July 28, 2005

Disappointed...

I really few very down these few days.Although busy,but also not in a good mood,doing all the things in a bad mood.Thus,I was sick while doing all my work.Sometimes I really don't understand what's the point of helping them so much.I didn't get anything in return,not to say I want something back from them,but just don't expect scolding and complaints atleast.I always try my best to complete each and every work which is given but can't they just tell me earlier before that?I feel that I've to always stay up late whenever there is any event being held for the last minute call or even asking me to do stuff which is imposible for me to complete in the period which is given by them.Sometimes I really ask myself,why am I doing all these when nobody appreciates your hard work and your effort in making everything to a sucess.It has been very tiring since the day I joined.And I kept on doing,doing and doing,just want to finish everything.When everything is in a mess,I filed it up and put it neatly so that everyone will have a better understanding.
At this moment,I could really feel the cruelty in human.Selfish,selfish human.Just want to make their things easy and putting all the work on my shoulder and expect me to do it.I can do it but it isn't a necessary for me to do and wait patiently,stand for you bad tanthrum.They please you when they need you,and throw you back behind whenever there are good things in front.Do you have friends like that?I've known her for atleast 6 years,and she treated me like that now.I even wonder whether I'm considered a friend of her's or not.I don't know whether I'm being too kind to you and you're using me to benefit yourself.I don't like to have tanthrum with anyone of you,if it's still considerable,I wouldn't have made a sound.I don't like to make everyone angry and still have to get back together to work together soon.It won't feel the same anymore,everyone wouldn't have done their part well and with their true hearts.I don't want it to be like that.I'm tired to compromise with you.You know who you are....did you actually care for my feeling?Or just being happy to have a stupid idiot for you to use anytime?
I really feel like crying....and still tones of work are waiting for me.I know someone is helping me from my back,I know!!I totally changed my true heart to you,you made me not feel like treating you in the same way as what I did before that.You made me feel like betraying you and just leave you alone.You made me feel frustrated and so guilty with what I've done.But I know I can't do that...eventhough I'm already somehow your enemy,the contrast in you and me makes us can't be together anymore....anymore!!Your "don't care,don't know" prinsip will be none of my business anymore.I'll do my part and so do you.That's the best thing I can do to avoid from another battle from happening .I want to live in peace and leave school peacefully.
" Now it's just too late,and we can't go back,I'm sorry,I can't be perfect"

Also hope Val will do well in her piano exams.
Thanks to Full House because it's the only drama which makes me laugh for now.
Thanks to this blogger for giving me an opputunity to release everything out without hurting anybody's feeling.that's the best way.
I don't know why,but I keep on thinking cl,py and mk.Just thank you all for being with me all the time.I somehow miss you all....
Thanks to san,my sis,she wouldn't have know I thanked her but I really really thank her for helping me.I know you like pink,so I put this in pink.
Thanks to everyone who really treats me with their true hearts,believe me,I know,I know,I really know who!!

I'm so sorry to end this blog in a down mood....neglect this if u're not in a good mood too,it just makes u feel worst.Using blue colour because it's the only colour who makes me feel better.

July 23, 2005

Choral Speaking..

