=) June 3rd

Today I'm just going to share a little on my current doing for your knowing.Hmm,this is already the 8th day of my mid-term holiday,sadly to say that I'm not doing much.=) Tonnes of homework has always reminded me that I'm a year five student in high school,sitting for an extremely important exam....does holiday only mean this much to me?Perhaps,books are still in my hands always although it's holiday,haha,they just can't be out of my sight.Hehe,=) mind to have a look on my curent doing?

Currently listening:
Justin-No Protection


All time favourite:Kong
=) If you have not approach to his music before,then I truly recommend you this album!!A hong kong pop new talent.

Currenly reading:
神的孩子都在跳舞-村上春树


Currenly studying:
Japanese Language

=) doing revision and self-study on japanese language study.Hmm,it really takes time for me to study all the books.tend to change another japanese language learning centre due to the neverending break,it has always prohibited me from studying it continuously.Getting a little annoyed by their act of stopping the class always.Gambateh,Mun Kuan.=D Haha,guess you have to become my sensei soon already!!

SPM Revision


Never too late to start doing revision.I've started a little bit,maybe not much but I really hope that it works.Meanwhile,I'm also quite worried for my mid-term exams.It has been bothering me always.xD The day all of you see my shelf is cleared and totally empty is the day I finish my SPM!!

Currenly Watching:
1.Attention Please


It's a story based on the proffesion of a stewardess which involves the gruelling training.=D Haha,never forget to mention Misaki,an always careless and forgetful trainee.However,she's like the light of the whole team which later helps to lighten the morale of her team and build up a true friendship among each other.An enjoyable show I would say.Starring by Aya ueto.

2.Kurosagi

It is about a cheater who cheats due to his family background.His parents were killed for the same reason if I'm not mistaken.he gives up his love life and everything else just to become a cheater.Hmm,don't really quite like it ,I feel it a little ridiculous.


3.王子变青蛙



haha,or better known as "the frog show" since I always tend to forget the english title.It's a bit funny,but on the whole,I still think that the cast is a little not convincing.I would say that it's a so-so taiwanese drama.

3.Doragon Sakura


4.Unfair

Have not started watching it yet.=) will give comment about all these later.
Hahaha,there are still a list of dramas waiting for me.=) Such as cL's recommend-Orang


Hanging out
=) This is an usual activity that I will do during the holidays.really appreaciate and grateful that we remain a gathering for every holiday since Secondary 1.=) They are really the precious ones!!My phone is always waiting for their call.=)


I'll be going for a 2 day 1 night trip to Singapore tomorrow.=) will be back shortly!!Hmm,xD Singapore is having their sales now!!!hehehe,you know what I mean!!!

My Wishlist:
=) Ideal Phone
vodafone-sharp 903sh
Really like this phone a lot,=) especially the black one!!





Kat-tun "real face"box set ,"real face" single,"best of kat-tun"album, 'real face 'dvd film




Docomo


all these are not selling here I suppose.hardly see any here.=) I tried very hard to find the box set ,but just couldn't find it,not even in tower records.Can't even find the single ,just anything about this!!getting a little disappointed!!*Sigh*

Just to add on a little,today is a big day!!xD Val's birthday!! I know she tries hard to keep this secret,haha,but just fail to do so because I remember it every year!!=) Presents are to be waited,=) Just want to wish her on this pleasant day,
Happy Birthday,have a sweet 17th!!
gaga,the queen is getting older by a year!!

