doing well, but you just lack that bit of time to grasp the materials properly. Come to think of it, I really lacked the time to revise for every subject equally last term, aside from my weak grasp of materials in certain subjects. It was difficult for me to jungle between assignments and midterms flood, until I truly felt the need to take summer course.
If I could, I really wouldn’t give up but it’s really beyond my control to decide about this anymore. When my mind says yes but body shakes head to me, I know it’s time to re-arrange my course registration.
Mom advises me not to push myself too hard and just take summer course if necessary.
“ You’ll be sitting at home for 4 months if you don’t take summer course anyway, so why not just study for another 1.5 month.”
So that’s the reason why I’ll be back in late June. If not, I can’t imagine myself taking 7 courses for every term next year, I know it’ll be a nearly impossible task for me to do well academically.
Although everyone will be going on a vacation when I'm still burying my head in between books, I'm really not in a holiday mood now. The joyfulness I had gained from the Vancouver winter games was as exciting as going on a vacation.I feel so energetic after seeing all the fantastic people and fabulous events around me.
Too bad it was gone too quickly.
Last term, housemate WX told me that sometimes it’s not that you’re not capable of doing well, but you just lack that bit of time to grasp the materials properly. Come to think of it, I really lacked the time to revise for every subject equally last term, aside from my weak grasp of materials in certain subjects. It was difficult for me to jungle between assignments and midterms flood, until I truly felt the need to take summer course.
If I could, I really wouldn’t give up but it’s really beyond my control to decide about this anymore. When my mind says yes but body shakes head to me, I know it’s time to re-arrange my course registration.
Mom advises me not to push myself too hard and just take summer course if necessary.
“ You’ll be sitting at home for 4 months if you don’t take summer course anyway, so why not just study for another 1.5 month.”
So that’s the reason why I’ll be back in late June. If not, I can’t imagine myself taking 7 courses for every term next year, I know it’ll be a nearly impossible task for me to do well academically.
Although everyone will be going on a vacation when I'm still burying my head in between books, I'm really not in a holiday mood now. The joyfulness I had gained from the Vancouver winter games was as exciting as going on a vacation.I feel so energetic after seeing all the fantastic people and fabulous events around me.
Too bad it was gone too quickly.
March 22, 2010
Picking out the rotten apples
‘有时候我们会把人美化了，把他们想得太好，所以当你发现他们并不像我们想象中的好时，我们才会觉得失望’
I can’t help but to agree with bestie W because we tend to become too optimistic sometimes and overlook a person.It upsets you when you fail to see what you desire to see. No one on earth is flawless, that’s why we need to learn how to pick out the rotten apples out of the basket of good apples.
2 years ago, I may lock myself in the room and sob in despair of the heartless people. 2 years later, if I ever encountered the same problem and the same situation, I bet my response would be totally different. The ignorance in me will show its face and I’ll leave behind those pieces of junks completely, because our lives could be better spent with someone else who is more loving.
Sometimes I can’t see what a person sees, agree with what he/she agrees, or I can no longer deal with that person anymore, so I don’t even want to give my two cents to that someone. It's not unusual that sometimes the best of a person can also become the worst of him/her. But time really gives an opportunity to patient people to witness both sides of a person.It proves a lot of things and reveals different sides of them.
Basically, you have 2 choices when you meet these people:
Include that person into your circle and enlarge your unhappiness continuously.
or
Exclude that person of your circle and sweep away those unnecessary disappointments completely.
I chose the latter one.
To me, history is history, and history will be remained as history. I’m least likely to give a second chance to people who live in denial and always look for a better, better, and finally the best one. My stand is that there won’t be something/someone better if you yourself are not the best, plus you do not know what you want the best.
There’s yet to be a definition of BEST to a person’s life.
But hey, why still that sad face? We can still live well, eat well, and sleep well without that somebody.
Our lives should still be colourful and full of smiles! RAWR!
I can’t help but to agree with bestie W because we tend to become too optimistic sometimes and overlook a person.It upsets you when you fail to see what you desire to see. No one on earth is flawless, that’s why we need to learn how to pick out the rotten apples out of the basket of good apples.
