Sometimes, I'm happy to be busy.

4 assignments+1 research+1 discussion+ 1 field trip done in a week, I feel so accomplished after last week although that requires more time commitment with my studies. Last week was tiring but at least productive I would say. Thank god I spent the last day of the week singing my heart out as loud as I wanted.

Someone asks me a lot of questions about the personality of a librain recently. Frankly, that’s not my expertise because I barely study horoscopes. I tend to believe that an individual’s personality is based more on the psychological, environmental and genetic factors. I prefer analyzing things based on a specific situation than bringing in the horoscope factor in classifying a person. Having said that,that has got to be one of the most interesting stories I’ve heard this year and I really enjoy being a part of the listener and a secret keeper because I learn from every story of the others.

Beeday is coming soon and my fellow friends are even more excited in celebrating it than I do. I still have no idea on my celebration because the fact that I’m turning an adult soon still surprises me a lot. I can’t believe that it’ll be my third birthday here, and I think this year will be a better one with more close friends around me, so awesome that the celebration will end up being like a fun gathering instead.

Anyway, I kinda had a nasty encounter for the past few days and I shall update you guys about it soon!

Pledge today, make a change.

"We are not put on this earth for ourselves, but are placed here for each other. If you are always there for the others, then in time of need, someone will be there for you."

I’m glad that I’ve met that someone, someone whom I can get along well and talk comfortably, someone whom I’ll bother showing my concern and letting them know and feel that, someone whom I’m willing to spend more time going out with and hoping to understand more about them. I think, that’s an improvement of me because I used to keep my feelings in heart most of the time but now, I’ll deliver my message at the appropriate time, to the appropriate person.

Although my weekdays are all about lectures and assignments now, I feel like I’m really living a life as a student with school on weekdays and friends time on weekends as I’m keeping the balance quite good. More calls, more texts, more consistent study and assignment buddies during break time, more outings and more exposures, these things make me feel so lively nowadays. I’m totally giving myself a chance to go on a roller coaster ride and trying out another kind of lifestyle as well as studying method to see if it'll bring out some potential in me.

Anyway, I’ve also joined El’s cause of ‘Vegosaurs for change’. It’s a cause about reducing meat consumption for a better environment. So I’m banning myself from meat once a week and I feel good about it because it’s something related to my field of study as well, it’s something about food sustainability and how we should understand the impacts of our food choice on the environment and the entire food system. Nowadays, I begin to think about my contributions towards the society, how an act of care and kindness can bring some new hope to a system. Do not neglect a mere personal contribution because aggregation can become very influential, just like the ‘Earth hour’ and some other thought-provoking events. They don’t make you change for just one day, all they pledge for is a lifetime commitment from you through the event.

Do join me if you’re willing to make the commitment and here’s the event page on FB. 100 people have joined the line and I really hope to see more of you guys there, standing in the same line for the same goal.

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=162399673773871#/event.php?eid=103301333063820

I don’t know what exactly is changing within me but something is changing, probably it’s an adoption of a better mind with healthier thoughts. I think I’m heading to the positive direction in every perspective, be it personal contributions and goals, family and friendships, and lastly relationship.

I’m good, I’m content, and I just want to keep this gratitude flowing.

September

I’m going through a new phase since school started. The same old bunch of friends, a few familiar housemates, yet I’m visualizing everything in a new way. Despite of all the familiar things, I also see how the surrounding is changing from time to time, I see how UBC claims itself as the place of mind and making some efforts to reach there. Looking at the class condition and increasing class size, I think what I saw was an ant hole, small yet abundant. How to squeeze in and out from there? Walk faster, work faster and then leave faster.

Also, I noticed I haven’t been doing a lot in Vancouver since I came here. It was just a shame for an outsider to encourage me to go to UBC anthropology museum when I myself have been living on campus for the past two years.

>.< Bahh anthropology museum I’ll surely make my way there this year!!!

Good thing is, I’ve found my desired lifestyle after 2 years+. I’m getting to know myself better and better and the life I desire.I like the way I am for now and I truly enjoy life with my current friends, embracing all the fun times while stepping foot on new paths.

After all I’m still me, I don’t tolerate and put effort in something anymore when I think I’ve done my best to understand a person and have had enough of it. I’m still me, I’d like to share my life with some other people who treasure the same opportunity as I do. I’m still me, I love freedom and a simple life which satisfies not only myself, but also the people around me.

And it’s good to know that, I’m still me and I’m back to myself again.

'Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now how things could’ve been
It was worth it in the end.'

September-Chris Daughtry

A bad start

This has got to be the worst start of my academic year.

I never understand the pain of eating disorder until recently when I can’t even have a proper meal as my tummy feels bloated and gassy after consuming a little bit of food. Literally, I’m excreting 80% of what’s going into my stomach everyday in a bad form. To make matter worse, I’m still not fully recovering from jet lagging yet and so I’m kind of sleep deprived for the whole week. I finally understand the pain of not being able to eat rice, noodles or any starchy food at all which used to taste so delicious to me.

