工作是为了娱乐兴趣，而兴趣最终却能够娱乐自己

好像很久没有放肆地自恋一下，跟大家分享我最近的样子。

今年回家的时候，几乎全部人都说我瘦了很多，虽然自己也察觉到这个问题的存在，不过也渐渐体会到了工作会让人自然瘦这个道理。自从上班后，胃口好像变更小了，之前因为上班时间很长，工作很忙需要走很多路的关系，所以也没什么多余时间吃点心的，一点就定时吃三餐，久而久之也就养成了这种习惯，饥饿感渐渐消失了。不过往好的方面想，上班不但让我三餐定时，也让我培养起早睡早起的好习惯，所以虽然瘦了，可是照理来说应该会比之前更健康和精神才对。以前还会为了那两三公斤‘斤斤计较’，现在就真的没有了量体重的习惯，家里连一个称都没有，因为现在的想法是‘想吃就吃，每次吃到7/8分饱就好’。就连一直很积极想要养胖我的Kareshi也开始放弃了这个念头，最近改口跟我说：‘只要你有吃饱就好了，不要勉强’。哇，还真不敢相信半年前对我说出：‘多吃点多吃点，东西要一大坨一大坨吃才行’的那个人会妥协到这种地步，可见他也很无奈呐。

不过大家也不用担心，我不是没吃好，只不过没办法吃很多而已，而且一直以来就这样，那些消失了的脂肪就当作是baby fat好了，最重要的是人看起来精神饱满，健健康康就好。

其实，我还蛮喜欢现在的自己，为了生活而努力，努力生活为了辅助我的兴趣，让我能够在未来好好发展这些兴趣。我听过别人说，最好把兴趣当成是事业上的第二选择，然后把有能力做好的事情排第一，这样就能利用你的才能好好支持你的兴趣了。我觉得这句话很适合套用在现阶段的我身上，因为我的确是在利用我的才能为我的兴趣和梦想铺路，并开始储存自己在职场上的价值，希望以后能够有足够的资金和时间来发展我的兴趣。我觉得，只要抱着这种想法和态度来工作的话，顿时会多了一股动力，因为我知道,工作是为了娱乐兴趣，而兴趣，最终却能够娱乐自己。

Plans for May

It’s the time of the year again for our BFF reunion. Seeing them brings me an indescribable sense of comfort and security, that’s simply because they know me much better than myself, I daresay. Being the last Summer break for most of us as a Student, I think this summer is going to be extremely precious to us since it’s the last time we can enjoy all the student privileges.

Cost of graduation= no discounted movie tickets and karaoke

This summer is also my busiest break with so many plans ahead of me, but I’m definitely enjoying it delightfully because I know I would have accomplished much after the break, knowledge and experience wise. This is my plan for May:

1. Diet.
Oh my god, my life has always been in a dilemma! People either say that I’m quite skinny or I’m fat. As much as I’m confused with the contrast, what upsets me the most is hearing the remark of me looking bigger-sized than a guy, when I consider myself a distance away from 'big sized'. Anyway, criticisms are only going to make me better, and I won't wait for another inflow of criticisms to come. So,I will lose some weight healthily until I don’t hear anything negative about my size anymore. Diet go go go!

2. Hangul.
I can read most of the words for now, thus I’m working on the vocabulary and sentence structures by watching online videos. I’ve a competition with Xin on our Hangul proficiency at the end of the break, and I've faith in myself to do well when I’m very determined to pull off something. I decided to self-learn make it more challenging, so please stay tuned my rival!
=P Good luck on your summer Korean class too!

3. Music composition.
It’s just a continuation on what I’ve been doing for a few months now. I’m also learning to play piano without music sheets to train my ears. I believe that mastering this skill will enhance my music composition to make them sound more vibrant and smooth. Wish me luck, peeps!

4. Nihon-go
Although I’m focusing more on Hangul now, it doesn’t mean that I neglect Japanese completely since my goal is to master both languages in 5 years time. So, I’m revising my past textbooks nowadays and planning to take the JLPT before going on to the next level. I once told a friend that I can expand my career opportunities in Asia with the 7 languages I’ll soon master, since I’ve always wished to work in different countries in future as a way to travel to different parts of the world. Of course, I understand that opportunities do not drop by without efforts being made, so I’m equipping myself from time to time to make myself a better rival to the others.

Keeping myself busy is the most efficient way to keep me motivated and make good use of the break time. After learning a bit about emotion management, I realized spending my time with worthy people always brings the best out of me and makes me feel calm. That's what matters to me at this stage of life.