Youth Exchange Programme

I've heard about this programme since 2 years ago through my sister,sharing some experiences with me on her friend's vacation in Japan.=) It made me urge to give it a try despite I wasn't a Leo member.What I was waiting was my 16th birthday,because that was the lowest eligilibity they required on the applicant's age.In 2006,I finally got the chance to apply for this programme,and I thought my dream would be very near from me since then.Well,I was just a little underestimated on the process.We are required to do a medical check up,a witness,parent's signature and approval for being a host family,an descriptive essay on my education and hobby,signature from the Lion President and many other mere details of my own.To make matter worst,I only had a week to go through all these processes.I believe that I would have done it better if I discovered this earlier.
Firstly,I filled the form at home.It wasn't hard,but I needed to write the same thing for numerous times,as we are required to fill up the same form for 3 times,3 forms each ,and that did not included the host family form.All together we had 6forms.The second day I went to do medical check up with my sister.=) Luckily for us,urine test was not part of check up.The following few days we went to develop family photos as well as passport photo to paste on each and every form they had given.Such busy life had lasted for 6 days.And I thought it was a great relief when I passed the form to the person in charge on my own.nyek nyek nyek......things did not go well as what I thought.
My sister had received a call from the Lion Club immediately on the third day after we passed the forms.informing us to collect our forms from the main office to get the signature from the Lion president of P.J.hmm...I was really worried as I did not know who to turn to.Where do I get his contact number?Would he sign for me?I was so not going to go for the programme.....Do I still stand a chance??After asking all around from my friends,I got to know his contact number from Pei Ji,who's Chi Kheng's friend in TS.I was fear enough to hold the telephone and key in his number.Well,I had to do this because that was my only chance.To my suprise,he's actually a doctor.We decided to meet up in the hospital he works,to have a brief on it and to get his signature..........and there the story begins...
It was a Thursday,we went to his hospital at around 2.30p.m. as promised.I'm just unfortunate enough on that day,because he had a emergency operation to handle right on the moment we went.So we were told to wait for an hour for him.We couldn't do anything but just to sit on the sofa and looking at the clock desperately.How I wished the time will pass faster...and going faster!!!In stead of 3.30,we waited until 4 O'clock and finally the nurse approched us to inform us to go down to the operation room ,....to meet him up.I had forgotten all my fear,I just wanted to go home quickly atthat moment.=) Things went extremely good after that,he just signed for us without any questions asked.We got his signature after waiting for 1 and 1/2 hour,was that worth it?Atleast I tried my best to complete the form.
I'm really doubtful whether I would make my dreams come true.However,this is what you will go through if you do things last minute,perhaps it would be better if the period of time is 1 month...way way better in fact!!!It was a little tiring to compress all these within a week,maybe just worth for a trying.Haha,I wouldn't have tried this for the second time if I failed for this time probably.And now I'm waiting for the good news to come to me,perhaps a bad one!!=) I can hear myself say...Japan in December,Japan,Japan!!!A little dreamy though....

Anyway,I went to this " project superstar" last Sunday with my friends to accompany her.Hmm,I didn't really know the contestants well actually,just one or two whose idols of my friends.Here's some pictures taken with the contestants.....their names??hehehehe....that's too tough for me!!Hakuna matata,and I see the sun again today!!





This is Gary,one of the hosts of 8TV.


This is Wee(Terrence),Chui man's fav!!


=) The end,enjoy!!

Things Change ,People Change.....

The saddest thing at the moment is to sense the changes among people,regardless people around me or even strangers.Things change,people change,I'm doubtful whether it's a positive one,but there's nothing I can do to "pull" them back,just when I realised I might not be anyone to them..perhaps just a human!!Is this because that I'm fear of changes?Or I've changed instead of them?"I didn't recognize you. I've changed a lot."How true is this?
I try to look further,to avoid my heart from being deeply moved and influences my mind.Nothing stays forever,no matter how hard I try to remain it.If it is not meant to remain the same forever,I know it is the time for me to let go a little bit,and make a stap behind.Be it a far distance between us,but that's the biggest compromize I could make.I still fail to be a good person,I suppose.I'm really not good enough maybe....

True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost.
-Charles Caleb Colton-
How wonderful quotes are...

=) April Updates

It has been a long for me to post on my blog.=)Exams were over,and I got the result,I see some improvement.Sadly,there are always competitors in front of me,which motivates me to work hard always,to beat myself instead.I care less about the people in front,but do not neglect the people behind.

1.4.06
This was a special april fool,as I went to ICC Concert for the first time,having no idea what was that about.I was amazed by the sea of people when I reached,but not suprised to see all of them were youths at all.I think the greatest factor which brought to its success was theie aim was majorly the youths and they did tackle the interest of the youths nowadays well.Hmm...will just leave this to a blank.I see hard work,and I spent an enjoyble evening.And now that I realised that I'm still not used to sitting in a place where screaming and yelling are everywhere every moment,YES,every second,every moment.

In fact,before this I went back to Nilai to hold the Ching Ming festivals.I think my family remains a great tradition where every of our relatives on my dad's side will gather together to visit my grandparents,"shao mu" in other words.It is the only time I get to visit them and show my respect to them,although I know that there's nothing much I can do and help.It was 9 years back when my grandmother past away,and I couldn't forget the last breathe she held.Everyone of us had the praying session which lasted for 3 days after that.It was painful,I would say.

I'm entering for the mendeklamasikan sajak bahasa cina on next wednesday.Knowing how bad I perform,I think I really need more practices to not embarass my teammates.I will never forget the shocking moment which happened last year,haha,where everyone of us still sticked to our seats when we were annouced as the 2nd runner up of the competition.It was unbelievable though..and for the first time,they showed the blur face like I always do.haha...funny though!!!
Just hope that the luck continues....

