Cupcakes!!!

I had my first ever cupcake baking session with my buddies last week. Thanks to the online recipe and everyone’s effort in baking the cupcakes, our first attempt turned out to be a success and we felt so accomplished while decorating these little cute stuffs. Even my niece enjoyed the baking session because I gave her a few stars to decorate her cupcake.

5 more days before I go back to the Mapleland, so I’m cherishing every moment here while anticipating to meet up with my Vancouver buddies. A new semester, I know I’m ready.

Live all that you want, be all that you want to be

Someone asked me to share the secret of my emotional management skills since they think I’m optimistic. I can tell you frankly that I am not that optimistic, I’m a human who has emotions just like everyone of you, but I chose to bring out the positive energy within me and pass it to everyone else.

I seriously think this quote from the book ‘secret’ will sum up my thought on EQ management:
‘Write your script. When you see things you don't want, don't think about them, write about them, talk about them, push against them, or join groups that focus on the don't wants... remove your attention from don't wants.. and place them on do wants’

I do have unhappy memories in the past, I lost important things and people in my life. When I come to think of it, I regret it so much because I did not follow my heart and come up with the true answer at that time. I denied it so much because I wanted a better solution for everyone else, instead of myself. I thought pleasing the ones I love would make me feel happy as well, but in the end, I was even more miserable because I focused too much on how these things screwed up my life, I lost my sight on the majority things which I should treasure more.

Perhaps I did not lose a chance, a friendship, potential relationship or anything else but myself.I did not believe in myself that things could work out just the way I wished.That’s when I realize I need a change, I need to change my thoughts to be a better person. I need to trust myself more so that I can have a life that reflects my thoughts.

To be happy and satisfied with our life, we first have to understand the fact that we are the creators of our universe, and so we are the masterpiece of our life. We can be happy if we want to, as the inner thoughts will reflect the outer body, the choice falls in your hands. Resources are not finite because there are always alternatives, what you need is a brilliant idea to discover all these potential things. And the key factor which brings about the success of an idea is faith. You need to have faith in yourself under any circumstances.

When you are not happy with your life, you think life sucks and you’re such a loser.But life is abundant in all areas, and so do happiness and successes. When you have an inspired thought, you must trust it and act on it, and it will all come back to you, even if it is a mistake.We should be thankful for all the little mistakes we've made because these things clear up all the doubts for you and path the life you desire.

When you meet idiots, you’re so annoyed and you think they are eyesores.But there is always another choice, don’t take them into your heart and let the negative power intrudes your body. You’re lucky in a way that you’re not like them. You may be angry for a while but remember to let the anger dissolves after that.

When you have an arrogant boyfriend and you can’t bear up with his thoughts and behavior sometimes.There is actually another choice, give him a chance to prove himself for small issues. Let them go the way they wish and confront with their dignity instead of you poking out the silly mistake for them. You don’t need a robot who obeys everything you say.

Everything is up to your choice. The question is, what kind of life do you want?

Before you make any decision,do remember one thing:we can change the results of our lives.

What home has done to me this summer

Recently, I chat a lot with my niece. Her pure innocence and creativity broaden my imagination besides hers. She's just too adorable!!



Recently, I’m so inspired by a video my bestie shared with me.


‘Make believe, and we all can make a difference.’

Recently, I’m amazed at how easily satisfied I can be, even the smallest thing on earth can make me smile.


-A magician gave me a twisted fork right after the magic performance a few weeks back.

Recently, I wake up every morning, smile to myself and think ‘It’s gonna be another brand new lovely day’


-Smile is the best battery in the world I guess, plus it’s environmentally friendly.

Recently, I made my way towards the target set and got slimmer than before. Having said that, I can still donate blood with my weight now ok, so don't tease me on that,my dear husbands!



Recently, I’ve a new weekly task, that is to cut my bangs once in every 2 weeks.It was pretty bad looking at first, but I’m getting better and better at it.*grins*



Recently, my friends added a few new celebrities to my celebrities look alike list, they are SoHee from wondergirls, Yui Aragaki, and Natalie Tong. I’ve heard tones of names since last time, from Rainie Yang to Miriam Yeung, and one thing I feel glad about is that they all look good to me.


Nice, looks like my face is truly ‘one Asia’. Anyway, I’m satisfied with my appearance and constantly feel grateful for my parents' creation. Therefore, do remember my name regardless of who you think I look like.

