Konnichiwa!

As some of you have already known that my finals had already ended, and I’m now on my way to the big apple city. Since I’m travelling alone before meeting up with my friends on the 23rd, such a situation reminds me of a song, which is also Susie’s all-time favourite.

“I’m a big big girl, in a big big world, it’s not a big big thing, if you leave me…”
Okay. Only the first 2 sentences are relevant in this case. I’ll be departing from Seattle Tacoma (SEATAC) airport instead of Vancouver airport, so this journey is another long one for me.^_^ But I totally have adopted the resistance and quietness while travelling alone since this is not the first time for me.

So, this is only half of my journey so far, as I’m now still sitting in the SEATAC airport.

8.35 a.m- Bus ride to the required bus stop for pick up

9.35 a.m- Picked up. Another bus ride to SEATAC.



11.00 a.m- Stuck in the Seattle Custom for 40 minutes. A little bit of story here, I was required to pay a fee cost 6 USD, and the smallest note I had was 50 dollars. So, the officer gave me that fierce look and said “small notes or credit card”. So I ended up swapping my credit card to pay 6 dollars, what a crap.



2.10 p.m- Reached SEATAC. I thought my luggage went overweight again when I saw “35.5” on the electronic weighing machine, but it was actually in lb. PHEW, I swear I made an effort to travel light and I made it. Custom was quite strict, no friendly faces. They greeted me by asking me to take off my shoes, and took out my laptop.

2.30 p.m- I’m here sitting and blogging.

So my next destination is Long Beach, then Washington.

Ja ne !

2009 is the year of health

I think my housemate really influences me a lot in terms of my diet because she’s very health conscious and eats healthy food. She can practice a dietary habit with very little dose of coke, junks, and fatty foods because those things are usually out of her healthy list.

Really, I started thinking about my health since last year, when health-related problems occur among my friends. They emphasize to me on the importance of eating healthily because health is irreplaceable and it’s not something that can be bought by money. I somewhat find it true and these words of wisdom hit me hard, because I’m a student who is going to scrutinize on the food products in future, therefore I should start paying more attention on my health before I can convince the others on the best choice for their health. Also, I didn't want to worry my parents on my eating habits, especially my mom because she will become worried if I did not take good care of myself.

Because of them, I revised my dietary plan and tried to be responsible of my own health. Here are the few changes I made since I started second year. Well, I’m not trying to be a health freak here, but I do want to eliminate a few things which I feel I can live without them.

My accomplishments in Semester 1 were:
1. No instant noodle since day 1 of Semester 1. No, not even a sip or a bite, I really did not buy any instant noodle this term, and surprisingly it was not very difficult to resist the temptation because I had only thought of it once.

2. Less than 6 packets of junk foods. Gone were the days when I had a bar of chocolate weekly to satisfy my sweet tooth.



3. Less than 10 cups of bubble tea. Considering the fact that I used to have bubble tea once a week, I think this is the biggest success in my dietary plan.

4. Eating fast food for not more than twice monthly.

5. Self-invented more recipes to eat at home instead of eat out. More fruits and “greenery” in my meals.



So far, I find the plan easy to follow because I did not put a complete full stop for some of my favourite foods. Instead, I reduced the portion so that I'm humble to my stomach, meanwhile maintaining my health. Also, I feel so proud of myself for trying out a variety of recipes from Chinese cuisine to Japanese and Korean cuisine (I learnt how to make Bibimbap and fried Udon.)

To me, I feel that there’s a limit to everything, nothing is infinite. My age is not the factor that allows me to stay wild and careless all the time anymore. There'll certainly be a time where we have to be responsible with our actions.

If we found a balance to be satisfied with what we eat, meanwhile we can keep up with our level of fitness, then there’s no harm to make a difference in our dietary plans. Having said that,I still eat out once in a while, or bite on that juicy BIG MAC without feeling guilty. We don’t have to eliminate our favourite foods completely, but eating them considerately is much more approachable and lasting.

I guess I found another new motto this year, “be happy, stay healthy.”



Would you?

You Know Pui Mun is having exams when

She is playing with the molecular model kit again.



Notes are posted on the wall to remind her on what she has learnt the day before.


And most importantly,



She is SITTING in front of the table to study.
Hahaha. My housemates say they should take pictures of this ‘rare occasion’.

Finals are starting on Thursday, and my last paper falls on the 16th.

What happens next?

