2010 is the year (12)

2010 is the year, I truly feel satisfied with my current life.

Achieving a balance in life is like hitting another milestone in life, it will only go for the better, not worse. I've always wanted to be grateful for every single day that I’m blessed with, every second spent with my family, every opportunity to witness the growth of my niece and nephews, every learning opportunity in Vancouver, as well as the yearly summer vacations with BFFs. I hoped I could truly feel the gratitude of waking up every morning and inhaling the gratitude for being alive. Because staying alive is a God’s gift, not merely a personal choice.

I spent months and months of self-discovery to accomplish this stage in my life, I worked very hard to improve the quality of my life psychologically. I read, travel, mingle with various friends, learn new languages, earn and save money, date, and everything else I could do in making my life exuberant. What I needed was just a kick to start-off these things and keep up with my motivation, and I’m glad that I found it this year. To me, no one deserves to be in the worst state of life, but one thing we need to accept about life is that life quality will only come after a significant amount of self effort. One must learn to rescue himself and accept the truth from every fall, if one doesn't find the rope to climb out of the hole, he can only be trapped forever.

At this moment of life, I truly understand the meaning of giving and taking, and I don’t force myself to forget about those stressful events but I allow time to wash them away. I’ve also learned to accept the beautiful imperfections which complement the cycle of my life, that it’s normal if things don’t go your way sometimes, just deal with them and move on to the next stage.I understand the consequences of every move I make, so much that the realm of my life involves a lot of decisions making. If I don’t let go some, I won’t gain more from the other aspects. Like my sis says, I too, began to see the half-filled glass instead of focusing on the other half which was empty. I thank God for all the angels sent to me and most importantly, the angel that lies in me all the time, to help me through when I felt completely miserable in my life. I thank myself for slapping myself for reality, to remind myself that it’s time to wake up for another new start of the day. Without the support and self-perseverance, I had no idea where in the jungle would I be in, for now.

2010 is a fruitful year to me. Thank God, thanks to everyone, thanks to myself, I felt loved and there I persevered.

2010 is the year (11)

2010 is the year, I’ve taken an adventure to find out more about myself.

I gave a deep thought about my future in every aspect and the life which suits me the best. Living independently these few years has undoubtedly brought about several changes in me. The most significant change should be the adoption of self-sufficiency in handling my daily life efficiently. A lot of things become simpler instantly when I spend more time to scrutinize it before doing it myself, as I will only have myself to blame with for any mistakes instead of losing my temper on other people.I’m tired to even initiate the cycle of getting mad and disappointed at anybody,and I feel calmer with less expectation from other people.

Happiness, entertainment, blissfulness can be self-created most of the time, it is purely a state of contentment with the power to trigger the positive emotions in you.Loneliness seldom comes across my mind because I perceive it as a self-hindrance to see life from another beautiful and hopeful perspective. My thoughts have definitely made me less eager in wanting somebody to stay beside me in sharing my ups and downs, as I disregard the series of temporary misfortunes in my life by keeping up with a busy life while sharing my happiness with anybody along the way.

When I become the major decision maker in my life, I can’t be too fear for what to come, neither can I choose for what to surprise me, so I’ve accepted my destiny and opt for a simple and self-sufficient life. To me, disappointments often come from unfulfilled expectations by the others, thus I’ve learned to fill in the blank and work my way out to make things happen, instead of losing my youth waiting and demanding more from the others.

Lookout and spend more time to understand yourself! You will soon discover the infinite flow of strength within you, far more than enough to carry on with your life when you choose to unleash it.

2010 is the year (10)

2010 is the year, my third sister is engaged to her soul mate in life.

This should be the greatest thing I’ve heard this year, because J resembles a huge part of my life since I was young. We were always in pairs since young, she was like Jerry and I was like Tom in the cartoon, she always made fun of me just to make me cry. To her, making me cry simply made up her day. Having said that, she was surely one good Jerry because she helped me out when I hurt my hand from a camp and couldn’t write for weeks. She was the one who helped me to take notes so that I could catch up with my studies. See, Jerry would still rescue Tom in times of hardships!

Moving on to the later stage in life, we’ve integrated our relationship into a more mature one as we begin to open up ourselves to a wide range of discussion topics. She is always optimistic and gives me positive feedback and encouragement to guide me through every misery in life. She’s also my good supper buddy because two of us always make up a spontaneous mamak or pasar malam session.

I feel really happy to see her moving on to the next milestone in her life soon.Thank you for making me in believing that, true love has not ceased to extinction. It may not fall on everyone, but witnessing one from the people I treasure the most is definitely a serendipity in life.

2010 is the year (9)

2010 is the year, I gained quite a bit from volunteering experiences.

Volunteering is an annual thing to me since high school.Apart from fulfilling the course requirement, I feel more engaged to the society that way through contributing to the community that I’m living.

I had very special volunteering experiences this year, they ranged from front desk task to hands on farming experience. The latter experience seriously exposed me to the brutal in farming especially under harsh conditions. Although my ears and hands seemed to be detaching from my body after so many hours of farming, I never failed to learn more about urban farming, specifically rooftop garden. I’ve never thought of the possibility of establishing a small farm in a limited space and it manages to benefit more people by distributing the food to non-profitable local community to help more needy children and women. I feel inspired in how we can connect people through food and help them by providing them the basic needs in life.

Also, never in my life had I seen so many long and fat earthworms slithering in the soil before and I felt like they were dancing in front of me, the evil soil destructor who did that to weed out the plastic mulch.I felt gross on the first day and tried to avoid these little creatures as much as I could. Then, my brain system activated itself to adapt the image of these big fat earthworms until I got used to it immediately.On the third day, I scooped them to another uninterrupted soil space to prevent from chopping them into pieces before I weed, instead of avoiding them.

Practical learning is always fun and inspiring, and I love myself in understanding the priceless significance of taking and giving back to the society, in which giving is the root of all society love and care.

“We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give” -Winston Churchill

2010 is the year (8)

2010 is the year, we had our first BFFs road trip in 10 years. I’ve spent almost half of my life with these lovely people, and our friendship never fades off with time.

I lost a few precious friendships this year, until the extent when it becomes a question to me, what is the value of our friendship to them? And then I was reminded one day, that the only constant thing in life is change, if our friendship no longer works between us, that’s the time to let it flow because no one can hold a grip at it anymore. That’s the time I should wish them good luck in their life, for the last time on mouth, for eternity on heart.