I don’t know what’s happening to me as I thought it would be pretty easy for me to cope with jet lagging after spending 2 years here.I really dislike my current lifestyle and I’m doing everything I can to regain the balance in both my sleeping time and diet. I can’t afford to see how these important elements in life taking their tolls on my studies later on.

I just want to be myself again, a person who feels satisfied after finishing a meal and getting enough sleep. Eating disorder has never ever happened to me before and therefore I’ve no clue on how to solve it.

Help me and give me some suggestions please!

我已经把你戒掉

I’ve been following up with S.H.E’s music since their first album, and therefore have I witnessed the improvement in their vocals besides the variety of songs they’ve tried out so far. Hebe is my favourite singer among S.H.E, and I feel glad to see her solo album since I think her talent should be acknowledged by more people instead of just being a member in the pop girlband.

S.H.E reminds me a lot of my youthful memories, since many of their songs relate me to Win and El along with our secondary schooldays. Their songs have been accompanying me through ups and downs, and they are the only group which I’ve their full CD collection.

還是原來那個我 不過流掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾 遲早我會換這張臉一堆笑容

不算什麼 愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯 早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
想到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了
賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的
借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你 是我自己做夢你有改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用 每個人有每個人的業障因果
會有什麼 什麼都沒有 早點看破 才看的見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
想到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了
賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的
我總會把你戒掉

They say, we need some experiences to grow up, so I’m taking every experience as a lesson to broaden my sight and a challenge to control my temper. As long as we’re willing to stand up again, there’s always a chance for us to live an exuberant life.
One of my besties and I both went through similar experiences few months ago, and I told her that if 2 depressive people stick together and continue whining about the past, they will only become more depressed. Therefore,one of them must wake up earlier and cheer another one up, then only can we add 2 more optimistic people on earth. If I can do it, I believe everyone else can, that's why don't give up yourself under any circumstances.

My past experience was a total failure and a pain but if I could use it as a guidance to someone else's life, why not share it? I've found myself, my goal and faith along the way, have you?

Cupcakes!!!

I had my first ever cupcake baking session with my buddies last week. Thanks to the online recipe and everyone’s effort in baking the cupcakes, our first attempt turned out to be a success and we felt so accomplished while decorating these little cute stuffs. Even my niece enjoyed the baking session because I gave her a few stars to decorate her cupcake.

5 more days before I go back to the Mapleland, so I’m cherishing every moment here while anticipating to meet up with my Vancouver buddies. A new semester, I know I’m ready.

Live all that you want, be all that you want to be

Someone asked me to share the secret of my emotional management skills since they think I’m optimistic. I can tell you frankly that I am not that optimistic, I’m a human who has emotions just like everyone of you, but I chose to bring out the positive energy within me and pass it to everyone else.

I seriously think this quote from the book ‘secret’ will sum up my thought on EQ management:
‘Write your script. When you see things you don't want, don't think about them, write about them, talk about them, push against them, or join groups that focus on the don't wants... remove your attention from don't wants.. and place them on do wants’

I do have unhappy memories in the past, I lost important things and people in my life. When I come to think of it, I regret it so much because I did not follow my heart and come up with the true answer at that time. I denied it so much because I wanted a better solution for everyone else, instead of myself. I thought pleasing the ones I love would make me feel happy as well, but in the end, I was even more miserable because I focused too much on how these things screwed up my life, I lost my sight on the majority things which I should treasure more.

Perhaps I did not lose a chance, a friendship, potential relationship or anything else but myself.I did not believe in myself that things could work out just the way I wished.That’s when I realize I need a change, I need to change my thoughts to be a better person. I need to trust myself more so that I can have a life that reflects my thoughts.

To be happy and satisfied with our life, we first have to understand the fact that we are the creators of our universe, and so we are the masterpiece of our life. We can be happy if we want to, as the inner thoughts will reflect the outer body, the choice falls in your hands. Resources are not finite because there are always alternatives, what you need is a brilliant idea to discover all these potential things. And the key factor which brings about the success of an idea is faith. You need to have faith in yourself under any circumstances.

When you are not happy with your life, you think life sucks and you’re such a loser.But life is abundant in all areas, and so do happiness and successes. When you have an inspired thought, you must trust it and act on it, and it will all come back to you, even if it is a mistake.We should be thankful for all the little mistakes we've made because these things clear up all the doubts for you and path the life you desire.

When you meet idiots, you’re so annoyed and you think they are eyesores.But there is always another choice, don’t take them into your heart and let the negative power intrudes your body. You’re lucky in a way that you’re not like them. You may be angry for a while but remember to let the anger dissolves after that.

When you have an arrogant boyfriend and you can’t bear up with his thoughts and behavior sometimes.There is actually another choice, give him a chance to prove himself for small issues. Let them go the way they wish and confront with their dignity instead of you poking out the silly mistake for them. You don’t need a robot who obeys everything you say.