Off to the States for my white Christmas!! Whoo hooo!

This is a hard time for me.

I was re- arranging my photos the other day, and I found out the difference between my previous look and recent look.I felt like I went through a transformation because my face used to be so chubby at the beginning of 2009, and it took less than a year to lose that baby fats naturally. I think my face has never been this slim before ;the V-shape is so obvious when I smile nowadays.

NOOO.

I swear that fat loss was unintended, because I did not tie my stomach tight to slim my face.I have long accepted the fact that my face was chubby and it could hardly be changed. Thanks to the hectic workload and never-ending essay assignments, I accomplished something that I could barely achieve when I attempted to- slim face. And I’m definitely not exaggerating when I say my face is the first body part that shows the extra fats when I gain weight, now you get what I mean.

But, but, but…..

I’m not feeling very happy either. I started to understand how Eileen feels when she says she is losing weight even though she carries out a regular diet, because that is what happening to me now. But again, lacking of sleep is devastating, and what I eat can’t even compensate with the loss of sleep. If you asked me how horrible this term is, that's how it goes:

-Staying outside for more than 12 hours for lectures, group meetings, labs and tutorials. Going back home at 11 or 12 a.m is not impossible.

- Weekends are not meant to be slacking time anymore.3-4 hours of group meetings on Sunday is very common.

- Waking up at 5 or 6 a.m to study or finish assignments is not impossible, when you have 25 essays to write in 13 weeks.

-Having 2 midterms on the same day is very common, and the best way for me is to skip class on that day to squeeze out some studying time.

- Skipping lunch or dinner is not impossible, because sometimes I hit the sack right away after reaching home.





I went through another transition stage; from grumbling a lot on the workload, till I do everything quietly and automatically because I don’t know what should I say about it anymore. Because I’m running out of time, I’d rather save most of the energy as an input to produce more works.

There was once when I was sobbing while talking to Atlee gg about my group mates who left me with almost the entire project to complete with.When I found out, I had to finish the draft 2 hours before the due date on my own, and only one of the guys helped me on the latter part. There was another time when tears fell down quietly while I was doing my English essay at 5 morning, grasping the advices my English professor gave me. Stress is far beyond the word to describe my life.

But again, they taught me on the cruelty of life, if you’re not good enough, you’ll be knocked out. I accepted the cruelty, but that doesn’t mean that I won’t strive hard to survive in university. I will cry, but that also means that I will rebound after that.It is just another fall which will be followed by a rise. So, don’t worry about me, I’m not a walking skeleton, my weight has not dropped to 30+, and I still get a few hours of sleep every day.

See, I still have time to blog for you guys !

Of course, this is a hard time for me,but it will be over after final exams. Let’s pray for my last battle,I thank you in advance.

09年的最后一份生日礼物

最近都在下雨，连自己的心情也随着天气冷了一块。

庆幸的是在远方的朋友都很爱我，会嘘寒问暖，会关心我的境况。

庆幸的是每一次的心灰都会换来一份温暖，给予我最大的关怀与鼓励。

有时候真的不能忽略休息的重要，因为只要稍微停一停，歇一歇，真正看清身边的风景才会惊觉自己所拥有的幸福。

也许你们现在看不见我脸上洋溢着幸福的表情，那是你们时常为我制造无可取代的微笑。

就连回忆也变得有温度了起来，为我抵挡住了外面狂风的侵袭。




今天，25日，收到了今年最后一份的生日礼物，是来自于一位很重要的朋友。

感谢你参与了我今年的生日，毕竟记得才是最重要的过程，真的很感激你的那份心意。

你害怕我会太思念钢琴的触感，所以特意缝制了一座布钢琴给我。

你甚至会顾虑到我的财政状况，‘雪中送炭’来救济我噢！

这叫我怎么能不感动呢？^_^

此刻的心情，除了温暖之外，也还真的无法用言语来形容。

Lian Lian 公主，除了感谢，还是感谢。感谢你的一切，感谢能够在2007年认识到你。

Coping with stress and depression

Some people ask me how I manage my depression and stress, I would say I spend time alone when I'm truly upset.Call me a lonely ranger when I’m in depression, because that’s how I get rid of the sadness and disappointment. I love to keep some time for myself to release the stress and do things that I’m comfortable with to relax myself. Also, I realized that no one loves to hear rants, so I’ll try to keep them to myself as much as possible.Trust me, I really don’t want to hurt your ears if I could.