This is how much homeland can do to me. To me, it’s not really about the food, it’s not about the flag, but it’s about the resources I can truly gain here, I can explore something out of everything and everyone. I can feel happy at wherever places that I'm in, but there’s only one place for me to harbor infinite supply of energy, love, and not to forget

A nice big bed to sleep.

I’ m not afraid to take anything down anymore, if it’s meant to fall, then just let it collapse. If I can’t do it myself, just try a few more times until I get it.

A new term, double strength, triple maturity, quadruple new friends, there's so much more out there waiting to be embraced. Another new life, I'm coming!

The three betrayers

The first US character we saw when we stepped in US was the Son of Frankenstein. Initially, I didn’t want to take picture with him at all because I had no idea who he was and he was not quite appealing as a mascot. However, we still stepped up to him since he was the first character we saw in the studio.



Nothing happened in the first picture. But the story only began after the first picture, when he started fooling us around by grabbing us along with him. We, known as the betrayals by HW quickly ran away the moment he started grabbing us.



Because of this photo, we were being known as the betrayers for the whole day!

Actually, we ran quite far away also.But please don't neglect the third person who moved his standing location as well, so it was not just us who ran away ok! When I thought of it later on, I felt quite bad for the character because he was just being friendly to us in his own way perhaps, but we turned our back to him the moment he showed his friendliness.

Also, I wonder how could CK pose when she was still in fear?

Then we met the Egyptians later on. They did not wrap our neck this time but they did something else.



I realized most of the characters in Universal Studio like to fool the visitors. That reminds me very much of the chicken in movie world Gold Coast.That time, my sister and I stood beside the chicken and readily posed for the picture, but then the chicken suddenly wrapped my neck with its arms and pulled me behind, with another arm grabbing my sister’s neck. That’s how we took a very funny picture with us being ‘murdered’ by the chicken.

CHICKEN OH CHICKEN, I wonder if you are still there or not. I would have done the same thing to you if I ever see you again, I suppose.

欲加之罪，其无辞乎

Out of so many people in the world, there’s one type I’ve seen who likes to make up things and rumors which come from nowhereland. The more fuss they bring up and the more they ruin your life, the happier they are. However,you find no guilt on this issue because you know that you’ve treated them as genuine as possible.

You feel absolutely ridiculous about what they say.However,you decided to remain silent despite of all the attacks and criticisms, because deep down inside, you know rumors do not do you justice in any way.

You remain silent although these criticisms sound very harsh, as the thing you feel sad about is not those criticisms, but it’s the change of a person’s behavior.

You remain silent, because you understand the consequence of involving in a never ending battle. Once the fight begins, it's going to harbor more and more hatred with the layers and layers of lies that are piling up the ceiling.

All these years, we remain silent and endure every single criticism, it doesn’t mean that we’re guilty and we’re to be blamed of our deeds.To me, we've been patient and good enough to go through all these things silently, because my parents instilled an important thought into my mind since young.

‘Treat everyone as genuine as possible and do everything based on your conscience. If you’ve done your best, then it’s up to the others to judge on your personality and behavior. It’s not just up to one mouth to say anything about your deeds, it’s about majority impression of you as a person.’

Of all the things they have said and done, I chose to forgive and remain silent, because there’s still some appreciation in me for them.

Out of all the attacks, I will only say

欲加之罪，其无辞乎

My new life in K.L

I feel like I’ve been living like a tourist since I’ve moved to Kuala Lumpur. I see more foreigners around my neighbourhood, go to Petaling Street to eat laksa during weekends, tour around K.L to enjoy the night view sometimes besides taking the public transit even more often to travel down the city. It’s a completely new experience to me in learning more about this new place because I don’t really hang out at K.L when I was staying in Petaling Jaya.

I really shouldn’t have said that I come from K.L last time, I should say I was a PJ-ian during self introduction since I realized how much I lack the knowledge about K.L ever since I started living here. I don’t know the roads as much as I know about P.J, I’m like a tourist who needs to look at the signboard when I drive home from K.L. On top of that, I’m also sick of the jam at Federal highway regardless of the time. 8p.m also jam, 10.30 p.m also jam, I’m just so prepared to go home being stuck in a jam every single time.

Having said that, there are still some tourist-must-do-things which I feel like trying out in K.L, and that includes going up to the twin tower bridge in between the two towers. I really feel like going there to snap some pictures, can someone go with me please??