2 years ago, I may lock myself in the room and sob in despair of the heartless people. 2 years later, if I ever encountered the same problem and the same situation, I bet my response would be totally different. The ignorance in me will show its face and I’ll leave behind those pieces of junks completely, because our lives could be better spent with someone else who is more loving.
Sometimes I can’t see what a person sees, agree with what he/she agrees, or I can no longer deal with that person anymore, so I don’t even want to give my two cents to that someone. It's not unusual that sometimes the best of a person can also become the worst of him/her. But time really gives an opportunity to patient people to witness both sides of a person.It proves a lot of things and reveals different sides of them.
Basically, you have 2 choices when you meet these people:
Include that person into your circle and enlarge your unhappiness continuously.
or
Exclude that person of your circle and sweep away those unnecessary disappointments completely.
I chose the latter one.
To me, history is history, and history will be remained as history. I’m least likely to give a second chance to people who live in denial and always look for a better, better, and finally the best one. My stand is that there won’t be something/someone better if you yourself are not the best, plus you do not know what you want the best.
There’s yet to be a definition of BEST to a person’s life.
But hey, why still that sad face? We can still live well, eat well, and sleep well without that somebody.
Our lives should still be colourful and full of smiles! RAWR!
March 18, 2010
Everything's big in NY.
Aside from eating the oversized western food in New York, I tried out a seafood combo meal with Evelyn, who was also my 'tour guide' of the day (Thanks Evelyn). She brought me to a Chinese restaurant which serves seafood combos for a minimum of 2 persons. There’s a list of combo meals to select from and basically you name it, they have it. I’m sure there’ll be at least one thing from the menu which will feed your stomach satisfactorily.
We had the Chicken+Oyster+Prawn combo and the portion was unsurprisingly BIG. It was unsurprising because mostly everything in NY was too big for me, if you get what I mean. That's why it's called BIG apple city, instead of regular apple, because even the apple also must be bigger than the others.
I really hope that they’ll have a franchise in Vancouver soon, so that I can skip cooking for days by just buying 1 combo and separate it into a few meals. Seriously, even that particular whole chicken can be my meal for 2 days already. Then I'll also get to choose what to eat everyday since there is a few things to choose from the plate.Best part is that it doesn’t cost that much, about 20+ dollars per combo.
Poor thing I haven’t discovered such a restaurant in Vancouver so far.*sigh*
Anyway, I still can’t break my record in 2008 with the crazy girl SS. It’s not only the France national flag which makes me think of you, Pizza Hut does the same too.
Remember our mission impossible after starving for 17 hours?
The pizza combo for 4 people
But I can’t seem to find a right person to do this with me nowadays.
So this is what you do when you want to bring me to buffet. Starve me for at least 15 hours and I'm sure my consumption will worth the buffet price.
March 16, 2010
突然
突然很享受走路去上课的时光。
突然觉得放开所有的感觉很轻松。
突然觉得‘捻多无谓，行动最实际’。
突然觉得时间真的可以改变很多事情。
突然觉得真相往往比谎言容易接受的多。
突然觉得没必要去改变没办法改变的事。
突然领悟到有得必有失，一物换一物的道理。
突然觉得静看四周会发现很多身边的小生命。
突然觉得有些事，就算用尽了力气也无法如愿。
突然觉得努力读书，把时间表排满的感觉很充实。
突然觉得自己甘于平凡，容易满足于简单的快乐。
突然觉得只要肯踏出第一步，其实幸福可以很简单。
突然觉得人好时可以很善良，人狠时亦可以很无情。
突然觉得就算用一辈子的时间也无法真正了解一个人。
突然觉得人生不需要太多选择，对的选择只需要一个就足够。
突然觉得有些事不需要知道理由，因为自己已不再盘旋在原地。
突然觉得就算兜多大的一个圈，站在终点的永远都会是同样的脸孔。
突然很喜欢那么清醒的自己，希望今晚可以睡个好觉。拜托拜托，别再待到6点了。
Lesson of the day: Don’t live in denial.