在人海的沧海桑田, 已是定律不可改变,怀疑就此和你挥手,相识不再见

2010, I’ve re-evaluated every friendship bond I've made and amended my philosophy in building up friendships. Let go of the people who no longer appreciate you, you don't deserve the pain and they don't deserve your kindness. Cherish the goldies friends who are always supporting you back to back, you deserve some true friends and they deserve more of your attention.

Dear BFFs,

谢谢你们让我明白，真挚的友情不需要太多的承诺，因为承诺已一一被兑换成行动。

未来的10年，20年，30年，一辈子，希望我们还是可以一起肩并肩共同渡过。

2010 is the year (7)

2010 is the year, I played small fireworks in Vancouver for the first time.

Fireworks are like the lights in the dark, they look fancy, fabulous and spark up the sky gracefully. They indulge in their whole world like the sky is all theirs, for a moment. Watching fireworks performance is an annual thing to me, as I watch it once a year at minimum, usually on new year eve. To me, the fanciness of fireworks pulls off the first second of another new year wonderfully.

I’ve no idea since when, I’ve been celebrating my new year eve all over places and every new year eve brings me a new experience, with different event, venue, and people around me. I enjoy every bit of it as much as possible, considering that it may be my first and/or last time celebrating in the same place, with the same bunch of people. So, enjoying every moment of the last 24 hours of the year gives me a refreshing feeling to anticipate for a new year to come.

Fireworks are always mesmerizing despite their quick disappearance. I've learned to enjoy the moment and breathe out the rest, as the opportunity to witness a beautiful event in life is still something worth to be grateful for.

2010 is the year (6)

2010 is the year, I have a better understanding on the up and downside of life.

One of my close friends was recovered from Hodgkin's lymphoma earlier this year, and she could finally liberate herself from the various scanning processes and chemotherapies she had to bear with last year. It was nothing more than a great sense of relief when I received this news because her courage and determination to go through this tough stage at a young age was tremendous in order to put up with the pain and prolonged mental stress. She always admires friends like me who gets an opportunity to continue with my tertiary education at overseas as it would be a lifetime inspiring experience.

But friend, you are much more amazing and courageous than anyone of us here, you have a better grasp on life after the near-to-death experience. You truly earn my salute and appreciate on your perseverance to defend the tough battle, which may be a positive turnover for you to realize the never-ending support from your family, and lastly, the subconscious strength in you. You are one inspiring heroin to me.

2010 is also the year, my dad is diagnosed as an early cancer patient. This striking news came to me a week before my birthday, and it is beyond the pain of words of mouth to hear about this, especially when I am not beside him to gear my full support for him.At one point, I truly feel the melancholy side of life in giving and taking things, so much that I can collapse in front of anybody once I hear the word ‘dad’.

But I’m the hero’s daughter, sinking myself in a deep depression for a prolonged period is my last resort. Therefore, I am doing my best in every part of my life, because I want him to share my proudest moment with me, in hope that he'll breathe in the pride, love, and most importantly,strength within it.

Please get well soon, my hero, and give me a chance to retreat you as much as I can.

2010 is the year (5)

2010 is the year I had my first clubbing experience in Vancouver.

My first clubbing experience did not recall some good memories, mainly due to 2 unpleasant events that took place on that night. The first incident happened on me, as I got scratched from the back when a person fell down from the stage (I was kinda near her). Let alone the molesting part, my friend also lost her phone in the club, so it was indeed a long and unforgettable night for all of us, I would say.

Ya I know I’m lucky, thank you.After all, who can be any luckier than me to have all these things happened on the same night.

I’m not a club person, and I can reassure myself that I will not be one after that night. Perhaps, the club can’t handle me, and I can’t handle the club either.

2010 is the year (4)

2010 is the year I received a lot of kiddie stuff from my friends.

Personally, I don’t mind using kiddie things at all so long that they are nice/cute and practical, best if it is Pooh-related! Many friends treat me like a kid who’ll never grow up because of my 'innocent' look according to them, and they conclude that my smile is a trademark. However, they also appreciate my understanding and patience when it comes to complete silent moments between two people, in which I feel truly honoured because accompaniment is a way to express my support and concern to them.

All these while, I’ve adopted an important attitude in my life, which is to play hard and do the right thing. Doing the right thing doesn't mean that one has to hit perfection in every achievement, but one will need to pay for the consequences in every decision one makes. The lifetime goal I've possessed is to play while I still can, but do be serious when I have to.I've way past the adolescent stage and there's no longer any excuse for the mistakes I make at my age.

In 2010, I've learned to be more responsible in everything I do, while continuing to kid in my own way.

p/s: I’m not that innocent anyway.=P

2010 is the year (3)

2010 is the year I made friend with Chrona aka Doggy Kuo Kuo and spent a great summer with her. Doggy Kuo Kuo is a fortunate dog, she gets to go to a lot of places and being pampered by everyone.She's also very cheeky with a good taste in eating, because her highest record was eating up 9 imported pineapple pies from Taiwan out of a dozen.

That…has left Wayne with 3 pineapple pies as his souvenir.

Anyway, doggy Kuo Kuo is in New York now, and I do miss her as much as I miss Pluto at home, because she is my first dog friend in Vancouver. I just have a thing for dogs.

Most importantly,I’ve learnt a lesson from Chrona: dogs are the best heater on earth, as hugging a dog while watching night movies is really the warmest thing to do when the weather outside is chilly.

2010 is the year (2)

2010 is the year Vancouver hosted Winter Olympics.

I saw the transformation of Vancouver, from a peaceful and relaxing place into a vibrant and merry city with tons of visitors hustling in and out of Downtown. I was excited with the variety changes happening in the city, but there was also another side of me who wished to bring Vancouver back to its origin. I don’t need a Times Square in here, all I need is just a less-crowded Stanley park, a place for real breeze of mind.To me, peace and nature are still 2 elements which bring out the beauty of Vancouver.

Feb 2010, you gotta be here. I'm glad that I did.

2010 is the year (1)

2010 is the year I watched the first basketball match in my life.

I was reminded on the only basketball match I participated in my life during elementary school, and I can never forget the adrenaline rush which gushed through my bloodstream for the entire match. Although the match brought me a trophy,what matters the most to me was the 5 seconds of instant self-realization while watching the trophy. I had a better grasp about myself, that I am never a good rival if I were to be compared to somebody else.

My life is never a competition with anybody, but a series of magnificent self-accomplishments until I reach the final destination on earth- death.