I think it was a bit amazing and suprising that I'll enter a choral speaking competition,somemore a inter-school's one.I can only say that it's a bit "wu da wu zhuang" for me to join the competition,because at first I did not tend to join that.Despite our class lost in the school's choral speaking competition,some of my classmates including me were chosen to join the competition.We went through the audition and I didn't even know that I was going to the audition only after the whole thing ended.Haih...big mistake!I was very worried with my performance because I realised that it's one of my biggest weaknesses.I knew that I couldn't be any better than that....I tried to learn face expressions and memorize the poem in only few days.I really worried I'll influence the others performance and damaging the team...I think I did mention in my first blog that I'm very bad in choral speaking and I often get comments on that..
Then one week past with practises everyday for a few hours.We really put much effort on it despite it's our first time to join this competition.I was happy to work with them although it was only 4 days.I kept on asking the other team members to comment on my performance so that I can improve immediately since we've not much time left.Many exhilariting moments have been shared throughout the practises...xD and our conductor,amira is really funny!! She did not put pressure on us but she always makes us laugh and enjoy .She's really great,althought teacher did say something bad but I still listen to her and only her.xD I was also busy borrowing prefect's uniform from everywhere,I think I've asked at least 10 people.All of us were supposed to wear prefect's uniform on that day.Finally I got one from the form 3...wondering whether I could fit in annot...
Yesterday was the competition.We were extremely nervous but still trying to do our best and keep calm until the performance ends.I wasn't very nervous because I knew that once I did that,I'll be forgetting all the actions and poem as well.Before the competition I went to the PBSM meeting..then I went home with winney.We were chit-chatting and eating our lunch before we bathed and go to school again.I was really in horror when I couldn't fit in the skirt which I borrowed and I was panicked.I didnt know who to borrow because half more hour we are leaving school to the competition......Really thanks to all the other such as shal,hsiu ping,mani,winney,margaret,malini and so much more.They helped me to go round and round searching a suitable skirt for me to wear.Finally at the very last moment I got a skirt on me...phew!!I was thinking to quit before that because of not getting a right skirt!Thank god I still managed to enter the competition at last.
We were the third to perform.There were all together 13 teams participated in this competition.It was held in Subang parade.xD We were quite crazy when we got there,and it's just amazing to see a bunch of red maniacs using the esculator and all you could see was only sri amanians in two rows wearing the prefect's uniform and amira who was wearing the red coat outside...xD!!Right before the performance,our teacher Pn santira gathered us and gave us last instrution on what to do and amira who was teaching us what to do later and asked us not to be panicked.Because we are going to put on a good show..that's the only thing we could do to ensure our hard work was paid.deng deng deng deng....Then we got up the stage and started the whole thing which we did numerous times in the poem.I was glad that we managed to perform everything which was planned and practised earlier,all the actions without forgetting the poem because we always paused during practising.xD whoaaaaa.....finally the thing was over and we jumped and screamed after we left the stage,aha,that's how sri amanians behave when they're too hyper.I was happy for not forgetting my part because teacher changed my position a day before...!!xDI didn;t watch another 12 teams but I went to mcd's and hang around.Then when the emcee annouced that we got 2nd,we all jumped off the chairs and...xD hugging each other!We really worked very hard and it was tiring .xD We got a big trophy,rm1000 and a certificate for each member.xD Whoaaa....
That was a really great experience and I changed my impression on choral speaking,well just slightly.I'm glad to know more great friends through joining this competition.Most importantly,I know I can do it if I really want to do it and it just requests some hard work and a bit of confidence...I knew I didn't have much confidence inmyself before that and even know just gained a bit more only.I've to do my best because we are performing in assembly tomorrow...xD yeah,coming back with all the pleasure and honour!!Just hope that the rm1000 won't go to the school,but don't think there'll be with us either.And I'm having fever right after the competition until know...feel dizzy and tired always.But still,not to forget here are some people which I would like to thank:
here's the list of people:
Winney:really want to thank you because you helped me a lot in catching up the poem and teaching me what to do so that I'm not so blur.xD and encourage me,helping me until the very last second...Thanks a lot peep!!
Margaret,Shal,Hsiu Ping,Mani:You all are really great people to work with..xD always put up a good show and helping each other.Thanks for all the effort!!
Amira:Whoaa,you're a great conductor,xD aha,I'll only listen to your instruction,don't worry and I could only see you when we were performing,thanks for all your guidance to make me better.
Valerie:yes,must not forget to thank val for giving comments and also came to watch the competition,Xd thanks for supporting and all the compliments!!You're great too!!
Hidayah,Eileen,the form 3 junior,Amirah:thanks for borrowing me the uniform,tie and skirt.xD U all helped me to enter because I wouldn't have managed to get on stage without the uniform.hehe...
All team members: Thanks for all the hard work and we did it.Xd should celebrate in some other day.
Pn suhafna,Ms thana:Thanks for coming,both of u are my teachersxD,english and est.Thanks for coming to support us.Thank you
Pn santira:Thanks for your guidance and xD hard work.Thank you teacher.I'm happy that we did it too.

July 12, 2005

Photos for Today!!