突然觉得放开所有的感觉很轻松。
突然觉得‘捻多无谓，行动最实际’。
突然觉得时间真的可以改变很多事情。
突然觉得真相往往比谎言容易接受的多。
突然觉得没必要去改变没办法改变的事。
突然领悟到有得必有失，一物换一物的道理。
突然觉得静看四周会发现很多身边的小生命。
突然觉得有些事，就算用尽了力气也无法如愿。
突然觉得努力读书，把时间表排满的感觉很充实。
突然觉得自己甘于平凡，容易满足于简单的快乐。
突然觉得只要肯踏出第一步，其实幸福可以很简单。
突然觉得人好时可以很善良，人狠时亦可以很无情。
突然觉得就算用一辈子的时间也无法真正了解一个人。
突然觉得人生不需要太多选择，对的选择只需要一个就足够。
突然觉得有些事不需要知道理由，因为自己已不再盘旋在原地。
突然觉得就算兜多大的一个圈，站在终点的永远都会是同样的脸孔。
突然很喜欢那么清醒的自己，希望今晚可以睡个好觉。拜托拜托，别再待到6点了。
Lesson of the day: Don’t live in denial.
March 15, 2010
Songs to inspire the many.
如果你快乐 再不是为我
会不会放手 其实才是拥有
知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛
You always encourage me to be optimistic in life, keep the right attitude to do things right. This time, I hope that you can work hard and persevere till the end. I know how it feels to not share the happiness with the same person again, from being the closest person to a stranger. But I also acknowledge your effort, you have done your best.Since it’s the best, then the memories should also be the best.Cheer up, my friend.*Pat pat*
Last time, Jay Chou’s “晴天” accompanied me for 2 years.
This year, I changed to another theme song. It’s not because of the beginning of a new story,but I think I need some new blood on my iTunes song list, also a new blood in me.
我沒有哭 也沒有笑 因為這是夢
Maybe I still don't understand the reason now, but I know that I will be alright one day.
March 13, 2010
Open Happiness
Since I uploaded my baby cola collection album onto Facebook, I received different responses from my friends. Some funny ones would be:
“Wow, your room must be like a recycling factory! I suggest you frame your cans so that they look more artistic.”
“What would you do if someone threw all your cans away?”
Hmm, these are good questions which may take time to figure out the answer.To me, the latter question is similar to asking you on your response if I took away your bolster which has been accompanying you for years. You get the idea now?
Over the years, my project has become a joint-collaboration among my friends because they are being so supportive of my hobby. Just recently, I received 2 very special cans from my friend.
Let me open up my happiness to you.
Firstly, Michael got me this 2008 Beijing Olympic Cola Box Set when he went back to China for CNY.
Eu even said it looked like 皇帝诏旨because there’s a layer of yellow cloth embracing the can.
Like this:
Seriously, empty cola can in a box @.@ !! I’ve never ever had a box for my cola can and that’s what makes this commemorative gold can special.
On the same day, I saw this:
This is the cola can which is released in conjunction with the celebration of Canadian Men’s Ice Hockey’s Gold Medal in Vancouver Winter Olympics 2010.Instead of joining the craze and running nakedly in Downtown, I chose a much more peaceful way to celebrate their victory- Drink coke at home.
It has been almost 1.5 years I haven’t carried a dozen of cola cans home. The last time I did that was also because of the Vancouver Winter Olympic 2010 can.Mom was beside me at that time and she encouraged me to bring it home.
“Just buy it and then finish it slowly.”
How sweet my mom was!! She never objects my hobby although it’s not that healthy. Also, I know my dad doesn’t like us drinking carbonated drinks, so I promised myself to halve my Coke consumption in appreciation of their support.
Nowadays, I usually drink Coke for the can.
However, nothing beats this:
It’s one of the limited edition bottles which was distributed during Winter Olympics at Yaletown (The place which I regretted the most for not going when Eu asked me.) Like how it’s shown on the video, it’s a glow bottle and it changes to 4 different colours when you switch on the button at the bottom of the bottle, and there were only 12000 bottles available for this design.
The awesomeness is really beyond description, it's like a light appears and shines on you when you're super gloomy and can't sleep at night.Yesterday when I was walking back to my dorm, I saw something hanging on the door handle. I opened up the small card and my name was written on it. When I went inside my room,I looked up the gift bag and I saw the Coke Glow Bottle.
Awesomeness to the maximum!
Thank you Michael, I will definitely add your name to the supporter list of my project.
Tada! So here's my collection in Vancouver 2009/2010 so far.
