能够见证你们每个人的幸福，让我觉得很有意义

One of the reasons I enjoyed this summer so much was because of the introductory sessions to all my good friends’ partners. Val, Win, El, and I used to be the foursome in Chinese club during high school and we’ve been strengthening our bonds by going through a lot of things together, both good and bad. Thus, it is a significant moment to me to witness people who mean so much to them, just like how our friendship means to me. Because we know each other’s love stories in all these years so well, we definitely understand the pain of broken promises and unfated love, and that makes everyone’s happiness an important daily prayer to us.

Val and I used to create the lists of our ideal boyfriend while walking back home from school. Although we demand for different qualities from a guy, we never really change the things that we look for all these years. I think God heard her prayer and sent Bernard to her, a person that I believe can complete her. What’s even more rare is that he fulfills all the things she ever looks for, making me believe that he is the right one for her. Seeing them together for 4 years and hearing about their marriage plan make me anticipate even more for the next 4 years to come.

‘Don't let people make you believe you have to settle for "good enough", cuz "just right" does exist :)’

Thank you for all the things that you’ve told me, especially when you share your happiness with me by being a part of it, I really take my heart for all these details.

Even though there’s an issue that we seldom talk about, I truly understand all of your concern about my love life, especially when 3 of you are having a stable relationship but only me. I know, that you guys are trying to make me feel comfortable by cutting these conversations out of the table and sharing me things that would rejoice my feeling. You guys want me to have faith in myself for the right guy ahead, along with all the good things that await me.I feel rather touched by all the kind consideration and support, and it’s been a while since I last talked about love, mainly because I don’t consider 'loveless' as a problem in my life. When I think about all the breakdowns I went through whenever I had a love problem, I begin to believe that staying single is the best choice for me now. I’d rather conquer loneliness than depress, just because I cannot take another shock anymore, both mentally and metabolically, neither can I bare the pain and restructure my life for another time. If being single was my destiny, then I’ve long accepted it already, thus there’s nothing to be worried or sad about.

However, there’s one thing that I need you guys to know, I sincerely value the way we support each other when something goes wrong in our love life, because you guys make me understand an important lesson, that we all find a new life through moving on, and I’ve found evidence from you guys. As much as you guys want me to be happy, I’d pray for the same thing to happen to you guys as well. I'm glad that all of you have found the person that you should treasure and are happier than before, because that's what matters the most, people would only know how to treasure triumph after undergoing pain. No, we ain't talking about the ideal guy lists or any fan girl fantasy anymore, the touchable and sensible serendipity I see from you guys makes me feel blessed and I can ask no more than that. Also, the tremendous changes we all have gone through in 10 these years never fail to amaze me, everyone’s life just gets shuffled for the better.

你们的幸福，在任何时候都对我很重要，所以不要为我而感到心疼，因为能够见证你们每个人的幸福，让我觉得很有意义。

Luckily, I still have these precious smiles with me despite the storms and rains, there’ll never be a day that I’m love-deprived when I have you guys. =) And this, is always my wish for you guys.

Romantic grasses

I told my friend that grasses in this photo looked very romantic visually. Lian then came up with an interesting question:

“What do you mean by romantic grasses?”

Well, the only logical answer that I could think of was probably their wavy figure and soft colour which made me feel so. But don’t you guys think that this plant looks very appealing and it’s usually appearing in those romantic scenes of many love songs’ MVs?

Anyway, I squeezed myself into this bunch of sexy creatures and had a taste of the romantic feeling I’ve long imagined. I’ve always wanted to experience the feeling of being surrounded by a sea of flowers or simply any plants that have calming effect, and I’m glad that my wish was being heard in this trip. I like how every picture reminds me of the little happenings in every trip, that's perhaps the way I value my vacation.

So there goes this photo, please join me and start appreciating these romantic grasses as well. =D

Girl you're amazing, just the way you are

I never really had a chance to thank my tour guide of my New Zealand trip. I can thank her no more for all the successful road trips and special meals of the local delicacies.

Thank you for making everything happen, my dear friend, you have undoubtedly added a lot of spices to my trip. And I just want to say, you're amazing, just the way you are.

Good luck on anything, because you really deserve everything.