Everything is up to your choice. The question is, what kind of life do you want?

Before you make any decision,do remember one thing:we can change the results of our lives.

What home has done to me this summer

Recently, I chat a lot with my niece. Her pure innocence and creativity broaden my imagination besides hers. She's just too adorable!!



Recently, I’m so inspired by a video my bestie shared with me.


‘Make believe, and we all can make a difference.’

Recently, I’m amazed at how easily satisfied I can be, even the smallest thing on earth can make me smile.


-A magician gave me a twisted fork right after the magic performance a few weeks back.

Recently, I wake up every morning, smile to myself and think ‘It’s gonna be another brand new lovely day’


-Smile is the best battery in the world I guess, plus it’s environmentally friendly.

Recently, I made my way towards the target set and got slimmer than before. Having said that, I can still donate blood with my weight now ok, so don't tease me on that,my dear husbands!



Recently, I’ve a new weekly task, that is to cut my bangs once in every 2 weeks.It was pretty bad looking at first, but I’m getting better and better at it.*grins*



Recently, my friends added a few new celebrities to my celebrities look alike list, they are SoHee from wondergirls, Yui Aragaki, and Natalie Tong. I’ve heard tones of names since last time, from Rainie Yang to Miriam Yeung, and one thing I feel glad about is that they all look good to me.


Nice, looks like my face is truly ‘one Asia’. Anyway, I’m satisfied with my appearance and constantly feel grateful for my parents' creation. Therefore, do remember my name regardless of who you think I look like.

This is how much homeland can do to me. To me, it’s not really about the food, it’s not about the flag, but it’s about the resources I can truly gain here, I can explore something out of everything and everyone. I can feel happy at wherever places that I'm in, but there’s only one place for me to harbor infinite supply of energy, love, and not to forget

A nice big bed to sleep.

I’ m not afraid to take anything down anymore, if it’s meant to fall, then just let it collapse. If I can’t do it myself, just try a few more times until I get it.

A new term, double strength, triple maturity, quadruple new friends, there's so much more out there waiting to be embraced. Another new life, I'm coming!

The three betrayers

The first US character we saw when we stepped in US was the Son of Frankenstein. Initially, I didn’t want to take picture with him at all because I had no idea who he was and he was not quite appealing as a mascot. However, we still stepped up to him since he was the first character we saw in the studio.



Nothing happened in the first picture. But the story only began after the first picture, when he started fooling us around by grabbing us along with him. We, known as the betrayals by HW quickly ran away the moment he started grabbing us.



Because of this photo, we were being known as the betrayers for the whole day!

Actually, we ran quite far away also.But please don't neglect the third person who moved his standing location as well, so it was not just us who ran away ok! When I thought of it later on, I felt quite bad for the character because he was just being friendly to us in his own way perhaps, but we turned our back to him the moment he showed his friendliness.

Also, I wonder how could CK pose when she was still in fear?

Then we met the Egyptians later on. They did not wrap our neck this time but they did something else.



I realized most of the characters in Universal Studio like to fool the visitors. That reminds me very much of the chicken in movie world Gold Coast.That time, my sister and I stood beside the chicken and readily posed for the picture, but then the chicken suddenly wrapped my neck with its arms and pulled me behind, with another arm grabbing my sister’s neck. That’s how we took a very funny picture with us being ‘murdered’ by the chicken.

CHICKEN OH CHICKEN, I wonder if you are still there or not. I would have done the same thing to you if I ever see you again, I suppose.

欲加之罪，其无辞乎

Out of so many people in the world, there’s one type I’ve seen who likes to make up things and rumors which come from nowhereland. The more fuss they bring up and the more they ruin your life, the happier they are. However,you find no guilt on this issue because you know that you’ve treated them as genuine as possible.

You feel absolutely ridiculous about what they say.However,you decided to remain silent despite of all the attacks and criticisms, because deep down inside, you know rumors do not do you justice in any way.

You remain silent although these criticisms sound very harsh, as the thing you feel sad about is not those criticisms, but it’s the change of a person’s behavior.

You remain silent, because you understand the consequence of involving in a never ending battle. Once the fight begins, it's going to harbor more and more hatred with the layers and layers of lies that are piling up the ceiling.

All these years, we remain silent and endure every single criticism, it doesn’t mean that we’re guilty and we’re to be blamed of our deeds.To me, we've been patient and good enough to go through all these things silently, because my parents instilled an important thought into my mind since young.

‘Treat everyone as genuine as possible and do everything based on your conscience. If you’ve done your best, then it’s up to the others to judge on your personality and behavior. It’s not just up to one mouth to say anything about your deeds, it’s about majority impression of you as a person.’

Of all the things they have said and done, I chose to forgive and remain silent, because there’s still some appreciation in me for them.

Out of all the attacks, I will only say

欲加之罪，其无辞乎