Surprisingly, I only bought 1 can out of the 6 cans there. Sincerely thank everyone for the hard work in helping out my ongoing project, making my series of coke collection a wonderful and enjoyable one. I’m glad that my hobby has made a difference in some of my friend’s life, because they will now think of me whenever they see coke. To me, that’s a sweet way to remember a friend.
March 11, 2010
ただ 、ありがとう
The past few days were productive and peaceful, as I diverted my usual MSN chatting time to do something else. Other than attending lectures, I spent most of the time on my own and I did whatever that kept me busy and made me feel good,like homework time, beach walk+sunset, walking, music, as well as dramas and movies. I realized I can do a lot of things aside from the regular lecture hours.
At this age, at this time of life, everyone will be busy chasing their dreams or simply to live a life. One day, there’ll be an end for every little thing, but never forget the fact that it’s those little happenings which make our life so spectacular (saw this from someone’s FB status). At least, I’m glad that these things happen on me as they walk me to every different stage. Then, I will learn to let go with a smile on my face, if it’s a must and it’s for the better. I know it’s not anyone’s fault, maybe falling down is just a process of growing up, to remind us that whatever that doesn’t kill us will only make us stronger. Perhaps we know that it’s for the better and there’s no other solution to the problem.
And it’s not really about me, it’s about you.
“ただ ありがとうを 伝えたくて
ただ 君の笑顔を 見たくて
ありがとう 君と出会えて”
-“ただありがとう” Monkey Majik-
Thought a lot in these few days, fortunately the conclusion is positive. I'm really sorry for having you guys worried about me for my previous post, but I will be alright. I really will, just give me some time to accumulate the courage to stay cheerful.
March 08, 2010
Pluto
J:Pluto is badly infected by yeast.
Pluto...is badly infected by yeast.
Pluto....
is badly infected by yeast.
The fur on his paws is falling off. I'm thinking to put him to sleep.Or maybe, can wait for you to come back and have a look at him first.
My mind goes completely blank, not knowing what to do. I don't know how, all I can think of is this small space of mine.I've already lost a bestie, and now I may lose another loyal company of mine since secondary school.
I don't know what to do. I don't know how, can you teach me ?
Pluto...is badly infected by yeast.
Pluto....
is badly infected by yeast.
The fur on his paws is falling off. I'm thinking to put him to sleep.Or maybe, can wait for you to come back and have a look at him first.
My mind goes completely blank, not knowing what to do. I don't know how, all I can think of is this small space of mine.I've already lost a bestie, and now I may lose another loyal company of mine since secondary school.
I don't know what to do. I don't know how, can you teach me ?
March 07, 2010
20 Cents Theory
Few days ago I talked to Lawrence and he randomly tested me on his 20 cents theory:
Law: What will a girl do if a guy only had 20 cents?
Me:Ehh, why?
Law:
If the girl took all the 20 cents, that means the girl loves herself more than she loves the guy.
If the girl shared with the guy and each gets 10 cent, that means she's really looking into their future, and she's willing to work hard together for it.
If the girl gave all the money to the guy, that means she loves the guy more than he loves her.
Me:What if the girl gave the guy extra 20 cents?
Law:That means...the girl is rich.
Me: Lol.
Law: Jk.That case then the guy will be very touched and will work even harder to repay the girl for what she has sacrificed for him,to make her feel that he's worth it.
That's the funny future lawyer's set of 20 cents theory, I LOL-ed twice because I knew he made it up. That's just so his style because he loves crapping. The more you know him, the more you understand his bird language.
Being distant for 7942 miles, 16 hours of time difference, 8 months of not seeing each other yearly, it's so amazing that he's always there when I need a pair of ears. He's like my second brother, teaching me his bird language and his ways to distinguish a good guy and a bad guy.Most of the time,he also shares with me his lame jokes and basically everything that we can think about.
People who don't know him good enough will think that he's always playful and sarcastic. Some girls even find it annoying because he criticizes them quite often.However, I really appreciate his honesty and care although his sarcasm can never change. At least he bothers to tell me things straight off without giving me face at all, instead of lying to me.His honesty and care are what I find valuable in our friendship.