Vegosaurs for change 3-month anniversary

As I told you guys earlier, I’m on my way turning into a partial vegetarian for many reasons, mainly environmental factor. It has been almost 3 months for me to take 1-2 days off meat products weekly and everything is progressing smoothly so far.I’m very glad to see my life going green in many aspects.Agedashi tofu, bok choy, carrots, and bean sprouts are becoming my new good friends for never failing to make a good vegetarian meal.I also cook more often at home nowadays in hope to cut down plastic bags and containers I'll contribute in packing up outside food.There are indeed many reasons for me to cook apart from dealing with the hunger as I sometimes cook out of pleasure, especially when I feel like trying out some recipes to see if I succeed. I actually feel accomplished when the dish turns out to be scrumptious and pleasant.

Small steps towards a huge difference, I can do it!

On a side note,life hasn't been very great recently.This is the time when I feel disappointed in humanity in general, so I keep myself to the silence of heart, simply because I don’t feel like having too many emotions at the moment. Also, I’m starting to see myself skipping meals again, thus I’m stabilizing my emotions as much as I can just before the eating disorder experience surfaces for the second time. I just don’t want to lose another 6 kgs due to unhealthy reasons anymore.

I’m slightly bummed out at the moment, as many things are challenging my EQ simultaneously, both in workload and people. So, instead of keeping these unhappy events, I try to let them drain and take their own journey. Also, I begin to believe that heart is the true friend I can call out anytime. Maybe, I’m the best friend for myself.

Jo Kenn in the house!

LOOK AT HIS NINJA HANDS! He is definitely a potential Ninja fighter in future.

I should have put this up earlier since the baby boy is almost 2 months old now. But better late than never, so let me introduce the new member in my family officially, the small ninja fighter is baby Jo Kenn!! He almost made it on 10/10/10 but he was too eager to see the world a day earlier, so he decided to pop out on the 9th. Anyhow, I’m delighted to welcome this new October baby in the house.

Oh yeah, so now I’m a B with 4 kids around me, and when I come to think of it, I’m not exactly a B in the house anymore since I’ve passed my throne to them since Jia Huey was born.However, I’m more than happy to have one more kid to play with in next summer, as I’m really missing these cheeky kids for now.

Hola, and now I’ve another new target to buy clothes for during my Cali trip. I think I’m getting better at buying kids’ clothes after 2 years of experiences, because my taste preference will automatically switch into kids mode when I’m choosing clothes or toys for them, just to make sure that they’ll like the gift.

For now, I’d rather talk to the kids than having to handle what world has gotten me into.

Lappie has got new friends!

Hi everyone, please welcome my new best friend, the bunnies!

Does anyone have idea on what is it?

Nah, I’m so kind to reveal the answer straight away! It’s a USB device to warm hands up through laptop. So what I have to do is just to plug the cable while using laptop, and there’ll be consistent wave of heat generated in the middle of the bunny gloves. TADA, and then I can say goodbye to my icy hands when I'm at indoor!

This is such a BRILLIANT and useful invention to me!! Now I feel warmer and calmer with this pair of gloves on while I'm rushing for assignments or simply enjoying my bubbly drama time. And when I’m bored of doing my work, there’s always this pair of bunnies smiling and accompanying me all night to keep me battling,they are really awesome studying partner, isn’t it?

Dear bunnies, this winter feels better with you guys.=)

Dear BFFs,this winter feels warmer with all your support.You guys are really awesome and considerate as always.

送给许可欣的温馨小品

I can’t sleep now so I’m gonna blog about the person I last talked to, who’s also a special friend of mine in Vancouver. She’s special because she knows me in and out, from my personality, secrets to habits. She’s unique because our birthday is only 7 days from each other. She is special because she’s on my ‘my 10’ phone list, and everything in her just makes her a special person to get along with.

Our friendship started when I first met her on a gathering last year. However, we only got to know each other better when we lived under the same roof. It’s so true that you get to understand a person so much quicker when you live with the person, because that was the way our friendship was initiated. Our conversations mainly took place in 2614, specifically in the kitchen as we never really hung out together at that time. Everything was 'settled' on the dining table, so you really can't neglect the significance of 2614 to the three of us.

Only until this term, when we no longer live together anymore, we realize how significant were those 29583993 lame jokes generated in 2614 kitchen, and so we started calling each other every week, even for the smallest matter on earth, just to keep up with our intimacy. I have to say, she is an extremely caring person, she takes the trouble to find me just to know about my condition. She possesses what I value the most in a friendship- trust and actions, and that’s when I know that she’s a true friend I could never miss out on. I treasure our friendship very much, not only because of the comfort I find in revealing myself to her; it’s also about her kindness to welcome me into her world.

I just want you to know that I always, always feel blessed to have a confidant like you. I’ve encountered many short friendships since I came to Vancouver, so short that I don’t expect much in new friendships at times. But you are nothing like them, you are not a footprint in my life, you are something much more real than that. You are an important piece of my life, and I will be there for you just like how you treat me the same. This is a mutual dependence, so don’t even bother hiding yourself even when you need only 1 buck to buy chocolate.

See, you called me at 1 a.m and I’m now blogging about you at 1.46a.m, I’m so efficient!

我会很听话喔，今晚会安心地去睡个好觉，会好好照顾自己，会保持身心开朗，然后从明天开始，我会带着你的喜悦和幸福去享受下雪天的乐趣。冬天出生的宝宝，怎能不开开心心地去迎接下雪天的来临呢？我之前还真是太不乖了。

不过，最重要的是，我知道你跟Eu是我生活中最真实的存在，所以别人不懂的事情都无所谓，只要你们懂我就够了。还是美里人跟怡保人最最棒啦！！！！

喔喔，还必须要凑齐一位吉隆坡人才对, oh yeahh！^.^

别说对不起

在细雪纷飞的那晚，当外面的温度空降到冰点的那天，我第一次听到你说对不起。突然而来的道歉，竟然令我有点无所适从，因为心灵还没来得及搭上道歉后该有的风度，反而一直处在空荡的状态中。

别说对不起，你只是顿时让我了解到，

原来，你也不过如此而已；
原来，我也不过如此而已；
原来，人也不过如此而已。

2010年第一次迎来的雪，却令我觉得有点陌生。身体很冷，手心很冷，也远比不上内心深处的寒冷。

Beautiful art

Take 12 minutes to watch this video.



This video is a very good metaphor about life. Sometimes, life is just like the stack of cubes as shown in the video, every cube represents a different phase in life, and every cube anchors to another cube of memory.

これわ人生です

I don't understand why.