One of the reasons I remain silent when I’m depressed is also to avoid lies. I really dislike people talking to me perfunctorily, how they pretend to care for me when they don’t seem to care much. I'd rather not fall for the lie ‘it’s ok, you’ll be fine’ when things are in a complete mess and it’s not a one-day thing to resolve it. I'd rather accept the truth than being deceived by the layer and layer of lies people make, because they create an illusion and make me feel good for their lies, and demand more in return. I’d rather keep quiet than create a situation to push people saying something that I wish to hear.

It’s better if they skipped the process because I won’t blame you for doing that. So, don’t talk if you have nothing better to say. I don’t believe that perfunctory greeting by some friends will help much, because it’s perfunctory, it lacks the sincerity. Sometimes companion is more powerful because your companion shows your concern to a person. For example, I rather have people to lend me their shoulder when I’m depressed or share some funny jokes with me than repeating sentences like ‘don’t worry, you’ll be fine’, ‘ it’s ok, don’t think too much’ etc. There are obviously better things that can be done to make someone feel better.

I believe that you are the one who understands yourself the best, therefore the best way to cope with stress and depression is to do what makes you feel comfortable. You may cry, hang out, sing out loud, watch a comedy, eat, dance, sleep or anything else which can lighten your day even by a bit. It’s not a must to tell out your problems, but it’s necessary to have a channel to locate these ‘excess’ emotions. You don’t need forever to deal with depression, but getting some time off the things that remind you of the source of depression will be good.

I know this is a stressful period for my peers from far far away, so let’s walk through it and we will prevail.

Walk through the path of life with you guys.


*p/s: it is very comfortable btw, thank you. ^_^

Good times, friends time

Besides busy grasping the lecture notes, I celebrated quite a lot of friends’ birthdays this year. Perhaps September to November is like the peak of birthday parties since there is a lot of September, October, and November babies around me. So I actually celebrate a birthday almost every week.

First, it was Afsan’s birthday!


2 weeks later, we had a birthday party for Isis!


They’re close friends of mine in Vancouver and coincidentally we’re all in the same faculty. Hanging out with them is like putting thousands and thousands of laughing pills into your mouth because they never fail to make my day with their stories. I see them on every school day and we-the threesome are always together when we have the same class.

Richa, on the other hand, is another good buddy of mine as I’ve known her for the longest period among three of them. It’s only until this term that we get to know each other better and go into much more personal conversations.

So much good foods, laughs, and good times when I’m with them.This,is one good contributor to the fun and happiness in my second year so far, and I bet the good times we share will continue to blast off. ^_^

A gift that makes my day.

Last Sunday, when my brain was so dry and deep fried by Chem notes, I took some time out of the book and tried to fix this:



It was one of my birthday presents this year, all the way from Singapore by Atlee Young.

Basically it is a keychain, but what makes it interesting is that it’s a 3D puzzle. It comes in 14 skeleton pieces, so I’ve to patch it up one by one before it can actually turn out to be a Star or Apple.

Initially, I didn’t think it was difficult to put together the 14 pieces by looking at the size of the puzzle.

But ….but……but…..

It turned out that I was very WRONG!

It actually took me a while to figure out things without using a guidebook, because there wasn’t even a piece of paper telling me how to do it. So, after a few trials and errors, mix and match, I finally came up with the end product.

TADA!!



Anyway, it was really a nice gift from you. Although I knew how would the puzzle look like, I still find the process of putting them together enjoyable, and trivial thing like this simply made my day!

Besides that, it was my first time putting in effort to work out something for my birthday gift,when the common scenario is that the birthday gift is wrapped nicely and waiting for me to open it.

That's why, I really need to thank this person,Atlee GG,that was another sweet gift from you.Thank you so much!

Now it’s my turn to surprise you on the coming 27.11.09. Watch out ^_^

Lights on me, it's Bee day.

So I just celebrated my 20th last month. Being a 20 year old “kidult’’, I don’t see myself as a unique individual and how I should be different from the past, because these cumulative experiences and personalities have built up my character for 20 years.

Also, I’m trying to think it in an optimistic way, being a 20 year old is just like living 365.25 days more than a 19 year old. True enough, I feel like 20 is just a beginning of a new chapter in life.

It feels weird to not have husbands and besties to celebrate my birthday for 2 consecutive years. But thanks to the postman, you guys never fail to warm my heart through letters and presents.