I’m so happy for you

Got a super good news before I went to sleep yesterday.

‘ Jef Ong is engaged to Jacey in India.’

Oklah, I added India at the end because I think Taj Mahal is one cool place for wedding proposal, that’s why I think putting India at the back of the sentence makes it more complete. Although I’ve been expecting this for a long time, I still feel excited when the real thing actually happens. This joyous news kept me awake until 2 a.m because my brain was instantly flashback to a string of good times I spent with my third sister.

She’s three years older than me and I spent my childhood time playing with her the most (although she liked to make me cry). But what I adore the most from her is her perkiness because she always sees things in an optimistic way.We eventually become confidant as we grow older, and there's absolutely nothing that I can't tell her. She's my counselor, confidant, skin care ‘consultant’, joker, mamak buddy and everything else in my life, there’s always a trace of her in it.

The thought of her entering another stage in her life excites me a lot, especially with someone whom I've been seeing quite frequently since 5-6 years ago. To me, he’s already a part of the family since long time ago. I’m so so happy for them because they’ve been together for 8 years as far as I know, besides being the first marrying couple I’ve seen who started their relationship since high school.
This good news of the year keeps me smiling for the whole day as I’m constantly grateful for all the good things that pop up around the people I love.

Hola, this is my song for you guys. Happy engagement!

Die die also want to go spirit

I finished reading this travel book today. The book was written by a Malaysian backpacker on her journey touring around the world as a backpacker.Seriously, I admire her so much because she is so courageous to handle any situation in a foreign country, since a lot of them( like spending overnight in the police station) sound nasty to me. I think, this is the kind of spirit we should look up when we are in a foreign country, the so called 'die die spirit'.That's because many surprising and shocking things will occur and you will have mostly yourself to confront all these things, that's when this 'die die spirit' lends you its hand by helping you to go over the boundary.Also,imagine if the author did not choose this path, with her 'die die also want to go travel' spirit, she would have missed out so many interesting adventures in her life in which not everyone will have the same determination to go through it.

Of all the places she had been to, the one that appeals the most to me is Namtso Lake（纳木错天湖） in Tibet.

(Source: www.meiguoxing.com)

I'm so tempted to go there after browsing through some pictures of Namtso lake, it gives me a sense of tranquility and endlessness, perfectly fit as a place of my style. Hmm, I'm sure that I'll make my way there before I'm 30.

Yosh, I actually booked my trip to Seoul next year partly because of the motivation I've gained from her, although I'm still short of the budget now, like CK says, just work like a 'bull' for the following months and we'll be fine. What we all need is that first kick to keep us working ahead.

Dear Seoulmates, see you guys in 2011!

In reply to El 'this thing called love' Part 2

ATTN: This is a post specially to all girls who are having issues placing trust in guys. So, it may offend a certain individuals but please do not be too sensitive about it because these are just my views based on my own experiences and observations.

I’ve been dealing with this trust issue for so long and yet I can’t find a cure for it, because I know that trust in guys is just something that’s poor in me.I put the blame on guys partially for letting me feel this way, but it’s also about me because I find it difficult to trust any guy the way I did before anymore. I tried before but the way guys repaid my trust was simply disappointing, until I don’t see a reason of putting up with so much pain and giving in so much for a guy. It eventually becomes an uncertainty which changes the way I work for my future.

I’ve accepted one thing: Things will usually end the same in a society like this, for a girl who’s aged like me. Seriously, I’ve trusted you so much and what did I get in return? So why don’t I trust myself more then and treat myself better since you all are still in the midst of choosing a good, better, and the best one.

It's just simply more hurtful for me to hear the reason of your struggle than to live without you.

“Because I’m still young, therefore I can still choose, it’s not like I’m going to marry her or what.”

I can understand the fact that you are young and you're not up for marriage, but what I can't bear with is the fact that you use age as an excuse to not commit in a relationship.I’m not going to give in to all the guys who think so anymore, I think we all, girls deserve much more better than this. Seriously, girls please remember one thing: you can still go on with your life without anyone, especially those jerks. Therefore, please don’t downgrade yourself and prioritize someone who’s not worth your time. Don’t be too in love with the idea of love and give in everything you have to someone who may not treat you the same. And, don’t be worried about the people in your past, there is a reason they did not make it into your future.