Live life, love life, then only can I bring myself to my dreams.

P/S: Photography by PY, arigatou!

On diet

I’m on diet for almost a month now and managed to shred off a few KGs of fats all ‘imported’ from Vancouver. But I’m not like those celebrities, I don’t carry out dietary plan which would drive me crazy due to food crave. I just reduced my food portion while going to gym regularly.

You know, one thing I like about myself is that I will work on something once I find the need to do so, regardless of what other people say. I noticed a lot of people are being dishonest when commenting on someone’s weight, that’s why going on diet is a thing you have to self-realize it and then do something about it. To me, it’s either you tell the truth to thrill me to go on diet, or you don’t talk anything about it to make me not realize it, be it in front of me or behind me.

Oh yay, so this is what I’ve been doing for now:
1. Meal-to-meal time is 4-5 hours and try not to have snacks in between.
2. Reduced meal portion and eat until I’m 70% full.
3. Work on treadmill for an hour three times a week.


Basically it’s just an ‘eat less exercise more’ plan since I’m not fully banning myself from any food, I just reduced the amount of consumption. The good news is, I’m just 2 kgs away from my target only, and I’ll definitely continue to work hard on it.

つっと頑張ります

This is the real target I’m talking about!!

This is a hard time for me.

I was re- arranging my photos the other day, and I found out the difference between my previous look and recent look.I felt like I went through a transformation because my face used to be so chubby at the beginning of 2009, and it took less than a year to lose that baby fats naturally. I think my face has never been this slim before ;the V-shape is so obvious when I smile nowadays.

NOOO.

I swear that fat loss was unintended, because I did not tie my stomach tight to slim my face.I have long accepted the fact that my face was chubby and it could hardly be changed. Thanks to the hectic workload and never-ending essay assignments, I accomplished something that I could barely achieve when I attempted to- slim face. And I’m definitely not exaggerating when I say my face is the first body part that shows the extra fats when I gain weight, now you get what I mean.

But, but, but…..

I’m not feeling very happy either. I started to understand how Eileen feels when she says she is losing weight even though she carries out a regular diet, because that is what happening to me now. But again, lacking of sleep is devastating, and what I eat can’t even compensate with the loss of sleep. If you asked me how horrible this term is, that's how it goes:

-Staying outside for more than 12 hours for lectures, group meetings, labs and tutorials. Going back home at 11 or 12 a.m is not impossible.

- Weekends are not meant to be slacking time anymore.3-4 hours of group meetings on Sunday is very common.

- Waking up at 5 or 6 a.m to study or finish assignments is not impossible, when you have 25 essays to write in 13 weeks.

-Having 2 midterms on the same day is very common, and the best way for me is to skip class on that day to squeeze out some studying time.

- Skipping lunch or dinner is not impossible, because sometimes I hit the sack right away after reaching home.





I went through another transition stage; from grumbling a lot on the workload, till I do everything quietly and automatically because I don’t know what should I say about it anymore. Because I’m running out of time, I’d rather save most of the energy as an input to produce more works.

There was once when I was sobbing while talking to Atlee gg about my group mates who left me with almost the entire project to complete with.When I found out, I had to finish the draft 2 hours before the due date on my own, and only one of the guys helped me on the latter part. There was another time when tears fell down quietly while I was doing my English essay at 5 morning, grasping the advices my English professor gave me. Stress is far beyond the word to describe my life.

But again, they taught me on the cruelty of life, if you’re not good enough, you’ll be knocked out. I accepted the cruelty, but that doesn’t mean that I won’t strive hard to survive in university. I will cry, but that also means that I will rebound after that.It is just another fall which will be followed by a rise. So, don’t worry about me, I’m not a walking skeleton, my weight has not dropped to 30+, and I still get a few hours of sleep every day.

See, I still have time to blog for you guys !

Of course, this is a hard time for me,but it will be over after final exams. Let’s pray for my last battle,I thank you in advance.

Too Thin??

A few of my friends have been showing their concern on me of my weight. They feel that my weight has been dropping since these few months, without my acknowledgment. I suppose that's just an outcome of my recent hectic lifestyle.However, one thing I must tell all of you, normal meal plan is still carrying out, maybe just a change in timing while I'm at work due to the change in break time, but I'm still living healthily while everything runs on the right track.

=) I'm very fine here, not suffering from any major problems. Maybe I should say, I've found my way of living during this long break, enabling myself to design a desired lifestyle for myself when I'm away of books.


Tee hee hee, so don't enlarge so much on my weight! It's just a proof of my endeavors.

Once in a while, I'll still have a nice dessert to reward myself.



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