It feels weird to not have a birthday hangout, but there was a field trip to compensate it.

It feels weird to not eat cake on the exact day, but I ate a few birthday cakes from other friends’ birthdays to compensate it.

Maybe Alexander is right, when one door closes, another opens.

My new friends in Vancouver hugged me and gave me presents.

Old friends called me one by one to just sing me a birthday song.

Besties and Atlee gg sent me presents through airmail.

A friend wrote me a poem and it was really funny, it made my day.

Housemates had dinner with me and bought me bubbletea.

=) How great is that, for an ordinary person like me to be granted by all these wishes and blessings. I’m not sure since when I pulled down my self-esteem, it is so low that I don’t see myself as a special person anymore, because I’m like you, him, her, and everyone out there, we’re similar in a way that we share most of the fundamental needs in life. But every year, you, him, and her remind me of the significance of my birthday, and how I can be protected and loved.

To me, Bee day is not only about eating cakes or singing birthday songs anymore, but it’s the way we treat a person all these while that counts, that is the cumulative gift we can offer to a person with our heart. When life sucks, a present may keep you warm but good memories cheer you up.

No matter what position I fit in your life, never forget the fact that your michelle, pM, bzz, sis, mm, darmun, wife, munx2, neighbor will always thank you for being part of her life, because you guys allow her to stay bubbly and lame.

So there goes 15.10.09,

A day which was not just about me, but all of you were in as well.



I hope I did bring you good times for the past 15th October of the year.

Music keeps me alive

I’ve always admired those musicians who are able to reach far in the music industry, not solely for fame, but a passion to ignite their musical bones. Perhaps I’m barely as great as them, that’s why seeing these people’s performances give me the push to continue with my music life. It is a difficult path to walk, it’s either becoming very famous with your superb skills, or being washed down by the mainstream music.But because these people have made it so far, they have inspired another bunch of people who are far behind them, and to improve on it instead of commenting on their performance. I seldom comment on other people’s performance when I’m not up to the level that I’m satisfied with, I’m nothing.

I started watching this kid’s videos a year ago and I’m fully convinced by his skills. He’s just born to be the special one, with the naturally gifted fingers.



Do observe his fingers from 2:29 minute onwards, see how his fingers harmonize with the guitar.

Please remember his name, he is Sungha Jung.

Another love of mine is this pianist, Jon Schmidt. Just in case you don’t know who he is,remember the pianist who played on the youtube video -
“ Love Story meets Viva La Vida”



He was the one!!

These 2 songs definitely make a good match, what makes it sound greater is the fact that I'm so familiar with these songs.It would be awesome if I met a cello friend and then we can play duet together. I will work on the piano part as well, let’s see when I can surprise you guys with it.

But my favourite Jon Schmidt's piece is still " All Of Me"


One of my goals in life is to learn three musical instruments and to play them skillfully, without anything but my fingers. If music comes within my heart, and if I was that good, I don’t need a music sheet to remind me how to play though. Therefore I’m self-learning on how to play piano by ear recently, trying to figure out the tips from online tutorials I’ve watched so far. And I’ve found myself a new activity for next year’s summer- learn a new musical instrument. I’m choosing between Violin or Guitar I guess, give me some comments guys!


Gah, I think I really need some piano time already !!

Still surviving in the midst of assignments and midterms flood

1. I had a peaceful birthday this year, which I will blog about it in details. But I’m really grateful for all the texts, facebook wallposts, e-mails, presents, calls, poem, and everything you guys did to make me feel special on 15th October. I rceived an overwhelming 50 wishes this year, and I was really surprised by that. 50 may not be a significant for some of you, but 50 wishes from friends who are all over the world now make me feel that I’m remembered and missed at that very moment, and it’s good enough to know that.

Thank you very much for that. I’m officially 20 now!!


2. The elder brother of the two little Kenn Kenn (my twin nephews) knows how to address people now. My mom says he’s very cheeky nowadays, knows how to call “ popo”, “yiyi”, “mama” and even knows how to reject something by saying “ ng moi”. How I wished I could be just be there to hear that and kiss them on their face.
* dreaming*



3. I went to a dairy farm on my birthday, and it really was a special experience despite of the unpleasant smell all around the farm, I discovered something interesting about the milk production. More updates about this later.


4. I got to know a very cute Japanese who's very shy,till I don't know if it's my problem or his problem. And he's in my faculty too, hopefully we'll become better friends.