My mood swings a bit these days. Despite the hectic workload that has taken away half of my soul, there’s something bugging me and I find it difficult to understand, at least it’s beyond my understanding. I received 2 news in a day, one good and one bad. They are nothing about me directly, but the contrast is too big for my EQ to handle it calmly. It’s like, someone’s at the beginning of my previous path, whereas the other one just took the exit out. And I am like the final product to them.

Then I started thinking, am I a good final product?

I don’t know, I’ll never know, as keep moving on is my only strategy in solving problems as such. Although sometimes, figuring out the outcome yourself does not feel good and can be avoided, this is still a process we have to master. Although sometimes, you think you could believe in what others say, it’s this faith which diminishes your faith on the others in the end. Although sometimes, promise may sound sweet, never forget the destruction of a broken promise before that.

I just don’t understand how this incident could have happened, at least for now. It’s not even the anger which strikes me now as I’m prone to ‘fire’; it’s more like a mixed feeling of emptiness and disappointment.

信与不信，真的只有一线之差。

Girls are born to be complicated

A lot of people think that girls are complicated. I can understand the perception but I can also explain this phenomenon with valid reasons- a girl’s life is born to be complicated. Apart from the busy daily tasks, we have to pamper our skin like a princess to ensure that it doesn’t upset us by bringing in a colony of bee hives.

How not to be complicated when a girl’s life involves so many small steps from the inner to outer shelf?

Let’s start from the skin! We have to select the suitable set of skincare products to keep our skin smooth all the time. It’s not as easy as using just one bottle of cleansing foam to achieve the desired skin texture, there are also other products like toner, moisturizer, eye gel, day cream, night cream etcetera which enhance our skin performance. Every product has a specialized effect to the skin and that’s why we have to select the right ones according to our skin sensitivity as well as age.

That’s the first complicated stage.

And then we move on to mask!

I have to say, although doing mask is generally beneficial to your skin, keeping an eye on the ingredients to prevent allergic reactions is important. Another important factor in considering the suitable mask to be used is the weather. Since I came to Vancouver, I usually buy hydrating masks to give my face a hydro boost, so that it won’t dry off as easily.

Keeping your skin clean and clear requires a great extent of determination. You have to keep it as a consistent habit and do mask at least once a week, although 2 times weekly will be ideal. This is extremely important for people who are not going to monthly facial treatment, just like me since mask is the only extra treatment I put on my face. If you’re a lazy bum, I suggest you to use night mask in which you can put it on overnight and then either wash off ( for peel off type) or dispose the mask sheet the next day morning.Besides doing mask weekly, I also use black head remover to get rid of the tiny black sesames on my nose.

This is the second complicated stage. And I haven’t even touched on the outer parts like cosmetic, hair treatment and clothing part yet.

Most of us are consistently living under pressure to stay in a good shape in and out, but I take this pressure as a positive one and set out a strict control to reach the balance in life. I don’t really like to complaint about myself because I much prefer allocating the same amount of time to upgrade myself instead. I also dislike making remarks on others appearance either, simple because I think that words like ‘ugly’ and ‘fat’ are powerful enough to ruin their lives if these people happen to be pessimistic and have ever heard these remarks, since I feel that many suicides derive from society pressure. Hence, things are meant to be kept silent sometimes.

In a nutshell, I just want to give an idea to the others out there who judge girls based on their appearance but never really spend enough time to understand a girl’s effort to keep herself at the best in and out. If a girl doesn’t complain about your appearance and personality, why should you find the trouble then? Inner and outer beauty don’t come by without a reason, as every pretty girl has surely invested quite a bit in herself first before she can constantly shine out. It’s not as easy as it may seem, because it requires consistent effort, money, and time. That’s why I don’t see a reason of being jealous with pretty girls, because they are willing to pay the price for the deal. As long as they are taking the right path
towards being beautiful, why not give it a shot?

Being beautiful is really affordable and achievable, don’t you think so?

Don't look back in anger

Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you'd never been
But all the things that you've seen
Will slowly fade away

So I start a revolution from my bed
'Cause you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside, summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

And so Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
I heard you say

Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows, if it's night or day.
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a Rock 'n Roll band
and throw it all away

Gonna start the revolution from my bed
'Cos you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside cos summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as she's walking on by.
My soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
I heard you say

So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
I heard you say

And So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late and she's walking on by
My soul slides away, but don't look back in anger, don't look back in anger
I heard you say

At least not today.

Foods for thoughts

Leading a healthy lifestyle doesn’t really require high expenditure and a dull menu all the time, as we can play around with the fresh food resources so long that we have the passion to begin with. Therefore, I started making my own smoothie a few days ago and absolutely fell in love with it. Banana, baby carrots, milk and some ice cubes are all that I need and a cup of banana and carrot smoothie is ready to go in 5 minutes once everything is blended together. I tried halving the milk and replaced it by strawberry yoghurt on my next attempt and it tasted good too, so just go ahead inventing your own recipe until you find the combination that you like. It’s like a morning energy boost to me since my stomach feels absolutely satisfied after drinking a cup of it.

Despite of the program that I’m enrolling in university, I’m not an arrogant person when it comes to giving some food recommendations from a nutritional point of view. I seldom bring food issues to the table simply because I think everybody is responsible of their own dietary style. If you are health conscious, then you would want to know more about the proper foods to be consumed to lead you to a healthy lifestyle without needing anyone to motivate you to do so. If you’re simply not a person in that group, then there’s nothing I can say to give you that push to join in the line, because you will most probably ignore it no matter how much time I spend to persuade you. Also, I don’t want to upset myself by listening to how some people prioritize their food preference and neglect everything else, especially the environment. To me,they will only start to realize the real problems embedded within the entire food system when some real disastrous outbreaks kick in, which is quite disappointing when I come to think about it. That’s why I only give my two cents when people are genuinely interested in food issues so that we can work on it together in hope to raise public awareness based on pure scientific evidences.

Anyway I’m currently working on a food project about rooftop garden and I’m doing 12 hours of gardening as my community service learning. I’ve done 8 hours of farming at 2 different urban gardens so far and the take-home message is

“FARMING IS REALLY TOUGH, SO PLEASE APPRECIATE YOUR FOODS!!!!!”*10 fingers pointing at myself*

I will cherish my food more from now on and do my best to no waste food in future.

Oh la la my colourful life

I’m a colourful person, I enjoy using cute little things because they turn my life into a colourful one. My obsession in colourful things has long been in me since I’ve loved decorating my room with pretty cute things since young. I love exploring creative ideas and art crafting, which is why I do window shopping myself sometimes just to look out for those cute things to satisfy my sight. If there were so many great minds in this world, then there should be abundant different ideas out there as well.