Recently there are many flashers hanging outside of the school,hiding in the bushes when the students are having classes.Being on the 2nd floor,it's obvious for us to have a clear look on the flashers opposite the class,where the park is.Lucky for me,=) a protective cupboard is blocking my scene,blocking all the views which I'm not supposed to see.For what I heard from Sam,there are many flashers instead of the same person,malays,indians and chinese as well.How muhibah is our society..haha!!!According to her,they often come on thurs afternoon.Those who are interested in helping to capture and trace them..please go ahead!!The best thing is Sam was given permisson by Pn Chua to bring camera to school,to capture more exclusives.....xD,and report it to the school.

Coming up next will be a post on my experience of applying the YOUTH EXCHANGE PROGRAMME,=) have a pleasant weekend friends,all the best!!

習慣

好想嘗試以中文字來好好地寫一篇日記﹐這算是蠻有紀念性的吧﹐=) 今年的第一次就先獻給了這個唷!!
30分鐘之間之前﹐我接到了一位遠方朋友所傳來的好消息﹐是關於他的 SPM成勣的消息。看着他一直以來為了自己的目標而努力﹐為了自己的理想而堅持﹐其實得到這成勣也並不感到太意外﹐可說是意料之中的吧!但﹐也因為他的努力不懈為他帶來了收穫﹐其實也正在提醒我該為自己的目標而好好地努力﹐不能容許之後的遺憾與後悔。不過還是為他感到開心﹐=)我就知道你是可以的﹗﹗

習慣....
這陣子為了很多事情而忙碌﹐有時候會失去了方向﹐但也因為任何停止的理由﹐所以還是一一地完成了。與其說是外來的壓力﹐不如說是我已經開始習慣了壓力的存在﹐內心開始接受了這一位新成員的到了。我曾幾何時選擇了不去妥協﹐但哪往往只是自己一廂情願的想法﹐即使自己不強迫自己﹐給予自己適當的壓力﹐但殘酷的人永遠都存在﹐因為這是一個五花八門的世界。別人認為我一向都應付得到﹐幫得上忙﹐所以我失去了不幫忙的理由﹐而她們也見見地把我的付出當成是一種再好不過的習慣。因為﹐只要有什麼不妥的﹐這裡永遠都會有一位張佩雯。疲倦已不是第一次擁有的心情﹐只不過在這幾年更了解疲倦的滋味。疲倦了應付表面功夫﹐所以開始不太對自己不喜歡的人吐露太多﹐即使是再厭惡不過的人﹐也選擇了不跟自己作對﹐一笑置之。面對不珍惜自己的人﹐說再多也不會得到相等的珍惜﹐只會被千夫所指。

友情.........
習慣了別人對我的批評﹐所以我都把這些收在心裡。假若大家是想用這點來攻擊我﹐我只能說我已經到達了百毒難侵的階段﹐很難再對這些做出反應。無論在樣貌上﹐行為上﹐品格上﹐我都會對自己有一個定格﹐我慢慢地了解到好朋友們對我的印象﹐因為比起這些﹐我更在意她們對我的想法。這些才是我必須去在意的。我無法為樣貌上做出任何改變﹐因為我相信神明的安排﹐無論再多做些什麼有違天意的事﹐到頭來只會得到相對的結果﹐而我選擇了自然﹗我對自己沒有太大的自信﹐也沒有對朋友們存在這邪惡的野心﹐我堅信用真正的心曲對待﹐每一位值得珍惜的朋友﹐是我認為最好的方法。朋友之間的交往不存在太多的欺詐與謊言﹐友誼才不會到達過期的階段﹐而是永遠都存在于保限期。我不否認當中有令我失望的人﹐再慢慢地利用着我對她的好﹐而從不真正嘗試了解過我每一刻的心情﹐但這也讓我有了重新認識每一個人的機會。人是會變的生物﹐所以很多時候必須不斷地重新認識一位相識的朋友﹐即使是再久的朋友﹐可要用更久的時間來認識更多面的她。就因為這樣﹐而更加地發現她們的好﹐會更加地去保護這友情。