Till then, I'll be back really soon, when I tick-off everything from the assignment list for this week. Stay tuned.

If only a picture could tell a story....

My recent life is pretty eventful because I ....



experimented mom’s recipe-fried pork chop and I realized there was still room for improvement.

It was on the 1st October 2009.



finally had my first cup of Starbucks in Vancouver.

It was on the 3rd October 2009.



went to UBC farm for a field trip. I won’t bore you here with the lesson taught, but there I discovered another piece of tranquilizing land in UBC.

It was on the 7th October 2009.




spent a good evening with the UBC symphony orchestra group.

It was on the 9th October 2009.



went to the UBC rose garden and enjoyed the feeling of being hugged by the roses in the entire garden

It was on the 10th October 2009.



modified my recipe of Tomyum Fried Rice and it turned out to be a great success.
=P No ,the picture is not deceiving, the taste was as good as the picture.

It was on the 11th October 2009.





satisfied my tummy with a real good treat. Steamboat and beer time with my housemate-Eugenia JJ.

It was on the 12th October 2009.

Looks like it's a good start for October, I hope everyone out there is having a good time despite in times of failure or depression. There's always an exit waiting for you, so don't just wait for the entrance to enter, learn how to go out of it.

Happy thanksgiving to all my dearies!!

If we are all alone, then we're all together in that too

Fix You-Coldplay




When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above earth or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I...


Tears stream, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I...


Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.


Coldplay's music is really a joy to listen, it calms me down in the midst of mugging, a mugger's peak time really is what I'm going through now, when the insane workload is piling up and midterms lining up one after another.I learned to calm down when I'm emotionally disturbed,perhaps it's because I think that's the only way for frustration to go out.

Fortunately at this point of frustration, I found some warm souls to fix my mind and put a smile on my face. I received a love letter from Winney aka the husband for updates and sharing her love life with me.Husband no2,eL also updated me on her 2nd year life and all in a sudden, everyone's back to a life where students will usually be, we're all back in actions!

Other than that , I've also found a good K-partner here---my housemate.I sang with her when we both were tired with our assignment datelines and midterms, so we sang together, hoping that it'll overcome the stress in us.

So there goes week 5, hectic as usual, but I know I'm not alone with you guys around, and I find motivation from your love and care. For those who don't care for me, I gotta walk out of it and move on, and just leave the unsaid things sink in the past.

Holla, I'm back!

Finally, the leaves-falling season has reached, although I still got to enjoy the last few weeks of summer with sun striking really hard, until I feel like ‘Am I in the wrong place? '

No,it can’t be all my sweat is fake right!

Also,I’ve moved into another part of the campus, still on campus despite it’s further than my previous place. Hmm, I much prefer the room here, but the bad thing is I’ve to walk 15-20 mins to class everyday. Although I’ve another option, which is to bus to save my energy, I haven’t given up on walking since it’s the only time I get to exercise. No jokes on that, I spend at least 1 hour of walking to different buildings/back to my residence daily, that’s why I called it an EXERCISE because it serves the purpose.



Otherwise, life goes on smoothly, as I’m mentally and physically moving into a new phase. Meeting up with new friends, learning new materials, having a new schedule and manage a better mealtime. I now have housemates to accompany me for dinner, grocery shopping/outing, not to mention they’re someone that I can trust to, we’re so close till I feel so amazed when I think of the period we’ve known each other, it seems like everything just fits into its own place in a blink of eye.

I’ve also done a favor for my plain door, I decided to find something to colorize the white-painted door and this was it!!!

Tada, my self-painted room plate.



I know this is yet the best end-product, but I’m also quite happy with it since I fully enjoyed the painting process. To me, process matters a lot when we do our best for it.



I’ve also hung up the deco lights I bought in Bangkok and they look really pretty in the dark. I make it a habit to switch it on everynight before going to bed, somehow the tiny little colourful bulbs make me feel warmer.

Hmm,so that's a new year, a new start for me, in a familiar yet partially new place.
I gotta feeling that this will be a good year with good things happening.Let's pray that it'll come true.

3 resolutions

Apart from some unhappy trivial things, my second year has been doing me good so far, although I can foresee the work flood creeping in, I’m sure I can persevere with sufficient amount of effort exerted.

However, I’ve also made 3 resolutions this year.

1. Boost up my average to increase my chance of joining Food Science programme.
2. Make an effort to join clubs and be active in them.
3. Probably start a relationship and enjoy it.