He's definitely one of the very important guy friends (V.I.G) in my life.Bear bear young tops the ranking, Law will definitely be the second. With them, I've more than enough reasons to be content with my life.
Law: What will a girl do if a guy only had 20 cents?
Me:Ehh, why?
Law:
If the girl took all the 20 cents, that means the girl loves herself more than she loves the guy.
If the girl shared with the guy and each gets 10 cent, that means she's really looking into their future, and she's willing to work hard together for it.
If the girl gave all the money to the guy, that means she loves the guy more than he loves her.
Me:What if the girl gave the guy extra 20 cents?
Law:That means...the girl is rich.
Me: Lol.
Law: Jk.That case then the guy will be very touched and will work even harder to repay the girl for what she has sacrificed for him,to make her feel that he's worth it.
That's the funny future lawyer's set of 20 cents theory, I LOL-ed twice because I knew he made it up. That's just so his style because he loves crapping. The more you know him, the more you understand his bird language.
Being distant for 7942 miles, 16 hours of time difference, 8 months of not seeing each other yearly, it's so amazing that he's always there when I need a pair of ears. He's like my second brother, teaching me his bird language and his ways to distinguish a good guy and a bad guy.Most of the time,he also shares with me his lame jokes and basically everything that we can think about.
People who don't know him good enough will think that he's always playful and sarcastic. Some girls even find it annoying because he criticizes them quite often.However, I really appreciate his honesty and care although his sarcasm can never change. At least he bothers to tell me things straight off without giving me face at all, instead of lying to me.His honesty and care are what I find valuable in our friendship.
He's definitely one of the very important guy friends (V.I.G) in my life.Bear bear young tops the ranking, Law will definitely be the second. With them, I've more than enough reasons to be content with my life.
March 04, 2010
Purikura プリクラ
I’m not a fan of mini-sized stuffs but there’s one exception to this- Purikura (photo sticker). I like Purikura a lot because of the dreamy and whitening photo effects aside from the various background selections. During my times in Malaysia, I used to take Purikura several times in a year with different bunch of friends.What I love the most is that every set of pictures will never look the same with various photo booths around for me to choose.
Some people think that Purikura is a splurge, but I’m sure many girls will defend it. To them, people have to squeeze in the photo booth and start posing in every few seconds. They don’t see a point of being so gan jeung when taking a picture, why not just sit in front of a digital camera and pose for gazillion times until you’re purely satisfied with the photos taken since that's more frugal. What's worse is that, as if the photo is not small enough, we still have to cut it into a few pieces to share it with our friends.
Usually those who don’t like Purikura are either guys or those who don’t like to take pictures at all. I don’t blame them as people without a little sense of narcissism will only put their money into waste when taking Purikura, because it’ll be much more interesting and fun if you enjoy the craziness and ganjeung-ness during the photo-taking process.
Of course, don’t do it so often until every pose in your picture looks almost the same, take Purikura occasionally as a souvenir for someone else. Purikura can be much more fun when you're with the right bunch of people. My friends and I usuallly take Purikura as a remembrance for some significant days, such as someone’s farewell or birthday. Then we share it among the few of us, so that everyone gets the same piece of souvenir and memory.
Also, I think Purikura has beautifying effect. Almost nobody will look ugly in it because you can always add some stuffs to cover the parts that you don’t like. If not you can just choose the best few shots and make them even prettier. And almost nobody will say that you look ugly in a Purikura.Based on my observation, they will only say cute even if the people are not cute inside, the background colour, bling bling and those cute shapes will attract their attention. Of course, it’ll be a benefit if you’re pretty, because Purikura will make you cuter and prettier.
When these people look at regular photos and see someone who's not so good looking, somehow they’ll be harsher. Seriously, my guy friends will tell me straight off “Ei, that girl looks ugly.” or “She looks fat.”
Sigh. I wonder why I have guy friends who are so mean sometimes.Perhaps a photo is beyond a photo to them.
March 03, 2010
When I'm not a YES girl.
A friend told me that it’s tiring to give in so much to your friends or your beloved one without receiving anything in return. No matter how hard you try, you’ll still end up feeling tired and hopeless one day, so it’s just a matter of how long you can prolong the period before bursting it out.
