I had an in-depth conversation with my old friend a few days earlier, so deep that I thought I saw the shadow of myself when I was once put in the same shoes. I saw the previous self who was confronting the same dilemma, with the same options, and the choice fell on the question to weather prioritize myself first or the other person first.
She asked me : What should I do?
I paused for a while, that wasn’t a question out of my mind, I could have given her a rational answer if I was the same old me a few years back. But time can be a nasty thing sometimes, it changes a lot of things and retards my emotions, to the extent when I lost faith on things which were once perforable to my soul.
If possible, I wouldn’t want to see my best friend going through what I had gone through earlier and feeling the same uneasiness and despair in life. It was tough, I harmed myself too much and tore myself apart during the recovery.Now that I’m recovered, I’m really reluctant to see the repeat on another person, especially when it happens to the people that I care for life. Even if it’s meant to be selfish to the other people, I’m hoping that she can decide the best for herself, just for once, be selfish for your own good.
Then I smiled, I seemed to understand my past better after witnessing the same experience being put in another person’s life. I really wished I had a friend who gave me the push at the time, just like what I did to her. Making a start is not always the hardest thing to do, it’s the preparation you have to make in ending something that makes it painful.
Please, take my luck and blessing with you, for your blissfulness is a sweet serendipity of mine.I'm with you, my friend.