I’m planning to switch my major from Food Nutrition and Health to Food Science. If you guys can’t distinguish them, then I guess it’s time for me to explain a bit. Food nutrition and health is more concerned on the education in nutritional sciences , so probably you’ll end up being in teaching field. Food science on the other hand is a different thing, lab-work intensed and it focuses more on food flavouring besides food quality assurance. I somewhat think it’s more suitable for me since I’m not good at communicating, and lab work doesn’t seem to bore me at all. Furthermore, inventing new food flavours sound extremely exciting to me, although I’m not sure how good it will turn out, it’s definitely something I would be willing to work for life. So, wish me luck my friend, I’ll work harder this term and make my way to it.
Ganbarimasu!

Coming to resolution 2, I’ve never participated in any clubs in the previous year, generally because I wanted more focus on studies and time to explore the place. But it’s never going to be the same for this year, as I think I’ve almost known this place and my schedule is not as packed as Year 1, I suppose I should spare some time for club activities and meet up with the people out there. Knowing new friends and colorize my year 2, joining clubs is a must.
Ganbarimasu!

Speaking about resolution 3, I’ve come to realize that thought in mind after my 2 weeks of my stay here, that it’s a good timing to start a proper relationship now, when I can finally convince myself to not turn it down immediately. Having a good one will be a splurge to me, but there’s always no guarantee right, don’t take their promise so deeply because you'll never know what’s going to happen in future since it’s a 50-50 bet in my opinion. I’ve thought a lot about it during my break, when people asked me to give up on him. The truth is, I really did stop thinking about him already, when his last choice is still her, as expected, there’s seriously nothing left for me to wait, or perhaps a position for me to fit in. So move forward, go girl, you don’t know how nice you are, you deserve a better one are those words I always hear, and I will give it a try this time. Not a guarantee that it’ll come true but I will take it more seriously, so don’t worry for me already.

Go for a good boyfriend, like you guys said, I will.
Ganbarimasu.

My Hero's Big Day

One of the highlights before my summer break ended fell on the 30th August, when we decided to have a pre-birthday party for my dad this year, in conjunction with his 60’s.



Something special about this celebration was that we made it on a Sunday afternoon, when everyone was in the hype of a long weekend and fully relaxed for a small reunion among the relatives for a good catch up. It all took place in Negeri Sembilan, which is also my dad’s hometown.



Dad was 40 years old when I was born, and he was already a successful businessman at that time, at another peak of his life. Many people say, it was my sheer luck to have been born in a family like this, having no worries for financial burden or being left in a dilemma of family break-ups. I definitely have no doubt on that, because what they said was true.



I travelled to Switzerland with my family when I was 9, when the flight passenger seat was twice my size, when I was slightly higher than the luggages. First time of visiting a snow mountain, first time visiting a western country, first time eating chocolate unstoppably, so many first-time experiences took place because of the breadwinner in my family, all because of his effort that widened my tiny eyes when I was only 9. He taught me through exploration, instead of verbal education.



When I was 10, dad brought me to look up everywhere for Monopoly, mall after mall, Toy’R’us after Toy’R’us just because of my adolescence and super-want-it kinda face, and the Monopoly costs a hundred bucks at that time. Despite of the spoilt-brat I used to be, I learnt something from there, that dad did his best to give us what we wanted, besides what we really needed.



Until I was 17, I went on a youth exchange to visit Japan for 3 weeks. I extremely wanted this golden opportunity and this decision maker in the house didn’t object it. Because of his generosity, I gained one of the most precious experiences in my life.

‘Love is giving a chance to the person you love to achieve her dream.’




These are just some trivial stories out of the large pool of things he did for me, until I feel so grateful for him because things had no way to occur if it wasn't because of him.And true enough,the only thing I can promise him is to live good, take charge of my own life and don’t regret. He wants me to succeed in life, in a way that I’m comfortable with it but not fulfilling his desires. He wants me to be happy, and probably establish my own family in future.



Dear daddy,

Do worry less about me as I should really be responsible with myself, decide on my future and work on it.Although I always have you, mom and Js' support, I realized I should take the initiative to explore the world and tell you the answer, the answer which will make a difference in my life.