親情….
一向以來我都不太對家庭成員訴說秘密﹐我都把秘密收在心裡﹐大家平時的談話也大部份也存在與生活化的話題。今年三姐的生日﹐我在生日禮物當中也放了一封信﹐向她訴說了很多這些日子來的想法﹐更多她帶給我的改變。哪是一封在淚水下完成的信件﹐也許是自己內心的想法所致﹐所以感觸良多。這也是我第一次提筆寫信給她﹐所以我很珍惜這次的機會﹐寫了很多﹐我害怕我沒有勇氣再寫任何一封的信了﹐雖然我想說的還有很多很多。我﹐還是決定了把更多的收在心裡。=)一定有機會再把它一一訴說出來。三姐是一位我很敬仰的姐姐﹐也許是她年齡與我相近﹐在家見面機會也最多﹐所以我跟她感情最深﹐她知道我最多﹐大家就存在于互相依靠的關係。我很珍惜大家給我的每一份愛。也因為人類不是計算機﹐不可能公平地區分每一段給予的關懷的份量﹐也因為這樣才存在與喜歡與不喜歡﹐愛的分別﹗
雖然如此﹐大家對我的愛我都收下了﹐我也明白這些。我保護我所得到的﹐我給予我所能夠給的﹐我希望大家互相依靠的關係會一直維持着﹐空氣中永遠充滿着和平的氣息﹗﹗
[我喜歡寧靜的感覺﹐寧靜讓我有了思考的機會]

這一刻的我﹐是平靜的﹐不多話﹗﹗

18.2.06
It was a pleasant day.I went to watch a great performance by the CHS orchestra band.It did open up my eyes and for me to realise that how much improvement should be done for our school's orchestra.But it isn't fair to compare with a school with many experiences to a newly formed band.=) It was a great performance ,and frankly speaking,it could have be better without the presence of the choir group.It reminded me of my sis,and I shed a tear at that moment,no one realised it,I supposed.She's the one who brought me into music.But she doesn't know it...




23.2.06-25.2.06
Marching isn't as tough as what I expected,not when we are marching under the sun.It was gruelling,but not the commander who exhaustedme ,it was the sun who made me feel lost and did some mistakes.I truly hope that I will not disappoint them,and I will not slower down the team's progess.*crosses finger and pray hard for our marching on sports day.*

25.2.06
Today is Eileen's birthday,hope that she has a great day.Life continues,so cheer up eL!!Light up your 17th as it will only be once in life,once is gone,it can never be retraced.

Happy 17th Birthday!!!=) Sweet 17th!!

March test is coming,and I'm on my way doing revision.Perhaps not much,but I will try to do more.=) I'll have a week break in return.In fact,most of my peeps are having exams too,so all the best!!And we shall gather again during the holidays!!God knows how excited am I for the gathering!!

Recently watched:

把手放在胸口上，可感到心臟的脈動聲真高興，因為我仍然活着
昨日と同じ景色を見て、昨日と同じ道を歩いているのに、私の世界はまるで変わってしまった。きっともう、あんな風には笑えない。昨日までの私は、もうどこにもいない。
p/s:生命无常，请把握每一刻，珍惜自己的生命!!极力推荐!!

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I went to watch "Fearless" two days ago.Just a sentence of comment,I think it's a worth-watching movie and I think it's succesful.I'm more to telling the outings than the movie in fact.A little special from the past,I went to watch this movie with someone else,and I got some critism after all.I've got nothing to say if it was because of my voice and behaviour which irritated them.Whatever question they asked,I answered,and I hardly find a same topic to continue on our conversation,so I decided to keep quiet all the while.And this is what they meant-not socialize..After this,I realized that you will never feel the same if there are someone who you are not familiar with.I got some critism on my clothing,hmm,that's not what I care the most,so be it aunty,I just want to wear something which I prefer,follow the style I am.To be honest,this outing didn't pleasant me much,and I probably will not do such anymore.It was because of "fearless"that made me go out....hmm,guess it was also because of that I got all these critisms.However,all these are not what hurt me the most,I've experienced much much more of this,so nothing much!!

Life did not go well as what I thought,dog year did not change my life to be smoother.The environment,the people.I've met some really terrible people ,annoying people,selfish people,and I really do think they are the worst people in my life.Things and people change,but it is changing tremendously.They can be good with you for this second,but enemy for the next second.They treat you good when they need you,and the reason is just because that you are useful to them.They don't tend to wish you on your birthday,share a little sadness in you,in fact they want you to share theirs.I don't see much difference in a co and single sex school.We are all teenagers,and no matter where are you from,if you want to change,nothing can stop!!!This adolescent age just encourages them to become more "cyberfied",all focus on their needs,and supporting the "I,Me,Myself" moto.I understand not all of them are inculcated with this,but it makes me feel scared to have a closer relationship with them.They are angels at times,and evil at times.It took me years to really see through a person,atleast understand their chatateristics.I don't need much time to observe annoying people,they are too obvious to be seen,in just a few sights.
The good ones are the hardest to find.People who like me will give compliments like" good,understanding,innocent".However,I will not neglect those negative voices saying that I'm "cool,action,selfish,ugly" in heart.I won't be suprised if I heard so,I can't help if they have bad impressions on me,anything I do will not pleasant them in anyway.I still keep myself quiet,I don't really share much with them.