Colourful things simply make my day.



I’ve received quite a bit of positive feedbacks on my fringe and I really thank you guys for being so humble to me. Some friends encourage me to join freelance modelling while the others have asked me to model for them but I hesitate a lot since I can’t pose naturally in front of people, I realized I only work best with myself and my camera. Although curiosity of trying something new strikes me for a while, I still find it difficult to overcome the stage fright as I'm not used to presenting the best of myself in front of everyone else yet.It’s just like my singing as well, nobody knows this side of me until they have been along with me for a while, as I usually present my best to my BFFs.

Also because of the fringe, almost 60% of my friends claim that I’ve Korean look while the other 40% think that I’m more to Japanese. It changes my life slightly when a friend starts texting me in simple Japanese and he even wrote my birthday card in Japanese. I’m so glad that I can ‘pretend’ a bit since I’m able to understand most of the conversations besides being excited for the fact that I can finally put my Jap into use. Therefore, I should really go further for my Jap course before I start to age =_=, or I should say, before my memory starts to worsen.

Besides saving money, I’ve also started picking up some Korean language in preparation for my upcoming Korea trip with my lovely Seoulmates. I’m really putting an effort to learn both languages by watching tonnes of J&K dramas, sometimes I even re-watch the scene for a few times just to catch a word or phrase.

Anyway I like my fringe too although it means more work (have to cut my fringe almost every week now).I’m still coping well with this lifestyle,however the day I get bored of cutting my fringe will be the day I surprise you with my ‘10 seconds haircut’ again.

Halloween, I'm here!

Hanging out with friends 3 days in a row was somehow an achievable luxury to me despite of the hectic schedule as I spent my last few days of October celebrating Halloween as well as friend’s birthday. Also because of the frequent outings,I broke my own records in many ways for 3 consecutive days.

Firstly, WX dear brought me to her dance party and that’s how I got the chance to dress up in Halloween this year. I didn’t want to splurge on Halloween costume so I put on the Yukatta my host mama gave me during student exchange trip in Japan last time. I must say, dancing Waltz and Cha Cha in Yukatta seemed to be really awkward because many girls wore a dress instead. Can you imagine a yukatta floating around the sea of dresses? That was exactly how I felt.

However, I had the chance to learn some simple dance steps courtesy to dear dear and overcame the embarrassment slowly. I couldn’t even believe myself dancing for the whole night when I haven't danced for at least 6 years.



I then went to a theme park for the first time in Vancouver and getting high with all the screaming and haunted environment. Going to theme park and playing under the rain enhanced the Halloween craziness even further, because our jeans and shoes were soaking wet. If I could describe the feeling to you, it would be like sitting on a roller coaster with water dripping all over your face and melting your eyeliner. I wasn’t sure which one was nastier in the end. Well at least they didn’t close down the park, if not my 30 bucks would have washed down the sink already.

The coolest thing I found in the park was definitely this monster that we took picture with. He was stationary for a very long time and no one actually noticed this real flesh until he jumped out of the stool and started scaring people around. He somehow reminded me of the wax museum prank by Edison Chen in one of the videos I watched earlier since he prank people in the exact same way. I swear it was hilarious because he pretended as a wax figure and randomly scared visitors who were taking picture with him.



Wrapped up my Sunday afternoon with Afsan’s birthday and we went for a good movie together. It has been such a long time since we last hung out together and it was great catching up with them outside class again. Sometimes, I’m grateful for the small faculty I’m in because that brings us closer together. I don’t understand the greatness of it until the beginning of my third academic year, when I can recognize most of my classmates by face. I may not know all of them personally but we definitely went through several courses together. Learning something in a familiar environment with some other passionate people is somewhat comfortable to me.

Another thing I love about LFS has to be the Agora café, where you can pick up a hot chocolate in a mug for only 1 buck. The best part is not just about the price, but it’s how homely I feel carrying the mug to my lectures and return it back to the café once I’m done with it. It’s a way our faculty promotes sustainability,and honesty in a way, since there is a possibility for those mugs to disappear at anytime.

Of course, fun outings and huge expenditure usually come in a package, so I guess I shall start eating grass for the following days to compensate with that. =_=

Happy 21st!

看着蛋糕上插上的21蜡烛，才真正感受到自己已是21岁大人的那份真实感。仔细回想起2010的点点滴滴，不难发现2010对我来说，是很艰辛的一年。今年走遍了每个人生中的低潮，每一波的难关都好像再重复地告诉着我，这，也许就是生活的意义。

在人际关系上，我开始变得更宽容，我选择把有杀伤力的事情都通通忘掉，只求别人给我一些歇息的空间。遇到不想见到的人，我学会了已微笑带过一切，也已微笑结束一切。人若要变得更圆滑，就必须不断地挑战自己的忍耐力才能够把无关紧要的话都不放在心上，只有真正的不在乎，才会刀枪不入。人若要变得更坚强，就必须经历更多才能够锻炼出那粒坚固无比的内丹。



在亲情与友情的经营上，我学会了付出与行动。一直以来，我都很珍惜与家人与BFF的点点滴滴，因为他们就是我内心真正的归属。今年暑假的所有时间都几乎跟他们一起过的，无论是与小侄女侄子的卡通时间，一家人的聚餐，帮狗狗洗澡抓狗骚，BFF的饮茶聚会与旅行，我都很珍惜，因为知道美好的光阴虽美好但也很短暂，所以一直都很珍惜。

幸福是属于懂得包容与付出的人，所以拥有了就必须要双倍地付出，才能够得到持之以恒的幸福。每个人都需要别人的关心，哪怕只是简单的一句谢谢，对不起，好好照顾自己，这些细小的关怀都会无形间拉近彼此的关系，所以绝对不要因为事小而不为。我重新评价了与一些朋友之间的友情，开始把他们归类在生命中不同的区域里，也开始把时间都花在不同的朋友身上，希望能借此扩展自己的视野。对于真挚的友情，我多了一份熟悉，学会更踏实地对自己在乎的人付出更多，并珍惜每一次的美好。对于那些说不上很珍贵的友情，我少了一份期待，就让它们静静地摆放在原地就好。



在学业上，我花了很多时间去尽最大的努力，只希望我的付出能得到好的回报。我开始了解，任何事情都会随着时间而改变，但学业却是能以努力换取的保障，能以努力增加知识的版图，所以我开始为将来做好准备，好好地充实自己。今年，我也花了很多时间用心地经营自己，并努力地达到自己心目中的要求。我相信自我经营才是最聪明的投资，因为只有真正了解自己的需要与兴趣才能更明确地去追求自己的目标。