I’m always grateful that mom and you held my hands and brought me to this world, because being part of the family is the most blissful thing, a bliss that I couldn’t imagine what would happen without it. Therefore, I’ve always wanted you to live good, be happy and enjoy every bit of your life for now. Go for trips without worrying us, stop working too hard and chill more, and maybe chat with me a little longer next time? You're usually always quiet and that makes our conversations really short, including the time I called back to wish him on his birthday, it only took 56 seconds for the entire call. However, I promise, I will improve my talk and understand you more, know your past stories and just you.

I’m lucky, I feel blessed. And I really want you to share my achievements in life with you.

谢谢你教我学会了中文，
谢谢你让我进女校，
谢谢你令我明白世界之大，成绩之小，
谢谢你给我的一切，一切。

Happy 60th my hero, an everlasting one.

Love,
Mun.

I will respect your decision

It’s not surprising to say that girls are sensitive creatures, but the problem relies largely on the level of sensitivity and the field that touches their nerves. I consider myself as a girl with moderate sensitivity, plainly because thinking unnecessary or unachievable things won’t bring me far. That’s also why I’m prone to most of the criticisms, girl-boy ambiguous friendship and anything that’s not under my control. My preference is to make a clear cut and focus on my own direction, allow my brain to do most of the thinking instead of my emotions.

Recently, I figured out a good friend of mine is keeping a distance from me, with an unknown reason. Deep down inside, I well noticed the difference he treats me before and after the break. I tried to relate this awful action to a few external factors, since I can’t think of any rude thing I’ve ever done to make him act this way. What I want to tell you is, I’ve always respected you as my good friend, a very comfortable to talk to and supportive one, nothing beyond that mutual friendship. But if it all ends up to us being downgraded to normal friends, I will accept the decision and comprehend. I did my best to love and care for you as my friend, and if you still decided to take a step back, I will know what to do. Really, I will cooperate with you accordingly, because I still think, you’re an awesome friend I’ve met in my life. You’re not a footprint on the sand, you don’t run off after a while. Instead, you’re a footprint in my memories, it’s solid. Disturbing your life or your loved ones is not my love, and if I ever did, then I can understand the reason of your decision. And if you haven't noticed,I can already feel it and hear it coming, because sometimes, actions do better explanation than talking, and this is one of the cases.

All these while, I’ve learnt a lot from you, and I hope that you did benefit from our friendship as well. Anyhow, I apologize for any troubles that I’ve caused, if they ever annoyed you. I still hope that you will carry on with your life happily after that, although I strongly feel that you will, since giving up is your last option in life. I appreciate all the great moments we blend into each other’s life, the jokes we once shared, the stories we exchanged, and all the silly little things we did. Thank you for all of that, they do sprinkle some sugar onto my tasteless life.

Thank you. And go on with your life already, because you’re a standout.

A gift from me to you

Because they always have something to say

I'm a child who has always been compared to my third sister. Generally, people apt to prefer my sister than me,which is something that is understandable, since she is better in my opinion.

But things become hurtful when you are being compared for every part of your life,from your skin complexion all the way to intelligence, especially to a sibling who matters so much to you. They like to be a critic to me instead of being an angelic compliment giver to my sister.I bet they either like to thrill me or they really dislike me so much that it's a joy to upset me.

They love to say:

A: Your sister is smarter than you.
B: Your sister's skin is smoother, fairer than you.
C: Your sister's hair is silkier, moisturized than you.
D: Your sister is slim, you're fat.
E: Your sister looks younger than you.
F: Your sister is prettier than you.
G:Your sister............., .........., THAN YOU.

It wasn't a concern to me initially, until recently when I hear it so often, so often that they all upset me by a little. I don't want to be mad at anybody, neither do I want to throw a tanthrum at someone else just by an opinion like this. I opt to not feel myself being a worthless piece of junk, whenever I'm being compared to my sister. Because I am me, I don't need authorization to prove myself, I'm authentic. So I accepted these criticsms all and reminded myself not to take their words for it. I smile, keep silent, and walk away after a while.

I want to become a happy soul, but not to dehydrate my life by the others. Also,I love my sister, and I've always thought that she's an amazing individual that ever exists in my life. She has taught me priceless lessons, problems that I could never breakthrough without her words.Because she's loved, I'll never let someone else's words to destroy our relationship after all.I can't control what other people comment, but I can manipulate mine by closing my mouth and staying hands off on those comments. I well understand that comparison among siblings is a killer, so don't stress yourself to listen if you really don't want to see yourself turning into a no confident, stressful maniac.