I don’t want to and I don’t understand why I have to anticipate so much for something which might turn out to be saddening. Of course it may also end up happily but we just have to be rational sometimes and consider about every possible consequence when it comes to a relationship. Nothing is 100% guaranteed and perfect, so we do have to be logical enough to think of the outcome when things do not work well, so that we can still stay strong and be able to carry on with our lives happily.

Well, I do come from a happy family with blissful family marriages and long relationships, but it means nothing to my future because I may not be as lucky as them, and I have to be prepared for that consequence. Of course it’s good if I can find that someone in my life, but I have to be prepared for the worst to come as well because no one knows what is going to happen exactly later on. Touch wood if it really happens and I’m still single 10 years later, at least I’m financial capable of providing myself a good life with stable income. At least I can live a stress-free life from financial burden and help the other people if I start working my ass off from now on.

It all comes down to one question anyway, because I lack the trust in guys, I’m highly insecure of my future with a guy. Due to that, I don’t know what is going to happen to my love life later on, and that leads me to the way I work for my future now. I can’t plan for my love life, but I can plan for my future. Don’t you think so? And if you think your future is still far away, no, you’re already making your way there and everything’s going to happen within 10-15 years time. Remember how you went through your teenage life? Everything just happened like a shooting star.

That is why I don’t anticipate and expect for any good guy anymore. If I happen to get one, then it’s a good thing and I consider myself lucky. If not, I know I still have my life too. Really, I don't hate those guys who walked passed my life because they've made me the way I am now. I thank you guys for giving me a chance to re-discover myself and the things I want in my life.

You may disagree with me on this because you have a happy relationship right now. Putting trust in guys is a subjective matter so as long as you are happy, why not? Just go for what you think is the best for you and your beloved one, for this is what I think is the best for me.

P/S: I truly wish everyone who has a happy relationship to have the best in their life and don’t find it offensive and assumed that I wrote this because I hate guys. I’m not lesbian and I don’t hate guys, I wrote it based on my friends and my own experiences. I sincerely give my blessings to everyone of you and hopefully you’ve figured out a way in enabling your relationship to work out.

El and Win, I truly wish you all the best in your relationship!

In reply to El 'this thing called love' Part 1

ATTN: This is a post specially to all girls who are having issues placing trust in guys. So, it may offend a certain individuals but please do not be too sensitive about it because these are just my views based on my own experiences and observations.

El and I have tacit understanding when it comes to trust issues with guys. Well, I can totally understand that based on her past relationships because distrust is all that it takes to kill this thing called ‘love’. If you think love is powerful enough to make everything better, then I can tell you that faith is even more powerful to break everything apart.When everything is shattered, it leaves permanent scars with you forever.It’s a permanent damage, it’s not just a temporary phase that you go through in your life, it’s something which fades away from you once trust has been abused for so many times.

Frankly speaking, I do have issues placing my trust in guys too, especially guys at my age because I know that we are all still young and most of us love options, and guys love a life with different love experiences and not just one life with one love experience. I know, many of my guys' friends hold the thought that they are still young, so they have tones of fishes in the water. Even if a guy loves you now, it doesn’t hold anything to your future.I'm in no position to criticize anything about it and I do respect their decision but it doesn't mean that I agree with it.

This was what my best guy friend told me sometime ago:
“Guys are greedy and selfish sometimes, they prefer choices but not one firm decision. They may love you but at the same time they are reluctant to let go of the others. They may love you but at the same time they also like ambiguity with other girls. This is just the way things are.”

Mind you that this wasn’t my idea, this was from a guy’s perspective, so I wasn’t assuming anything from a girl’s point of view. On top of that, I’ve witnessed so many real life examples in which fairy tales crashed down with reality and created a lot of girls like me who do not have much trust in guys. To me, trust is just a word, it means nothing until you work your promise. Commitment is trash if you are going to break it someday. I don’t say this because I hate guys, but I’ve seen uncountable break-ups among my friends, it’s like everyone gives promises so easily until it’s not about achieving it or not, but it’s more about the to-do things you do for a person when you are in love. At my age, at my point of view, it feels like everyone is not responsible for anyone anymore so long that the feeling for each other at that moment is right. If you don’t like, then just break up and change another girl to cut down all the pain.

They've proven to me on how fragile love can be once the so called 'feeling' is gone. Everything happened before is nothing comparable to 'feeling'. All the words said will be washed down to the sink when 'feeling' is gone, and that includes commitment, trust as well as promises. If so, why care so much about the promises made? I think I've had enough of it.