Guess I've written a lot,so I decided to post some pictures today,pictures from people and nice things around me.xDAhaks,part of my precious things are going to be posted now.But of course,there'll be no me in any pictures,kaka!!...hmm,still not the time yet!!maybe later...
Deng deng deng deng,my coke I
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This is my precious precious...aha!!I got all these very hard,thanks to all the people who've helped me in collecting coke can drinks from all over the countries.They are cans from (left to right)Swiss,korea(3 cans),Indonesia,South Africa,Japan and ArabXD in the picture.
my Coke II
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Cans from Swiss,Italy,China,U.S,Indonesia,France,Japan!!xD whoa,look there are some special edition such as the christmas coke can and also the golden colour can...
CAndy
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Gummy candies from Swiss,my aunt bought it for me.xD The special thing is it is made up of many kinds of animals such as the dinasour,owl and so on.There are all in different flavours...aha,very nice to eat!!!yum yum..
Twins
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This was one of the photos which I've taken on 17/4,when Twins came to promote their first Mandarin albumxD,it was such a nice day!!
Pluto
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A dog you must know ,PLUTO-my lovely dog!!ahaks,taken when it was 1-year-old
Birthday Cake

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My birthday cake last year-Choclate cake,whohoooo!!yummy!!My sis took us to swensens to have dinner on that day...nice***
To BE continued.....

July 08, 2005

Phew!!!

It's a busy,tiring week.Firstly I would like to annouce here,that I've joined our school orchestra,YEAH!!Finally eL and I went to find pn.suhafna and we are allowed and encouraged to join.But the thing is I've to learn something new which is the guitar because they're already people who play piano...hmm,I hope it won't be hard but I'll learn hard to catch up with the others since they're way way better than me.=) Joining orchestra is one of the things I've thought at the beginning of the year and now finally it comes true....ah!!Feel very happy!!=) tomorrow we'll have a practice and I hope they won't be upset to see me...=) I'll learn and learn and learn hard,thats what I can promise for now.I hope I won't dissapoint them..Just give me some time to cope with the new thing.=D Aha,next time you all are going to see me holding a guitar besides playing piano...=D that's when I'm very expert...!!mk,I need your help,teach me guitar =D,"shi fu shi fu"!!and cL also!!

Then it's about the Interact.I was ABOUT to join the club.When val told me about the second intake of the interact club,I quickly did the orientation form and started to get all the seniors and interactors to sign for me.Besides the orientation,I was supposed to write 2 essays and attend an interview.I've done the 2 essays but I failed to go to the meeting..it was so wasted!!!!I waited for 2 hours atleast for nothing and I really gave up ,I waited for val to finish her interview and I went back home!what am I doing,I kept on asking myself?Why should I waited for so long for nothing?Since it was over,I try not to think so much about it...=) I'm a student again.....althought I felt a bit dissapointed,this feeling is not going to be with me long.=) Nevermind,I tell myself!!!

Last Sun,I went to watch the cheer 05 too.It was my first time watching a cheerleading competition.I went with my sisters at 1.30 p.m.dDefinitely it has opened up my eyes and let me realise that how great are the other cheerleaders besides our school,really great!!I really like the titan's perfomance although they didn't manage to get into the top three,they got the sixth.But they're really great!!Keep it up!!Well,I watched my school's one too.=) They did not win but I'll still support them,sri amanians,go go go!!!go,fight,win!!U all have put up a good show too!!!I makes the competition fantastic.yes,and the host was very funny too.He liked to do all these silly acts xD to actually keep up the audience spirit...=DAnd I saw jac too.Long time didn't meet her,and she's still the same...still having a nice and powerful voice,friendly,atleast i think so.=) She's becoming more popular and I think joining Mi is really one of the right things she did in her life.See what she is
getting now and you'll understand,fame is one of them!!She sang three songs,if I ain't got you,that's the way it is(i think so) and her popular song,GEMILANG!!Some cheerleaders also managed to get her signature and take photos with her...xD they did that when jac was singing...xDno eye see~and then one by one came..and she was singing WHILE taking photos with them and signing on the stuff they brought,banners and all that!!The competition ended at 5.15 p.m.And dynamitez from Dj won the first place..hmm,I didn't really enjoy their perfomance,somehow I still think titan is better!But judges might have their different way of judging.congrats anyway!!