至于感情，一直都是我内心最弱的一块。今年狠狠地在感情世界里摔了一跤，勉强自己去接受那些难以置信的事实。我不知道该怎么去定义自己的爱情观，也不知该怎么诉说自己的经历，我只是觉得，感情一直都不是单凭付出与等待就能够开花结果的事情。曾经有一段日子，我每天都望着大海，看着日落，对于可以不可以，该与不该做的事情挣扎了很久。默默承受了很久，到最后才发现自己还真的是傻的彻底，因为自己一直都只是他的第二顺位，所以就连生气的资格也没有。我只是让自己有所期待，让自己觉得暧昧是希望，错觉是机会。当时真的觉得自己很卑微，卑微地忽略了可以令自己更开心的生活，卑微地委屈就全，却又无法捍卫自己的感情。我不再勉强自己继续待在他世界的边缘，所以我选择祝福，也选择离开，因为这是我唯一能给的宽容。感情，对我来说，永远都会是一个难题，也许有一天，我会鼓起勇气再去解开这难题。



自己的难题,自己解决,
自己的心情,自己整理,
自己的疼痛,自己埋葬

我能做的，就是咬着牙自己对自己说,坚持下去。

今年是我第一次在温哥华真正庆祝生日，真心感受到了身边每一位朋友的祝福。有时候，我觉得每一次的机会都得来不易，有些人会是过客，有些人会是普通朋友，有些人会永远留在你身边，只是无论结果是如何，我依然觉得，我是幸福的孩子。

今年最大的收获，就是我把一个全新的自己送给了自己。希望这一个不断蜕变的自己能够一直坚持下去，享受每一份美好，熬过每一个难关。

今年生日唯一的愿望是为爸而许的，希望他能赶快好起来。

其他的，都显得不重要了。

良药苦口

So after struggling with myself for 1.5 months, I finally gave in and visited doctor last week to cure my illness. I was very nervous before seeing the doctor since it was my first time turning to a traditional Chinese practitioner. I’m just not convinced that pills may help to improve my appetite in this case.

The first thing the doctor did was to check on my pulse before asking me anything. He continued asking me about a few symptoms to have better understanding on my health condition. Then, he told me something I've never expected to have happened to me.He said, my appetite was strongly influenced by my emotions. He continued saying that the unstable emotions in me may be due to overly stressing myself or depression since these negative emotions will affect my liver and further influences my appetite. I was speechless for a while because the illness started way before the trough of my life. However, I should be convinced by his professionalism since I came all the way to him just to give it a try.

He got me into thinking what is my actual problem? Although I get my moody and stressed up at times,I never abuse my stomach in such a way before, especially when I’m a person who's studying about food. Since I can't think of a reason, I heed to his advice and tried to free myself from stress as much as possible.

He also gave me 4 packets of Chinese herbs which I had no idea what the ingredients were and asked me to drink it twice a day for 4 days. I’ve been drinking it for 3 days so far and it definitely tastes awful, so awful that the scent of kills and spreads around the whole unit up to 3rd floor.

Even the appearance itself looks unpleasant.




At the same time, I’m also consuming Antacid-Calcium supplement my friend got me. I don’t know which method actually works but I eventually find myself better at adapting slightly-oily and tasty food again. Thank God I could at least have a fine dining on my birthday without feeling unwell.



Don’t worry my friends, I will do my best to eat more and more to compensate with the nutrient loss.

My umbrella, ella ella ella

Changing at least one umbrella per year is definitely not a joke in my life, as my umbrella seems to have this love-hate relationship with me. It’s either she gives up her life and stops servicing me, or she leaves me to another place.

Yar, so my second umbrella of the year disappears from my life again and for the first time, the mistake was caused by me. I left it under my chair after the break.The thing is, I didn’t even buy the umbrella itself since the umbrella was given by my friend who left my previous umbrella on the train, which seems to be so sarcastic now, because that just shows how dim my fate with umbrella is.

It’s now the time for my third umbrella this year, I sincerely hope that we will love each other more and spend longer time together this time.

10 things which make me smile ^_^

My breakfast fruity loops smiles at me.


Spent an awesome evening with bestie and watched a beautiful sunset together.


Two beautiful flowers fell on us on our way to the beach.


Jia Huey asked me to stop studying and go back home to play with her, followed by Eu Kenn telling me that he is a good boy on the phone.


Following the direction my Mickey and Minnie are looking at.


Finally received the birthday card I should have gotten a year ago.


A pretty photo with the BFFs.


Seeing colourful things being put together.


Reminiscing on my homestay experience in Japan.


Listening to inspiring songs by my favourite Japanese band. Two of the members in the group are Canadians and they’re brothers.

I realized there’s no use in crying and it is always better to smile than to cry when something happens, so we shall direct our energy into making our lives better to no let everyone beside us worry. There’s also one thing I learn when I’m studying abroad, which is you have to keep yourself in the best condition whenever possible, and cheer yourself up immediately after a fall regardless what method you’re using. The point is, you have to get up soon, because there are still never-ending tasks waiting for you, because the world doesn’t revolve just for you, because there’s no point crying on the same matter over and over again without helping the situation. So, after wiping all the tears, I should start doing anything I can to make a difference.

Firstly, I should start with self-reflection and filter all the negativity in me.

跟自己说声对不起，因为很久没有好好的吃饭
跟自己说声对不起，因为我让自己不开心
跟自己说声对不起，因为悲伤麻烦了一些爱我的人
跟自己说声对不起，因为忘了提醒自己要好好照顾自己
最后，说完对不起之后，生活还在继续

After self-reflection, I will continue finding motivation from everything, there are so many things I really feel like doing now and I’ll find no accuse to procrastinate these things any further. Everyday will be a beautiful day to start with if I see things beautifully.

It’s a beautiful world, 宇宙に旅に出よう

Thank you for attending the events of my heart.

Past few weeks seemed like a nightmare to me as a string of unfortunate events happened to me, from eating disorder, diarrhea, weird mouse clicking sound, bee sting, till now… dad’s illness. Unfortunate things were lining up for me one after another immediately after I thought I got through a big one. I thought it was going to be a good new start on my way back to Vancouver, but looks like it’s just another journey towards another battle.

Perhaps we humans are constantly battling within ourselves journey after journey, we open the door, venture for a while, then we close the door and hop on to the next door and repeat the cycle again. Maybe, this is what we call as moving on.



