So here’s how the list goes:
1.Learn “Viva La Vida” and “Apologize” on piano. Improve my skills and play with my friend one day.
2. Learn guitar and play “晴天” on guitar.
3.Cook a proper meal for my family especially my parents.
4. Cook for Atlee GG.
5.Think of a surprise gift for Lian’s birthday.
6.Have my very first road trip with the old buddies and enjoy myself to the maximum.
7.Celebrate Val’s 21st and splurge a summer trip with her.
8.Work and save money to visit Susie.
9.Shop till I drop, and bring some back for my fellow buddies in Vancouver.
10.Enjoy myself with the three kids at home.
11.Find Lawrence Tan and witness that night view on the hill which he has been talking about all the time.
12. Some clubbing and drinking time with old buddies, I want to go to the “Library” and "Quattro".
13.Take 1 level of Japanese class and go ‘ a i u e o’ again.
14. Continue with my Giddens-ing. His books are surprisingly good and very addictive.
Lastly, learn to forgive and forget and then drop down all the unhappy memories in the past. Surprisingly, I'm coping with my recent life pretty well, while forgoing the depressing ones. I think, life is worth breaking down and then being overwhelmed with truckload of good things after that,if that's for us to appreciate our life even more.
Most importantly, I actually learned a thing from there:
‘不是每一次的对不起都可以换来一句没关系’
I was totally bummed out a few months ago, but then I took it as a process of growing up and learning more about myself. Eventually, the people around me back me up a lot and gave me tremendous strength to keep me going on with my life. Also I gave a second thought on my life, the things that I’m already given and those that I’m not belong to. If everything is about opportunity cost, then I’ve surely paid for it already. Except for some post-syndromes after the breakdown, everything else happened in a good way, in terms of some healthy updates from friends and family in exchange for a failure. Friends who are fully recovered from illnesses, friends who are doing good in their studies, friends who’ve just found the right one and my eldest sister who’s now pregnant, what’s more better than that?
I’m glad that the storm happened on me in exchange for all the good things which occurred to the people around me. These things bring me up to the surface again where sun can be seen.
And me? I’ll continue to keep myself on the right track, as usual. I don’t dissolve myself in depression forever, and I will ignite the depression and make it disappear from my life, together with all the memories as well.Just get lost!
Yoshhh, wait for me,home!