For one second, I thought of myself because I’m currently at this stage. I’m just trying hard to prolong the period and ignoring the reality from time to time. I’m hypnotizing myself that everything will eventually be fine and soon enough, they will appreciate my efforts. I really don’t expect everyone to treat me better or repay me for what I have done for them, but just the thought of appreciation will make me feel grateful.
Unfortunately things don’t work that way. I forgot that things are not measured on a scale and equilibrium is not important in the real world at all. The more effort I put in, the nearer I’ll fall into the pit and return to the grey zone. I forgot that I’m so scared to go back to the grey zone again. Like a balloon, the triumph of flying in the sky will still be hit by the disappointment for its complete disappearance after a while.
I thought of myself, and I thought of you. Here's what I think about our friendship.
Sometimes you don’t really seem to care for me as a friend when you say you do. You can’t seem to be there when I need you the most.But I had so much faith in our friendship, I gave in and compromised, and I anticipated for the outcome. I really tried and gave my best, but you didn't seem to appreciate much, so I know that it’s time to move on.
When expectation turns into exhaustion and disappointment, I’ll feel tired and fragile. But it’s also when I realize my stupidity and step up to confront with the truth, I’ll regain my strength and dignity. I know it’s not worth it. Maybe, you don't deserve it.
Been stupid for once, been stupid for twice, I can’t blame anyone for treating me this way and hurting me this bad, because I chose to believe them in the first place.But I really hope that there won’t be a third time anymore as it slaps my face really hard.Sometimes I'm just unlucky, and this is definitely one of those times.I guess I won’t be able to see the ideal outcome,since the possibility of it is like waiting for rain in the drought. Instead of anticipating so much from you, I guess it's time for me to walk out of your circle and move on from now onwards.
Because, I’ve promised you guys that I will take good care of myself and I will work my promise. I'm just unwell and tired at the moment, tired of being a YES person.
Thank you for teaching me a lesson.
For one second, I thought of myself because I’m currently at this stage. I’m just trying hard to prolong the period and ignoring the reality from time to time. I’m hypnotizing myself that everything will eventually be fine and soon enough, they will appreciate my efforts. I really don’t expect everyone to treat me better or repay me for what I have done for them, but just the thought of appreciation will make me feel grateful.
Unfortunately things don’t work that way. I forgot that things are not measured on a scale and equilibrium is not important in the real world at all. The more effort I put in, the nearer I’ll fall into the pit and return to the grey zone. I forgot that I’m so scared to go back to the grey zone again. Like a balloon, the triumph of flying in the sky will still be hit by the disappointment for its complete disappearance after a while.
I thought of myself, and I thought of you. Here's what I think about our friendship.
Sometimes you don’t really seem to care for me as a friend when you say you do. You can’t seem to be there when I need you the most.But I had so much faith in our friendship, I gave in and compromised, and I anticipated for the outcome. I really tried and gave my best, but you didn't seem to appreciate much, so I know that it’s time to move on.
When expectation turns into exhaustion and disappointment, I’ll feel tired and fragile. But it’s also when I realize my stupidity and step up to confront with the truth, I’ll regain my strength and dignity. I know it’s not worth it. Maybe, you don't deserve it.
Been stupid for once, been stupid for twice, I can’t blame anyone for treating me this way and hurting me this bad, because I chose to believe them in the first place.But I really hope that there won’t be a third time anymore as it slaps my face really hard.Sometimes I'm just unlucky, and this is definitely one of those times.I guess I won’t be able to see the ideal outcome,since the possibility of it is like waiting for rain in the drought. Instead of anticipating so much from you, I guess it's time for me to walk out of your circle and move on from now onwards.
Because, I’ve promised you guys that I will take good care of myself and I will work my promise. I'm just unwell and tired at the moment, tired of being a YES person.
Thank you for teaching me a lesson.
March 02, 2010
Cammmm Cammmm Campbell's!
Hey guys.
I can finally rest my mind temporarily after having my last midterm for this semester. When school starts, every part of me will function at full engine as well because there's just so much to do in school.
These were the 2 cans of Campbell soup that I was talking about last time. I did an assignment this term on Campbell soup. and my task was to compare the regular cream soup and low-fat cream soup in terms of ingredients, labeling regulations, consumer trend, and lastly, personal experience.