Recently I've met some weird things happened on me,I didn't know why.Maybe I'm thinking too much ...shouldn't be thinking it so much!!Starts from the PBSM cabang meeting,then something happened and changed.Then the physics tuition,I met this annoying and irrytating guy who keeps on throwing papers to the front and talking nonsense.I'm gald he's not BESIDE me,or not he's going to get it.Somemore he asked me whether I'm her friend annot...some old "taktik","hmm,you look like my friend from...school!!I just answered him "i'm not" and I went off,why care more?Still want to stand there waiting for more questions??Ahaks,I won't do that!!What kind of friend is this if he doesn't even recognise his friends' appearance.Then it's about this PBSM...not going to talk about it,should be I'm thinking too much because I didn't know the guy.So it's alright!!=) i don't want to think much and be so perasanted later...

July 01, 2005

Schoo Life In Girl School

When I was in Form 1,many of my primary friends or cousins asked me about school life in girl school.I felt quite weird at first but later on I was used to it since so many people were asking.Hmm,when I just entered this school,in a whole new environment with all girls .In fact,95% of them were strangers.I didn't know much of them,probably only 3.I just couldn't describe that fear in me.I was very afarid and worried.I didn't like my new school at all.I didn't know how to answer peoples' question when they asked me about it.I usually say :"It's ok,nothing much,I just have to get used to it".But soon I realised it wasn't a matter of getting use to it or not,you wouldn't accept and cope with it when u totally have no preference in that school.No matter how hard I tried,there will always be a thing which I dislike or hate.

Basically school life in a girl school is nothing much but studying with a whole bunch of girls,listening to the noisy sounds everyday everywhere,yes, everywhere.Due to this,the amount of students in a class will be lesser compared to the double sexes school.They like to chit-chat,sitting together in a group,gossiping about the latest hot news,hot superstar and so on.But of course,sometimes things just go easier with girls.When I was doing my orientation,I realised that it wasn't very hard to get a senior to sign as long as you answer her question.Unlike what my sis told me,she had to "do" something such as singing,dancing or even be a slave (some kind of "maid") in order to pass the orientation.Studying in a girl school,I just need to come in the morning to wait for the seniors coming to canteen and grab the oppurtunity to somehow block their way.xDBut of course,they won't be all generous people,some of them are the evil ones.Well,you just have to cope with it.There will always be those hot gangs in a girl school....hhmm,they love girlish stuff,cool things and branded products.Well,not all of them is like them,but some of them.They scream when there are handsome guys pass by,maybe not scream but.....some other actions.

xD I bet a lot of you all have not had the experience of sitting in a class with all girls there.xD We change Pj clothes together in the class,without going to the toilet.That's one of the conveniences.
We rush to do homework together,especially work which is to be past up on that day.Most of the things are done together.=)Even if I've not complete my homework,I'll have no worries because there'll always be nice classmates helping me to complete it.=)Nonetheless,cheers and supports from girls when there are any special events being held in our school....it is just enough to burst your ears.Until now,I couldn't understand why they just like to "scream "so much???They scream for their teams,classes,friends....teachers,and what else???

Apart from this,teachers from my school aren't that good actually .Suprisingly there is only 1 male teacher in our school.Then only 2 new male teachers came few days ago.All the male teachers are leaving...haha,I don't know why!!!That's also the reasons male teacher is always popular in school,the only one male teacher-Mr Cheah is my mathematics teacher.xD I won't say bad things about him because he's so much better than other fussy women.Every year I'll meet some of these fussy teachers.But of course,there are always good ones.

There is a vast majority of malays in my school.Therefore,it is important to know the right ways to communicate with all people.I felt strange at first because I came from a chinese school with most of the chinese there.=)But as I go higher,then I'll learn more.xDFirst thing you need to know is to speak malay,of course.It will be more friendly for you to speak malay with them.Later on,you can slowly get into their groups and listen to all their stories and all sorts of conversations.It will also be easier for you to ask for help when you be nice to everyone.Just neglect all the sensitive things which will hurt their feelings and talk less gossips about others.LISTEN ,HEAR,but NO comments is the way I behave.They will be nice to you if you be nice to them as well.It is a two-way communication.

So,mainly that's how school life in girl school.I don't know whether it happens in your school.It had its good and bad as well.I admit that I do not like my school since the day I stepped in but I won't do bad things to destroy its reputation as well.One more year and I'll leave this school,leave all the girls and S.A.Is it a good thing for me?Yes...acsolutely!!Well,I can tell you even more if you want to know more.=) Maybe in someday I'll post another one on this topic again....=)