I believe most of us here will have issues like this among siblings, but I believe more in God's creation. We were born to be unique,so just accept yourself for who you are but not what others think you are, they assume, they think and they don't fully know you. Because they always have something to come up with, you can't be easily upset by simple words like these. Really, it is okay to not be praised by anyone, as long as you appreciate yourself and achieve something through your own hands. Pave my own route and keep going on with it is my goal.


Because I'm still loved by parents and sisters, I'm still being appreciated by myself,so what about all these? So what? Of course, they can also do a favor by skipping 'than you' for every sentence, and turn it into a nice compliment to my sister, since I now feel, receiving no harsh words is an achievement.

Langkawi Trip Part 1

My langkawi trip was a blast. Seriously, how can it not be wonderful when you go around with a bunch of people who have known you for 9 years. And this was our second trip after the graduation trip when we were 12 years old.

I'm sure it doesn't need me to explain much about this island, most of us have been to it for at least once ( hmmm, as for Malaysians I mean), and usually with family.

SO,7 flight tickets,2 rooms, 2 cars and there we go.

We chosed Langkasuka resort, one of the nearest hotels to the airport ( about 5 minutes).After taking a peek at our rooms, I daresay it was a good deal that we made. Considering the fact that Langkawi is quite small, it's not far to travel from west to the east, from south to the north, all can be done within 25 minutes. Therefore to me, the hotel location is not the main concern but the price is. Each person paid appoximately RM 80 per night for this big and clean room , with breakfast and car provided.




The small balcony outside the room.

We headed to Chenang beach as our first spot.





Py's and Cl's OS: Langkawi, we're here!!

We spent our day 1 at Chenang beach and those streets along the beach for shopping. Also, we went to the Duty free zone which is just next to the Langkawi Underwaterworld Aquarium.




Nothing much happened on the first day since we kept it flexible and relaxing, and cramped all the activities on the second day. Therefore, please stay tuned for the exciting Part 2.

My source of happiness

So my hectic life is still going on even a few weeks before I'm off to Vancouver.

Aside from being at the last stage of packing for my new house, I've also started shopping for necessities to be brought over to Vancouver.

I thought I'm the only one rustling in and out of the house everyday, but a picture slaps me in the face and makes me feel guilty.

Here it is.



My 3-year-old niece was helping out my mother to vacuum her bedroom. Oh wow, what an amazing talent she has at her age.(She was actually having fun)

As you can see it, my life's a maze with lovely people around me to cheer me up when I'm tired, which I obviously lack when I'm doing housework individually. Seriously, I will start cursing myself for making the floor so dirty when in Vancouver, and feel extremely lazy to do it consistently.

Because of you all, I'm a happy soul again.^_^

Thanks to Jia Huey too, because she makes my break a wonder just by playing and answering her questions.



Opps,she's still busy!

Good stuff to listen to.

I've 3 real good songs to share.

Broken -Lifehouse


The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

Miss You Like Crazy-The Moffatts



I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even More than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down when your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy
You are all that I want
You are all that I need
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

3.Falling Slowly-Kris Allen



I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You'll make it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along



It has been 2 years and 2 months.

I'm not feeling good, not really fine, and I just want to listen to the songs all night.

2 Good news to share.

1. My taiwanese pen-pal might be coming to Vancouver next year.
2. My Ausmat friend,Esther will consider about studying in UBC.

Seriously, nothing beats the happiness of knowing. Speaking about the former news, I haven seen my pal for 3 years, since my last visit to Taiwan in 07.I'm utterly surprised when he has such a plan, because his initial plan is to visit his friend in San Francisco next Spring.But anyhow, I'll be glad to see him again, hopefully this time it'll prove me wrong that long-distance friendship can last.


Another day, Esther texted me to ask about Canadian uni's application procedure, and I shared my experience with her as an Ausmatian, because I understand it doubles the complication to apply for Canadian universities without enrolling into Canadian pre-u programme as the foundation. That is why I have to take at least 6 courses a term, and even up to 37 credits for second-year,when someone else can take up to 41 credits unnecesarily,and telling me that 37 is just a peanut case.Perhaps that's the reason why I need some old friends to share my thoughts, remind me to be forgiveable and hang out with me regularly.

So,all the best to my Ausmatian friend here, I hope she can make her way to UBC.




Enough of sharing,it's time to do a little countdown here. 27 days before I'm off, =) let's have our last round of gatherings and parties this year.