Out of curiosity, I tried out both products to make a better analysis on the taste and texture of these products. Okok, I'll cut out the crap and basically the most distinct difference was that the low-fat cream soup was less saltier than the regular cream soup.
It almost drove me crazy to find each ingredient's functional property to the product.The first question went like :
Explain the role of each ingredient in terms of its contribution to the product.
So the web says that oil is an emulsifier.It makes sense to assume that everything with oil in it has emulsifying property.
First I saw Chicken fat, which has oil it in. So I immediately classified it as an emulsifier.
Secondly I saw Canola oil, which is also a type of oil. Hmm, maybe they need 2 different emulsifiers, so I added it onto the list.
Then I saw other types of ingredients which are oily and contain fats, and I started to question myself.
SO ALL OF THEM ARE EMULSIFIERS? AND ADD AROMAS TO THE FOOD?
WHY ARE THERE SO MANY FATS AND OILS IN A PRODUCT WHICH SERVE THE SAME PURPOSE? WHAT FOR?
Okay. I couldn't come up with a proper answer for now, although I spent quite some time researching the ingredient list. I feel like the more I understand, the more confusing I am. Ironic I know, but somehow I managed to make up some parts of it based on my own knowledge in combination with what I've learnt in class.
After doing the assignment, I definitely understand my friend's feeling:
A is a flavour enhancer, B & C are also flavour enhancers.WTH most of them are flavour enhancers, how am I supposed to explain them?
I was on the same boat too. Perhaps this assignment helped to open up my eyes to the world of food chemistry. It's time for me to make new friends with the ingredients from now onwards.
By the way, here's something extra for the day:
EU:为何有冬瓜，南瓜，西瓜，但就是没有北瓜？
That made my day.
I can finally rest my mind temporarily after having my last midterm for this semester. When school starts, every part of me will function at full engine as well because there's just so much to do in school.
These were the 2 cans of Campbell soup that I was talking about last time. I did an assignment this term on Campbell soup. and my task was to compare the regular cream soup and low-fat cream soup in terms of ingredients, labeling regulations, consumer trend, and lastly, personal experience.
Out of curiosity, I tried out both products to make a better analysis on the taste and texture of these products. Okok, I'll cut out the crap and basically the most distinct difference was that the low-fat cream soup was less saltier than the regular cream soup.
It almost drove me crazy to find each ingredient's functional property to the product.The first question went like :
Explain the role of each ingredient in terms of its contribution to the product.
So the web says that oil is an emulsifier.It makes sense to assume that everything with oil in it has emulsifying property.
First I saw Chicken fat, which has oil it in. So I immediately classified it as an emulsifier.
Secondly I saw Canola oil, which is also a type of oil. Hmm, maybe they need 2 different emulsifiers, so I added it onto the list.
Then I saw other types of ingredients which are oily and contain fats, and I started to question myself.
SO ALL OF THEM ARE EMULSIFIERS? AND ADD AROMAS TO THE FOOD?
WHY ARE THERE SO MANY FATS AND OILS IN A PRODUCT WHICH SERVE THE SAME PURPOSE? WHAT FOR?
Okay. I couldn't come up with a proper answer for now, although I spent quite some time researching the ingredient list. I feel like the more I understand, the more confusing I am. Ironic I know, but somehow I managed to make up some parts of it based on my own knowledge in combination with what I've learnt in class.
After doing the assignment, I definitely understand my friend's feeling:
A is a flavour enhancer, B & C are also flavour enhancers.WTH most of them are flavour enhancers, how am I supposed to explain them?
I was on the same boat too. Perhaps this assignment helped to open up my eyes to the world of food chemistry. It's time for me to make new friends with the ingredients from now onwards.
By the way, here's something extra for the day:
EU:为何有冬瓜，南瓜，西瓜，但就是没有北瓜？
That made my day.
March 01, 2010
Should I?
I've been considering on student exchange programme for my third year study.For many reasons, I think it's definitely a good opportunity for all the things that I haven't experienced before.
Maybe it's a good time to leave, and explore another new land. I think it'll be a good experience.
I'm struggling again. Should I go for it or not?
Maybe it's a good time to leave, and explore another new land. I think it'll be a good experience.
I'm struggling again. Should I go for it or not?
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