Two is better than one

I believe the saying 'two is better than one' fits my love life perfectly. Dating makes my life busy in a good way, as things that I used to do alone previously is now being done in two. Knowing that I don't have to try too hard just to satisfy his desire, I can open up myself to him completely and talk about everything. In these 8 months,  I've been learning the appropriate communicating skills to get along with the second person closest to me after my family, and build up the bridge together. 

Doing things together didn't exist in my dictionary all the while because I was so trained to do things individually and independently, so well that I could manage my emotions and dissolve the negativity in me by myself. But this relationship is giving me a chance to re-gain the idea of doing things together and embrace the awesome-ness of it, in which I'm very very grateful for. I'm very grateful that unhappy past did not take away all of my faith in relationships, but I took the positive side of it and alleviated the pain by giving more to the right person. Now that I look back, every step I've made has brought me to where I am now, and I keep learning along the journey to become better.

One thing I'm even more grateful of, is to have you by my side :) 

Come on over, and we will work things out together.

Last Friday was a photography+dating day, we explored the world's tallest Tim Soldier together. 

Home is our primary hang out place as we spend an enormous amount of time staying at home besides eating out. One of the effective ways to make our day more interesting is to generate some random conversations to discuss. Surprisingly, hairstyles appear to be a hot topic between us, I have no idea why~

I think most Taiwanese guys have this long+straight hair fantasy over their girlfriends because having a short hair girlfriend is his taboo. We discussed about this for many many times, and finally came to a consensus on a hair length that both of us can accept. For now, my hair can't go any shorter than shoulder length. Hehe but I'm sure I'll be able to convince him one day in letting me to try on a cool short hair. As long as I can make him believe that I'll look good in it, why not...... right?

Having said that, I have complete freedom in choosing the fashion styles I want to venture in. I'm recently addicted to hats and I bought a few to experiment. Don't be surprised if you see a Hip Hop me in future because I've started to allow some hip-hopness slipping into my fashion styles.

My first time trying on a baseball cap and I love it very much!

Despite I'm lazy in hair styling, I'm quite surprised to see so many different sides of me in just a year, more amazed at what hairstyles can do to the entire look. With just a little twist or adding some accessories and I'm instantly looking different!! That just encourages me to try on even more styles in future. 

Never stop trying is always my life motto, especially when I'm getting nearer and nearer to mid 20's, I should totally make full use of my remaining youth in exploring youth fashion ideas ;)

The Time Of My Life

So, there's one more week left before my new journey starts. All this while, I never think that it is a sad thing to leave what I possess here, to a new land where I've no idea how is it going to be, because the goodbye is not forever. I know sometime, someday, somewhere, I'll be meeting and recollect them again.

Val sent me a meaningful sms before she left to New Zealand. I still remember, that it was on Valentine's day, also, the day I had such excruciated diarrhea until I missed her flight , my pain!

" I'm not sad now going to NZ, I realize why, behind the goodbye I say to you, I know there's always a see you tomorrow. "

" When I go to NZ, I'm not leaving you. I can't. You guys are everything I am"

Yes, there's always a see you tomorrow.

Thank you for letting me to understand a point, that there's no need to exaggerate the pain of leaving, because you and I, are going through a new phase of life after all.

This, is what I called the time of my life, the one chance that I'm manipulating my future, inside out.

I'm glad to have the opportunity to choose for what I want, to have family and friends to support my decision, to leave aside the doubts by others. Maturity has taught me how to filter the hesitation and unfaithful by others, to make myself feel better. Because I know, end of the day, I'm still me. I won't choose to not do it because less people are choosing it, if it was meant to be a good choice. Few years later, it'll be the time where I can share my thoughts and different experiences to people proudly, meanwhile listening to theirs. It all starts from my willingness to move forward.

I know, I leave for good.

Come to think of it, it's good enough to have friends being warm enough to organize a farewell gathering for you.I didn't realise my value from others' perceptions until I'm told so, until they do something touching to make me feel good,what more for that?

You guys make the most of myself.

There are so many other ways that I can put an effort on to keep in touch with all of you. It makes me feel so close that I'm just switching to a new place, but not any further than that. I'll still be able to chit-chat with you on all the crappy stuffs through Skype, up-to-date details about myself through photos and blogging, I'm mentally and spiritually with you, you and you.

Some ask if I would be afraid of what is going to come. Whenever that I'm afraid, I have to conquer it, this is how I make my life indifferent. If I were to fear on everything that's coming, I think, I'll be an insomniac sometime soon.Failure, pain, and then gain.That's where I learn everytime I fall, just like whatever doesn't kill you simply makes you stranger, stronger.

My siblings have been telling me that life in university is among one of the best.

I know, this is the time, this is the time of my life. I know.

Meanwhile,I sincerely hope you will grab the time of your life.