Really, this is what I’ve felt last week when my limit is pushed to a higher level and I couldn’t withstand the uneasiness in life. I feel a different level of pain so close to me that it doesn’t tear my heart into pieces, but I’m stunned for a few days without knowing what to do to keep my tears from falling down. It just intrudes my heart and strangles every of my nerves before I can further react on it.



However, I understand something about friendship courtesy to these unfortunates in my life. Some little angels came to me with their warm hearts to light me up. Although they tease me and megabomb me, only I can feel the humour within it and the act of care. To me, teasing me consistently works way better than bringing me out on a treat or talking sweet to me occasionally. They remind me that we’re here to complement each other, for fun and for bun, for pain and for gain. That’s just how our friendships work.

“True friends will come to you naturally, you don’t really have to look for them. They will present if they want to.”

Thank you for the porridge, that’s the sweetest thing on earth for an eating disorder person.

Thank you for the medicine and suggestions, that’s the most practical way to get rid of diarrhea.

Thank you for all the physical and verbal hugs, these are my definitions of love and care.

Thank you for making fun of me just to make me laugh.

Thank you for the accompaniment,that’s the greatest thing in between words of silence.

I may not be in the right position now but I will get back to track soon.

Be optimistic, be tough, believe, and I will begin to see the miracle.

Sometimes, I'm happy to be busy.

4 assignments+1 research+1 discussion+ 1 field trip done in a week, I feel so accomplished after last week although that requires more time commitment with my studies. Last week was tiring but at least productive I would say. Thank god I spent the last day of the week singing my heart out as loud as I wanted.

Someone asks me a lot of questions about the personality of a librain recently. Frankly, that’s not my expertise because I barely study horoscopes. I tend to believe that an individual’s personality is based more on the psychological, environmental and genetic factors. I prefer analyzing things based on a specific situation than bringing in the horoscope factor in classifying a person. Having said that,that has got to be one of the most interesting stories I’ve heard this year and I really enjoy being a part of the listener and a secret keeper because I learn from every story of the others.

Beeday is coming soon and my fellow friends are even more excited in celebrating it than I do. I still have no idea on my celebration because the fact that I’m turning an adult soon still surprises me a lot. I can’t believe that it’ll be my third birthday here, and I think this year will be a better one with more close friends around me, so awesome that the celebration will end up being like a fun gathering instead.

Anyway, I kinda had a nasty encounter for the past few days and I shall update you guys about it soon!

Pledge today, make a change.

"We are not put on this earth for ourselves, but are placed here for each other. If you are always there for the others, then in time of need, someone will be there for you."

I’m glad that I’ve met that someone, someone whom I can get along well and talk comfortably, someone whom I’ll bother showing my concern and letting them know and feel that, someone whom I’m willing to spend more time going out with and hoping to understand more about them. I think, that’s an improvement of me because I used to keep my feelings in heart most of the time but now, I’ll deliver my message at the appropriate time, to the appropriate person.

Although my weekdays are all about lectures and assignments now, I feel like I’m really living a life as a student with school on weekdays and friends time on weekends as I’m keeping the balance quite good. More calls, more texts, more consistent study and assignment buddies during break time, more outings and more exposures, these things make me feel so lively nowadays. I’m totally giving myself a chance to go on a roller coaster ride and trying out another kind of lifestyle as well as studying method to see if it'll bring out some potential in me.

Anyway, I’ve also joined El’s cause of ‘Vegosaurs for change’. It’s a cause about reducing meat consumption for a better environment. So I’m banning myself from meat once a week and I feel good about it because it’s something related to my field of study as well, it’s something about food sustainability and how we should understand the impacts of our food choice on the environment and the entire food system. Nowadays, I begin to think about my contributions towards the society, how an act of care and kindness can bring some new hope to a system. Do not neglect a mere personal contribution because aggregation can become very influential, just like the ‘Earth hour’ and some other thought-provoking events. They don’t make you change for just one day, all they pledge for is a lifetime commitment from you through the event.

Do join me if you’re willing to make the commitment and here’s the event page on FB. 100 people have joined the line and I really hope to see more of you guys there, standing in the same line for the same goal.

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=162399673773871#/event.php?eid=103301333063820

I don’t know what exactly is changing within me but something is changing, probably it’s an adoption of a better mind with healthier thoughts. I think I’m heading to the positive direction in every perspective, be it personal contributions and goals, family and friendships, and lastly relationship.

I’m good, I’m content, and I just want to keep this gratitude flowing.

September

I’m going through a new phase since school started. The same old bunch of friends, a few familiar housemates, yet I’m visualizing everything in a new way. Despite of all the familiar things, I also see how the surrounding is changing from time to time, I see how UBC claims itself as the place of mind and making some efforts to reach there. Looking at the class condition and increasing class size, I think what I saw was an ant hole, small yet abundant. How to squeeze in and out from there? Walk faster, work faster and then leave faster.

Also, I noticed I haven’t been doing a lot in Vancouver since I came here. It was just a shame for an outsider to encourage me to go to UBC anthropology museum when I myself have been living on campus for the past two years.

>.< Bahh anthropology museum I’ll surely make my way there this year!!!

Good thing is, I’ve found my desired lifestyle after 2 years+. I’m getting to know myself better and better and the life I desire.I like the way I am for now and I truly enjoy life with my current friends, embracing all the fun times while stepping foot on new paths.

After all I’m still me, I don’t tolerate and put effort in something anymore when I think I’ve done my best to understand a person and have had enough of it. I’m still me, I’d like to share my life with some other people who treasure the same opportunity as I do. I’m still me, I love freedom and a simple life which satisfies not only myself, but also the people around me.

And it’s good to know that, I’m still me and I’m back to myself again.

'Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now how things could’ve been
It was worth it in the end.'

September-Chris Daughtry

A bad start

This has got to be the worst start of my academic year.

I never understand the pain of eating disorder until recently when I can’t even have a proper meal as my tummy feels bloated and gassy after consuming a little bit of food. Literally, I’m excreting 80% of what’s going into my stomach everyday in a bad form. To make matter worse, I’m still not fully recovering from jet lagging yet and so I’m kind of sleep deprived for the whole week. I finally understand the pain of not being able to eat rice, noodles or any starchy food at all which used to taste so delicious to me.

I don’t know what’s happening to me as I thought it would be pretty easy for me to cope with jet lagging after spending 2 years here.I really dislike my current lifestyle and I’m doing everything I can to regain the balance in both my sleeping time and diet. I can’t afford to see how these important elements in life taking their tolls on my studies later on.

I just want to be myself again, a person who feels satisfied after finishing a meal and getting enough sleep. Eating disorder has never ever happened to me before and therefore I’ve no clue on how to solve it.