Too much of this,=)and I'll end this post by introducing a drama which I'm currently watching,"It started with a kiss".=) Enjoy because I do enjoy it a lot.Will blog about this later.=) Do listen to the soundtrack because it is good.Not bad atleast....

Christmas trip in Singapore

Here are some pictures which we took before,on and also after christmas.=) In fact,it was the most frequent christmas celebration I had.=) No matter what,I hope all of you do enjoy the pictures below,part of it.

Christmas outings

This is Cl and I at OU



Mk and I at OU.



Good budies of mine

Mom and I at orchard road.


Christmas tree and I.hehe=) with sis too.


Uncle David and I


Mom and I at sentosa.


Family photo at Sentosa.


The Lion and I.


Siloso beach.

Silosa beach.


My sis and I at siloso.


Enjoy!!!

New year resolutions

=) I only manage to put this up now,hahah,although this should be posted at the beginning of the year.In my opinion,2006 is a nice number to be mentioned,but obviously not a nice year to me,and probably my peers.haha,it's a busy year again,but it's going to an end,since this is our last year in high school.Maybe I should enjoy the life in there,although I did not enjoy the life there for the past,haha,make some difference for my last year there,try something new?hmmm...maybe.I've actually thought of joining choir or cheer,something who really interest me a lot.But reffering to my schedule again,I realise that's just something out of reach,and unfortunately have to be sacrificed,hahah!!And orchestra,it's really sad to make this tough decision....plucking flowers will not help!!Because I have no choice but to quite,I suppose.

1.=) Since this is an exam year,so it's just another study year.Study hard,and strike as much A's as possible.I wonder the A's which are in my hands now,but I will study harder.I hope it works.
2.Break?yes,I would say that this year is a disaster.Hmm...I believe that most of u are just having the same fate.=)I really wish that the new year will come faster.=)This is a season for me to celebrate,partly and hibernate,mostly!!
3.Experience something new.=) I think I'm just going a step further,approaching something new,join some activities,gatherings,and all these will be brought together after I leave school.Of course,it will be something within the foundation and curfew.
4.Go for youth-exchange.=) This is what I always want to try on,since Form 3,and it would most probably be Japan since I've not been there before.I really hope to have the opputunity,but bad things may happen in a sudden,=) I think this is an interesting and exciting experience,but somehow I need a companion.yeah,what I need is the approval and a companion.*sigh*
5.That's still a promise which I owe to my pen-pal,besides from the exchange thinggy,I will probably go on a Taiwan trip to visit him.He's a great friend,he really is.Just that I can't go for 2 at the same time,so it will just be an alternative.
6.Finish my japanese study,though I think it will be a bit impossible,but I'm trying hard by taking it twice a week.=) But that does not matter,as long as I understand and able to speak.=) Really grateful to my teacher who's also a japanese,she's really friendly.=) Haha,but she prefers to call me "chan" instead of "san".I'm happy to be a kid though,lol!!And I will always remember what she says,"pui mun chan wa itsumo ichiban desu,ganbatte".
7.There are just plenty of stuffs which I hope to buy,hmm.I actually hope to own an I-pod,but it's fine because I'm sharing it with my sis."Beautiful soul" by Jesse has always be in my list.I'm also observing for things to light up my room,make it look better.I think Ikea will be an ideal place for all these.haha,anyone who's willing to sponsor some is welcomed.
8.To go on a trip with my peeps after SPM.I had only been once with my friends,hmm,none with secondary ones.The place doesn't matter,the people present is what matters.Hope to experience a good trip with them.
9.To have "amigo" .(it's a japanese single,by shuuji to aki,who are also members from a temporary group)
10.Parents stay healthy,especially dad.Have a good life in Brunei,sis.=) It's already more than a month after ur wedding.And I'm glad that you are still sharing a room with me for the moment,I know you are leaving soon,so I wish you all the best,I will miss you.This is a seperating year,since everyone is leaving,either marrying or going overseas.Hmm,I will miss all three of you.And I will take good care of mom and dad,always.


Basically this is what I wish to have.=) But I think it is going to be updated as there are more and more coming up in my mind.=) Everybody is meant for a wish,wish makes life better,do you think so?It's not bad to be dreamy sometimes,that where creativity comes from,same as courage.=) Happy new year to everyone.And I still owe all of you a christmas post.coming soon...coming soon....