谢谢，我

只是习惯了在心灵很脆弱的时候，都会拍拍自己的肩膀，提醒自己努力走过来的路。

然后，感谢着眼下的这双脚，感谢着眼里的这个自己，感谢着还在等待自己的每一个明天。

这些日子里，认认真真地矛盾过，疯狂过，挫败过，然后又重新地振作过，开心过。

挫败并不好玩，但它却让我踏踏实实地学会做一个爱自己的人。

从此，我少了期待，多了踏实，少了憧憬，多了自信。

我也亲眼见证了那个连别人都不了解的自己，还有那份狠起来可以变得非常麻木的心。

即便如此，我还是很想对自己说，没关系，我还是很喜欢这样的自己。

也因为明白了昨天的艰辛与今天的得来不易，我希望我的明天不再活在过去，而是一切重新。

更因为明白了人生不存在重启键，所以每天都重新地祈祷，重新地过活，重新地努力，只盼望能够守住那个不放弃自己的内心，不曾喊累的坚持。

而此刻最想感谢的，正是这样的自己。辛苦你了，但请别忘了往后的坚持与耐心，因为我相信你可以。

Waiting for my day to come.

I'm back to the mapleland after 3.5 months of pure fun and family time at home, and I'm prepared to do what I should do at this period of time, for the one last time until I put on the square hat. I consider next year's graduation as a new milestone for me to embark on a new journey and truly pursue my dream.I've always been doing what I like all the time, but to live a life out of pure passion is the life that I'm really seeking for . I told a few people about my dream, although it seems to be unpractical to many other people, I believe it's not something that's out of reach. Even if it was, I would find out the answer myself instead of allowing other people to let me down by telling me that I can't.

I can, when I really want to, so it's really a matter of determination in my opinion.

Academic performance is my main focus now and I'm surprised by my last year's performance with a 6% increase in my average. That has injected a strong confidence in me and I seek for a better performance this year to mark a good ending of my 18 years of education. Come to think of it, 3 years of uni just passed by in a blink of eye and I can't really recall most of the lecture materials that I've learned in these years. Seriously, I wonder if my total memory for the materials learned would sum up to a 30%? That really sounds like an epic fail considering the enormous effort I had put in every term.

But... I'll still wait for the day of honor and pride to come, when I can finally tell my parents:

'Dad and mom, I've finally reached the finishing line! Thank you for your tremendous support and love.' =) I know that day will come. And I know that my day will come too. Let's all work hard for what we yearn for.

我的宝贝们啊！

我的宝贝们啊，世界上没有比看见你们的笑容更幸福的事。

我的宝贝们啊， 你们还真是一群很会逗人开心的小家伙。

我的宝贝们啊， 有你们的这5年里让我重拾了很多美好的童年回忆。

我的宝贝们啊，你实现了我当大姐姐的心愿。

我的宝贝们啊，你让我好喜欢这个逐渐扩大的家庭，即使我已不再是家里的小宝贝。

我的宝贝们啊，这个夏天因为你们而充满了朝气与活力。

我的宝贝们啊，我不求别的，只希望你们要健康快乐地长大就好。

我的宝贝们啊，我还真舍不得离开你们回到世界的另一端去。

我的宝贝们啊，长大了可别忘记‘小姨姨’这个人物。

我的宝贝们啊，我们明年再见了，好不好？

Back with a stronger heart

Oh my, I finally have the time and mood to properly blog about my entire summer. I can’t believe how much I’ve done in my life while leaving the blog empty simultaneously, and I really mean it when I say ‘much’! Having visited 3 countries in a month, I’ve definitely had a taste of staying in different city every night and breaking my own record of taking the most number of flights in a month, to an extent which I felt the need to take a break from a break. However, I think I’ve also qualified myself as a helpful travel buddy from all the things I’ve learned in this traveling month. Also, it’s definitely the best time to know more about a person through the experience of  traveling together, and I can’t help but to emphasize the importance of finding good travel buddies for a truly good trip. 

This summer has got to be the most fulfilling and fruitful season in these three years, as I’ve brought myself closer to my dream while witnessing the accomplishment of some other peoples’ dreams. For the first time after a long while, I’m actually breathing in the joy of dreams coming true again, which is such a down-to-earth and fulfilling moment.

Being the last summer of my undergraduate years, I’ve given myself sufficient time to consider about my future to set things clear. Having to talk about myself with family and friends makes me feel like a grown up, but keeping them from everything they should know about me is not the way I love them, because they are such an important piece in my life. They complete me more than anyone else.

It's just the right time for confession this summer, and I'm glad that, I'm back with a stronger heart after everything.