Help me and give me some suggestions please!

我已经把你戒掉

I’ve been following up with S.H.E’s music since their first album, and therefore have I witnessed the improvement in their vocals besides the variety of songs they’ve tried out so far. Hebe is my favourite singer among S.H.E, and I feel glad to see her solo album since I think her talent should be acknowledged by more people instead of just being a member in the pop girlband.

S.H.E reminds me a lot of my youthful memories, since many of their songs relate me to Win and El along with our secondary schooldays. Their songs have been accompanying me through ups and downs, and they are the only group which I’ve their full CD collection.

還是原來那個我 不過流掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾 遲早我會換這張臉一堆笑容

不算什麼 愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯 早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
想到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了
賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的
借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你 是我自己做夢你有改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用 每個人有每個人的業障因果
會有什麼 什麼都沒有 早點看破 才看的見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
想到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了
賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的
我總會把你戒掉

They say, we need some experiences to grow up, so I’m taking every experience as a lesson to broaden my sight and a challenge to control my temper. As long as we’re willing to stand up again, there’s always a chance for us to live an exuberant life.
One of my besties and I both went through similar experiences few months ago, and I told her that if 2 depressive people stick together and continue whining about the past, they will only become more depressed. Therefore,one of them must wake up earlier and cheer another one up, then only can we add 2 more optimistic people on earth. If I can do it, I believe everyone else can, that's why don't give up yourself under any circumstances.

My past experience was a total failure and a pain but if I could use it as a guidance to someone else's life, why not share it? I've found myself, my goal and faith along the way, have you?

Cupcakes!!!

I had my first ever cupcake baking session with my buddies last week. Thanks to the online recipe and everyone’s effort in baking the cupcakes, our first attempt turned out to be a success and we felt so accomplished while decorating these little cute stuffs. Even my niece enjoyed the baking session because I gave her a few stars to decorate her cupcake.

5 more days before I go back to the Mapleland, so I’m cherishing every moment here while anticipating to meet up with my Vancouver buddies. A new semester, I know I’m ready.

Live all that you want, be all that you want to be

Someone asked me to share the secret of my emotional management skills since they think I’m optimistic. I can tell you frankly that I am not that optimistic, I’m a human who has emotions just like everyone of you, but I chose to bring out the positive energy within me and pass it to everyone else.

I seriously think this quote from the book ‘secret’ will sum up my thought on EQ management:
‘Write your script. When you see things you don't want, don't think about them, write about them, talk about them, push against them, or join groups that focus on the don't wants... remove your attention from don't wants.. and place them on do wants’

I do have unhappy memories in the past, I lost important things and people in my life. When I come to think of it, I regret it so much because I did not follow my heart and come up with the true answer at that time. I denied it so much because I wanted a better solution for everyone else, instead of myself. I thought pleasing the ones I love would make me feel happy as well, but in the end, I was even more miserable because I focused too much on how these things screwed up my life, I lost my sight on the majority things which I should treasure more.

Perhaps I did not lose a chance, a friendship, potential relationship or anything else but myself.I did not believe in myself that things could work out just the way I wished.That’s when I realize I need a change, I need to change my thoughts to be a better person. I need to trust myself more so that I can have a life that reflects my thoughts.

To be happy and satisfied with our life, we first have to understand the fact that we are the creators of our universe, and so we are the masterpiece of our life. We can be happy if we want to, as the inner thoughts will reflect the outer body, the choice falls in your hands. Resources are not finite because there are always alternatives, what you need is a brilliant idea to discover all these potential things. And the key factor which brings about the success of an idea is faith. You need to have faith in yourself under any circumstances.

When you are not happy with your life, you think life sucks and you’re such a loser.But life is abundant in all areas, and so do happiness and successes. When you have an inspired thought, you must trust it and act on it, and it will all come back to you, even if it is a mistake.We should be thankful for all the little mistakes we've made because these things clear up all the doubts for you and path the life you desire.

When you meet idiots, you’re so annoyed and you think they are eyesores.But there is always another choice, don’t take them into your heart and let the negative power intrudes your body. You’re lucky in a way that you’re not like them. You may be angry for a while but remember to let the anger dissolves after that.

When you have an arrogant boyfriend and you can’t bear up with his thoughts and behavior sometimes.There is actually another choice, give him a chance to prove himself for small issues. Let them go the way they wish and confront with their dignity instead of you poking out the silly mistake for them. You don’t need a robot who obeys everything you say.

Everything is up to your choice. The question is, what kind of life do you want?

Before you make any decision,do remember one thing:we can change the results of our lives.

What home has done to me this summer

Recently, I chat a lot with my niece. Her pure innocence and creativity broaden my imagination besides hers. She's just too adorable!!



Recently, I’m so inspired by a video my bestie shared with me.


‘Make believe, and we all can make a difference.’

Recently, I’m amazed at how easily satisfied I can be, even the smallest thing on earth can make me smile.


-A magician gave me a twisted fork right after the magic performance a few weeks back.

Recently, I wake up every morning, smile to myself and think ‘It’s gonna be another brand new lovely day’


-Smile is the best battery in the world I guess, plus it’s environmentally friendly.

Recently, I made my way towards the target set and got slimmer than before. Having said that, I can still donate blood with my weight now ok, so don't tease me on that,my dear husbands!



Recently, I’ve a new weekly task, that is to cut my bangs once in every 2 weeks.It was pretty bad looking at first, but I’m getting better and better at it.*grins*



Recently, my friends added a few new celebrities to my celebrities look alike list, they are SoHee from wondergirls, Yui Aragaki, and Natalie Tong. I’ve heard tones of names since last time, from Rainie Yang to Miriam Yeung, and one thing I feel glad about is that they all look good to me.


Nice, looks like my face is truly ‘one Asia’. Anyway, I’m satisfied with my appearance and constantly feel grateful for my parents' creation. Therefore, do remember my name regardless of who you think I look like.

This is how much homeland can do to me. To me, it’s not really about the food, it’s not about the flag, but it’s about the resources I can truly gain here, I can explore something out of everything and everyone. I can feel happy at wherever places that I'm in, but there’s only one place for me to harbor infinite supply of energy, love, and not to forget

A nice big bed to sleep.

I’ m not afraid to take anything down anymore, if it’s meant to fall, then just let it collapse. If I can’t do it myself, just try a few more times until I get it.

A new term, double strength, triple maturity, quadruple new friends, there's so much more out there waiting to be embraced. Another new life, I'm coming!