09年的最后一份生日礼物

最近都在下雨，连自己的心情也随着天气冷了一块。

庆幸的是在远方的朋友都很爱我，会嘘寒问暖，会关心我的境况。

庆幸的是每一次的心灰都会换来一份温暖，给予我最大的关怀与鼓励。

有时候真的不能忽略休息的重要，因为只要稍微停一停，歇一歇，真正看清身边的风景才会惊觉自己所拥有的幸福。

也许你们现在看不见我脸上洋溢着幸福的表情，那是你们时常为我制造无可取代的微笑。

就连回忆也变得有温度了起来，为我抵挡住了外面狂风的侵袭。




今天，25日，收到了今年最后一份的生日礼物，是来自于一位很重要的朋友。

感谢你参与了我今年的生日，毕竟记得才是最重要的过程，真的很感激你的那份心意。

你害怕我会太思念钢琴的触感，所以特意缝制了一座布钢琴给我。

你甚至会顾虑到我的财政状况，‘雪中送炭’来救济我噢！

这叫我怎么能不感动呢？^_^

此刻的心情，除了温暖之外，也还真的无法用言语来形容。

Lian Lian 公主，除了感谢，还是感谢。感谢你的一切，感谢能够在2007年认识到你。

Coping with stress and depression

Some people ask me how I manage my depression and stress, I would say I spend time alone when I'm truly upset.Call me a lonely ranger when I’m in depression, because that’s how I get rid of the sadness and disappointment. I love to keep some time for myself to release the stress and do things that I’m comfortable with to relax myself. Also, I realized that no one loves to hear rants, so I’ll try to keep them to myself as much as possible.Trust me, I really don’t want to hurt your ears if I could.

One of the reasons I remain silent when I’m depressed is also to avoid lies. I really dislike people talking to me perfunctorily, how they pretend to care for me when they don’t seem to care much. I'd rather not fall for the lie ‘it’s ok, you’ll be fine’ when things are in a complete mess and it’s not a one-day thing to resolve it. I'd rather accept the truth than being deceived by the layer and layer of lies people make, because they create an illusion and make me feel good for their lies, and demand more in return. I’d rather keep quiet than create a situation to push people saying something that I wish to hear.

It’s better if they skipped the process because I won’t blame you for doing that. So, don’t talk if you have nothing better to say. I don’t believe that perfunctory greeting by some friends will help much, because it’s perfunctory, it lacks the sincerity. Sometimes companion is more powerful because your companion shows your concern to a person. For example, I rather have people to lend me their shoulder when I’m depressed or share some funny jokes with me than repeating sentences like ‘don’t worry, you’ll be fine’, ‘ it’s ok, don’t think too much’ etc. There are obviously better things that can be done to make someone feel better.

I believe that you are the one who understands yourself the best, therefore the best way to cope with stress and depression is to do what makes you feel comfortable. You may cry, hang out, sing out loud, watch a comedy, eat, dance, sleep or anything else which can lighten your day even by a bit. It’s not a must to tell out your problems, but it’s necessary to have a channel to locate these ‘excess’ emotions. You don’t need forever to deal with depression, but getting some time off the things that remind you of the source of depression will be good.

I know this is a stressful period for my peers from far far away, so let’s walk through it and we will prevail.

Walk through the path of life with you guys.


*p/s: it is very comfortable btw, thank you. ^_^

Good times, friends time

Besides busy grasping the lecture notes, I celebrated quite a lot of friends’ birthdays this year. Perhaps September to November is like the peak of birthday parties since there is a lot of September, October, and November babies around me. So I actually celebrate a birthday almost every week.

First, it was Afsan’s birthday!


2 weeks later, we had a birthday party for Isis!


They’re close friends of mine in Vancouver and coincidentally we’re all in the same faculty. Hanging out with them is like putting thousands and thousands of laughing pills into your mouth because they never fail to make my day with their stories. I see them on every school day and we-the threesome are always together when we have the same class.

Richa, on the other hand, is another good buddy of mine as I’ve known her for the longest period among three of them. It’s only until this term that we get to know each other better and go into much more personal conversations.

So much good foods, laughs, and good times when I’m with them.This,is one good contributor to the fun and happiness in my second year so far, and I bet the good times we share will continue to blast off. ^_^

A gift that makes my day.

Last Sunday, when my brain was so dry and deep fried by Chem notes, I took some time out of the book and tried to fix this:



It was one of my birthday presents this year, all the way from Singapore by Atlee Young.

Basically it is a keychain, but what makes it interesting is that it’s a 3D puzzle. It comes in 14 skeleton pieces, so I’ve to patch it up one by one before it can actually turn out to be a Star or Apple.

Initially, I didn’t think it was difficult to put together the 14 pieces by looking at the size of the puzzle.

But ….but……but…..

It turned out that I was very WRONG!

It actually took me a while to figure out things without using a guidebook, because there wasn’t even a piece of paper telling me how to do it. So, after a few trials and errors, mix and match, I finally came up with the end product.

TADA!!



Anyway, it was really a nice gift from you. Although I knew how would the puzzle look like, I still find the process of putting them together enjoyable, and trivial thing like this simply made my day!

Besides that, it was my first time putting in effort to work out something for my birthday gift,when the common scenario is that the birthday gift is wrapped nicely and waiting for me to open it.

That's why, I really need to thank this person,Atlee GG,that was another sweet gift from you.Thank you so much!

Now it’s my turn to surprise you on the coming 27.11.09. Watch out ^_^

Lights on me, it's Bee day.

So I just celebrated my 20th last month. Being a 20 year old “kidult’’, I don’t see myself as a unique individual and how I should be different from the past, because these cumulative experiences and personalities have built up my character for 20 years.

Also, I’m trying to think it in an optimistic way, being a 20 year old is just like living 365.25 days more than a 19 year old. True enough, I feel like 20 is just a beginning of a new chapter in life.

It feels weird to not have husbands and besties to celebrate my birthday for 2 consecutive years. But thanks to the postman, you guys never fail to warm my heart through letters and presents.

It feels weird to not have a birthday hangout, but there was a field trip to compensate it.

It feels weird to not eat cake on the exact day, but I ate a few birthday cakes from other friends’ birthdays to compensate it.

Maybe Alexander is right, when one door closes, another opens.

My new friends in Vancouver hugged me and gave me presents.

Old friends called me one by one to just sing me a birthday song.

Besties and Atlee gg sent me presents through airmail.

A friend wrote me a poem and it was really funny, it made my day.

Housemates had dinner with me and bought me bubbletea.

=) How great is that, for an ordinary person like me to be granted by all these wishes and blessings. I’m not sure since when I pulled down my self-esteem, it is so low that I don’t see myself as a special person anymore, because I’m like you, him, her, and everyone out there, we’re similar in a way that we share most of the fundamental needs in life. But every year, you, him, and her remind me of the significance of my birthday, and how I can be protected and loved.

To me, Bee day is not only about eating cakes or singing birthday songs anymore, but it’s the way we treat a person all these while that counts, that is the cumulative gift we can offer to a person with our heart. When life sucks, a present may keep you warm but good memories cheer you up.

No matter what position I fit in your life, never forget the fact that your michelle, pM, bzz, sis, mm, darmun, wife, munx2, neighbor will always thank you for being part of her life, because you guys allow her to stay bubbly and lame.

So there goes 15.10.09,

A day which was not just about me, but all of you were in as well.



I hope I did bring you good times for the past 15th October of the year.