Bin Anh Village, Vung Tau, Vietnam

My Choice, My Decision

I just read a travelogue lately, about this charming city-Vancouver. It's the third largest city in Canada with the population of 600,000.Generally not much of us know the city well, one of my impressions on Vancouver is that it's one of the cities with highest immigration rate in the world,especially HongKongnese immigrants. It's about 30 hours of flight(*sweat*) from here,Malaysia.In other words, it's about a journey of 6 meals+10 times of toilet+20 hours of sleeping+ 6 hours of movies and games to actually step into this beautiful land.




Why would I suddenly blog about Vancouver?



It might be one of the destinations I would be staying in future,since I've applied to the University of British Columbia(UBC), which is located in there.
People always like to question about my decision, and I'm most willingly to share with you my thoughts, every bit of it which leads to my judgement.

Both of my elder sisters were Australian Universities graduants , this reduces my wish to study abroad in the same country as I hope to have gone to a totally new environment to pursue my degree. I've never doubted on Aussie being a nice and ideal place to study, which attracts more than 300,000 local pupils to continue with their dreams in Australia. Come to think of it, I don't quite feel like going there when I see at least quarter the familiar faces I once met during primary or secondary school, to be reunited in university. It is not a matter of being an escaper, avoiding my former classmates, just that I feel entering a foreign university symbolizes a new start of my life, a completely strange place awaiting me to cope with it, but not a familiar place which allows me to pamper myself, still behaving as though I'm a princess at home.

After all, why must I follow the heat,and rush myself into some of the popular universities,knowing that they're not my first choice.

Then I widened my options and considered on UK and Canada. It's undeniably that UK seems to win lots of parents' hearts due to its prestigious institutions,also of the reason that UK has established a historical and contemporary educational systems, which immediately outstands among the rests.

Well, I like UK for its historical and cultural means, but the likeness isn't enough to convince me to put UK as my top priority for overseas study. Many people like UK, but somehow my instict is telling me that UK isn't the right place for me. WHY? I suppose I struggle too much on the people's friendliness as well as the living cost, despite my parents are leaving me the biggest freedom to choose on the place I wanted to go.Moreover, going to a more expensive place must result in getting a higher grade to me, or else everywhere would be the same to study, I'm very much motivated in that sense.

Then I've come to a consideration on Vancouver, Canada. It was completely out of the list initially, only started to come into my mind when my sister encouraged me to think about studying in Canada. It was tremendous how my mind slowly moved by her words, after researching on the place as well as the university, Vancouver is really an ideal choice I feel. Speaking about weather, it's warmer than Toronto, with average temperature 20+ and lowest temperature is about 0-2 celcius. This weather shouldn't be a problem to me after my Japan trip 2 years ago, as I'm always favourable to Winter season, the season of Snow and Christmas! In addition, Chinese population is the second largest in the city, which makes me feel warmer inside. I've always liked the feeling of being surrounded by Asians,as I'm rooted from there.Although I'll surely make western friends, I have a strong feeling that my future friends will mainly be Asians still. Those of them who share similar culture,tradition as I am. Moreover, more Asians==>more Asian cuisine based restaurants===> life can never be better than getting to enjoy the home food I never needed to spend time to find it in Malaysia.I'll be feeling home!! Of course, Canada's natural beauty has always been an affiniti to me, it will mean more weekends trip and nice shots in future.

*The only weak point of it is the distance from Malaysia though.=(

But I have to say, it's still way too early to dream on all these,as I haven't got to sniff a little of the good news from all the universities that I've applied to.
As a matter of fact, the thought of not getting even one admission letter is hauting me. I myself am not confident that the admission staffs will consider much about my application after a glance on my results,it's not persuasive enough.*shakes head*
I'm harbouring for a hope, a hope that will bring some difference in my life.


I've also noticed that friends are getting worried about my life when I'm off the country. I know, what you all are worrying about, is something I've been thinking for almost every night. I'm a shilly-shally person, always fail to become a shrewd and brave girl, this is what I discovered when I see my sisters are so capable of handling problems. I find myself uselss,and there's a lot for me to learn about life yet! Having an opportunity of kicking myself out of the comfort zone and learning things independently is a survival skill for me in capable of confronting more hardships from time to time.
No..no one but just myself for this time.

=) I'm grateful to have received all the encouraging sentences from each and everyone of you. I don't need much friends, I just need those who're with me now.
Always, and will always be. Thank you for being understandable and support me wholeheartedly.

* Pui Mun's recession session will soon be ended, I need to catch up,walk faster to a new life, I can't afford to stay on miscellaneous things already*


Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right?
Have you ever?

("Have You Ever" by Westlife)

Yes I do, and what makes me fall makes me stronger after all, only after tearing and heart-smashing, that I'm able to smile to myself again.=)

Thank you to Mk, Cl and Atlee bro.